George said, “What in hell did you bring him here for? Boy, I just can’t make you out.”
“He didn’t have anywheres to go,” Henry said.
“Crap.” He pushed open the screen a crack and spat. “You bring home every rattler you find in the weeds?”
“I don’t shoot at everything that moves on the theory it might be a rattler.”
George Loomis looked out at the road. “I guess that makes you Jesus, don’t it.”
“Oh, for Christ’s sake, George,” Henry said.
George nodded, then shook his head.
“Don’t go away mad, George,” Henry said. He gave a little laugh.
“Let me ask you just one thing,” he said. “Does it make you feel righteous, taking him in out of the cold like that?”
“I don’t know.”
“The hell you don’t.”
Henry held fire a second, then he let go. “It’s a question nobody in his right mind would bother to answer,” he said. “You, now, you can feel righteous all right, but anybody else it’s a dirty word. If I feel righteous for taking him in I’m a bastard, and if I don’t I’m a fool, because there’s no reason for taking him in except to give myself the thrill of righteousness, according to you.”
George said, smiling but hissing it at him, “And why did you take him in?”
“Get out,” Henry said. “I mean it. Get out of here.”
George put his hat on.
“He’s the devil,” Simon Bale said, right at Henry’s elbow. “The devil is in him.” Bale’s eyes were fire. Henry looked furiously past him. “May the devil have no power in this house,” Simon said. He was in deadly earnest.
Henry said, “Damn you, Simon, shut up before—”
“You tell ’im, Lord,” George said. He left.
9
Henry Soames was less and less sure, as the days passed, why it was he’d taken on the role of friend and protector to Simon Bale. His mother-in-law appeared day after day, saying nothing, butting in on his affairs and condemning him for his own mismanagement only by her presence. Because of the way he’d let the thing drag on, Callie scarcely spoke to him now from morning to night. Once when Doc Cathey came in and made some stupid remark (Henry could no longer remember it) and Henry had blown up at him, Callie had said with quiet rage, “Are you satisfied? Henry, when are you going to have had enough?” On Sunday morning, the second week of his stay, Simon Bale went out on his calls, and Henry was so angry he felt sick — angry at something he couldn’t even name: not the people who would be thinking, He comes from Henry’s place, glides down from his cool tranquility to our poor ordinary mortal domain where you earn your keep by the sweat of your fucking brow; not angry at Simon, exactly, either, whose materialization on some country porch carried, inevitably, the sanction Henry had never given and whose preaching was, insidiously, the word from Henry Soames; not angry, even, at himself, because what he had done was beyond stupidity or wisdom, it was what it was, pure and simple, old clothes on a clothesline, neither bad nor good, merely there, the inevitable and inexorable law of Henry’s constitution. Seeing Simon slumped down again, accused and no more able to answer than a fat, stupid sheep could answer his butcher, Henry would do it all again, this time knowing even as he did it the complete absurdity of what he did; and seeing the woman’s blistered, naked body in the morgue, in the gloom and the inexhaustible stench of the hospital’s bowels, he’d react to even that as he’d done before, would raise her up at his own incredibly excessive expense, and would feel the same useless irrelevant remorse at having done what it was impossible for him not to do, and, as before, he’d no doubt by the very necessity of his nature keep the thing as secret as he could, revealing it only in the form of cryptic red entries in his books.
So that if Henry had no reasons for having taken Simon in, he nevertheless accepted the fact that he’d done it and couldn’t get out of it now, come hell or high water — and they would. George Loomis and Doc Cathey still came in from time to time, but between them and Henry there was a coolness now that none of them could dispel. Ironically — as Henry saw — George Loomis’s anger was partly at what Henry was doing to himself, letting Simon Bale take over his house, pervert his natural feeling for justice to a sick kind of pity, turn his diner into a beggar’s banquet, rob him of all he had ever saved, all he had every right to call his own. And partly, of course, George’s anger was the effect of just and reasonable envy. The two of them had been close once, and it was unforgivable that Simon should have Henry’s ear, should be free to talk nonsense without fear of contradiction or reproach, and George Loomis not. What right had Simon Bale to dawdle in Henry Soames’ garden or dispossess him of his bench? But he was there, apparently settled there more or less permanently; he showed no sign of going down again to the Grant Hotel. Thinking about that gulf yawning wider and wider between himself and George, Henry Soames would clench his fists in anger. He would rather have George to talk to, late at night; there was no question about that. George was brighter, even if he was sometimes irascible and overbearing; and he’d been around longer — though by now Simon Bale seemed to have been here, not only inside Henry’s house but inside his skin, forever. And George was not, like Simon, a bore. They would fight far into the night, in the old days, battling over nothing at all with splendid thrusts and sallies and glorious alarums, never knowing for sure who was winning or who was losing and not caring much, since nobody ever really lost in those airy wars. But it was different now. Though they still talked, they talked as if from opposite ends of an expanding universe: because one of them no longer talked with his own voice or defended what he could honestly consider his own kingdom.
As for Doc Cathey, he came and went like a shadow no longer of any great significance. Sometimes in the past he had been for Henry an older and wiser spirit, someone to lean on, likely to come up with outrageous opinions but nevertheless sure to come up with opinions that, one way or another, would be of use. But he had nothing whatever to say, now. If he approved Henry’s course he gave no sign. He would laugh sometimes, as if at nothing, but he left in his wake nothing solid to catch hold of, only the nameless turbulence of his indefinite, violent moods.
Most of the time Simon Bale would sit there in the sun, watching Jimmy play, telling him stories, or sleeping. At other times they would find Simon crying in his room. Both the sitting and the familiar grief, by now an old friend to Simon, were disgusting to Henry, and he would be tempted to lash out at the man with all the thunder of his indignation. He didn’t, though, and in fact couldn’t, because the fact was that Simon had every right to his grief, and it was his grief that lay both behind his dawdling, day after day, and his mourning alone in his room.
But idleness and crying weren’t enough for him. He went further: He began to appear in the diner with his pamphlets (he was shaving again now; that much could be said; but on the other hand he’d given up taking off his suit when he went to sleep). He would get into conversation with the customers, smiling his idiotic smile or standing there with his mouth hanging open, rolling his eyes, craning his dirty, wrinkled neck.