“ I could’ve just played the CD if you wanted to hear Sgt. Pepper.”
“ It’s not the same as hearing it on the radio. Could you turn it up?”
“ Why not?” She turned it up a little, but not full blast like it was earlier.
“ Because when you hear it on the radio, you know you’re sharing the music with all the other people listening. It’s not like you’re alone in your room, with headphones, trying to block out the world.”
“ I never thought of it like that,” she said as she was leaving the room.
The medicines were in the hall bathroom. She went straight for the medicine cabinet, opened it, took out the peroxide and noticed two partially used inhalers on the bottom shelf. She took one out and gave herself two puffs, for safety’s sake, then put it back. She still had the one in her pocket. With the peroxide in her hand, she hurried into the kitchen, but stopped as soon as she entered the room.
She started to reach for the light switch, but stayed her hand. She heard a faint scratching sound, mingled with the music filtering from her room, but couldn’t tell where it was coming from, the living room, dining room or the hallway behind her. She had thought she was safe. They’d heard a car go screeching away. But cars can come back. She heard the sound again as it intermixed and twisted with the music and rippled stereo-like throughout the house
She wanted to go shooting back to her bedroom and the safe and familiar sound of one of her very most favorite songs, She’s Leaving Home, because that’s what she’d been wanting to do for a long time, but her feet were frozen in place. What if it was behind her? She had to know where it was coming from, before she could run away from it. She listened for the sound, but heard only the thump, thump, thump of her pulse beating between her ears, till it drowned out the soothing sounds of John, Paul, George and Ringo. She took small, silent breaths, not wanting to betray her position. She wondered how, whoever it was, had gotten in the house. The windows were all locked and the front and back doors were deadbolted shut.
It wasn’t possible for someone to be in here with her. She heard the sound again. There was no mistaking where it was coming from this time. It was in the kitchen with her. She wanted to scream, but her mouth was frozen shut and dry. She had never been so thirsty. She caught a quick vision of Arty gulping down the water from her rinsing glass. She wasn’t as scared then as she was now.
Arty had been scared though, but he still protected her. He got shot pushing her out of the way. If it wasn’t for him she would probably be dead. She wished he was here with her now, instead of listening to the Beatles carry on about Lovely Rita the meter maid.
Silverware crashed on the floor on the other side of the kitchen and something came rushing along the kitchen counter toward her. She heard it as it thumped onto the floor and she jumped sideways, banging into the breakfast table, dropping the peroxide.
Sheila squealed when the jar landed on her back.
Carolina caught her breath and fought to keep from laughing. She’d been scared over nothing but Sheila. She turned on the light and chased away the dark.
“ You bad girl,” she said, in a soothing voice that conveyed the exact opposite of what she was saying to the ferret. “Did I hurt you?” She bent over and scooped her pet up and picked up the peroxide. “You know you’re not supposed to be in this part of the house. What if Mom catches you? I’d be having ferret stew for dinner. You wouldn’t want that, would you?”
She continued talking to the animal as she crossed the kitchen and got a sauce pan from the cupboard next to the oven. She smiled, bent again, picking up the silverware Sheila had knocked out of the dish strainer and plopped them back in it. Then she filled the pan with warm water.
“ Now you, little girl, I have to go and check on Arty and I want you to be good. No getting jealous, okay?”
The ferret answered her by wiggling in her hand. Carolina set it on her shoulder. She needed both hands to carry the pan of water.
“ I didn’t go anywhere,” Arty said, trying to make a joke. She’d been gone for three and a half songs and he was starting to get worried.
She set the pan of water down on the nightstand and the ferret jumped from her shoulder to the bed as Carolina went over and shut off the radio. “I’m kind of tired of the Beatles, tonight,” she said.
“ Yeah, me too,” he said as she went in the bathroom.
She came out a second later with a wash cloth and towel. “I hope this doesn’t hurt too much.” She moved back up behind him on the bed. “I’m not supposed to be doing this, you know-I’m only a kid.” She soaked the towel in the water and dabbed at the blood.
“ That feels good,” he said, meaning it. The feel of her warm hands on his cold skin sent shivers of pleasure up his spine, drowning away the pain.
“ It’s only a little cut, right by your back bone, not even an inch. Don’t move again.” She slid off the bed. “Be right back.”
“ Where are you going?”
“ To get some bandages.”
He took a look around her room while she was gone and was surprised to find that it didn’t look like what he thought a girl’s room should look like at all.
On her bed was a plain, baby blue, chenille bedspread, worn and years old. She had a large, long haired Teddy bear sitting between her two pillows. The ferret was curled up in its lap, watching him. It seemed alert, aware and afraid.
He reached out a hand to her and Sheila scurried into his lap, eager for a calm reassuring petting. He complied and stroked her fur. She wasn’t afraid of him, so he reasoned it must be the red eyes he’d seen looking in the window that had the ferret on edge.
“ How you doing?” Carolina asked, coming back into the room for the second time. Her eyebrows were knitted close together and she was wearing a frown. “Even though it seems like only a scratch, maybe you should go to the doctor. I cut myself on a broken milk bottle once and my mom didn’t take me to the doctor, because she thought it was no big deal and now I have this big scar.”
“ Where?” he asked, wide eyed and interested.
“ On my right arm.” She showed him a two inch scar that started at her elbow and inched down toward the back of her hand. Her frown changed into a smile as she saw him looking at it.
He winced as she applied the peroxide and winced again as she applied three bandages, cross wise because he wouldn’t go to the doctor and get stitches. There was no way he wanted his dad to find out.
“ What am I gonna put on?” he said, again conscious that he was naked from the waist up, that he was roly poly fat, that he was China bone white, and that sweat was pouring like rain from under his arms.
“ I have one of my dad’s old Army shirts.” She went to her bottom dresser drawer and opened it. “Sheila sleeps on it.” She pulled out a faded military green fatigue shirt, shook it, and brought it over to him. “Here.”
He took the offered shirt, pulling an arm behind himself to put it on. Sliding in the other arm, he smiled-he liked the way the old cotton felt next to his skin, and he smiled even broader when he was surprised to see that it fit. It was a man’s shirt. For a second he felt a tinge of pride, then he remembered that the only reason it fit was because he was fat.
“ I was sure lucky you came over tonight,” she said. “You saved my life.” The gratitude in her perfect mint green eyes was real.
He was embarrassed and turned away.
“ No, really,” she said. “If you wouldn’t have come over, one of those bullets would have killed me, because I’d probably have been sitting right there playing with Sheila. And if you wouldn’t have jumped on me, the bullet that sliced your back would have gone right through me. So, no matter if you like it or not, you saved my life. I’m going to have to follow you around forever, until I can save yours. Then we’ll be even.” She smiled.
He looked over at the remains of the smashed Tiffany lamp and noticed a hole in the wall, by her dresser. That bullet would have smashed into her small body and tore up her insides, pulling out blood, guts and gore.