His gaze found her. “So it was another lie.”
She nodded, wanting to tell him everything. Wanting to tell him that that night, long ago, when she’d done the thing she most regretted, was also the night she’d done the thing she least regretted.
He’d made her laugh and smile. He’d made her feel beautiful.
For the first time in her life.
For the only time in her life.
She opened her mouth to tell him just that, to try to explain, but he was already speaking. “Daniel.”
The name confused her. “Daniel?”
“He is not mine.”
Shock threaded through her at the words. At their meaning. She shook her head. “I don’t understand . . .”
“You said he’d been with you forever.”
Daniel, with his dark hair and blue eyes and his age—exactly correct if they had done this. If they had done more.
For a moment, she let the vision of it crash over her. Temple, strong and sure and handsome and hers. And a son, dark and serious and sweet.
And theirs.
It was the life he wanted. A wife. A son. A legacy.
But it was not real. She shook her head, finding his gaze, seeing the emotion there. Regret. Anger. Sadness.
She’d hurt him again. Without even trying. She shook her head, tears in her eyes. “Forever—since I founded the orphanage. He is not . . .” She trailed off, wishing the truth were different.
He laughed then, the sound harsh and humorless. “Of course he isn’t. Of course we didn’t.”
The words cut through her.
He stood, in a single fluid movement, taking himself to the opposite side of the ring, all grace and economy even now, even with one arm in a sling. Even with a wound that would have killed a lesser man.
His back to her, he scraped his hand through his hair. “Just once, I wanted the truth from you.” He looked over his shoulder at her. “Just once, I wanted you to give me a reason to believe you are more than what you seem. More than a woman out for blood and money.” He laughed and turned away again. “And then you gave it to me.”
She should tell him.
The whole story.
The money, the debt, the reason she’d run. She should lay herself at his feet and give him the chance to forgive her. To believe her. To believe in her.
Perhaps then, they could start again. Perhaps then, there might be more to this strange, unsettling, remarkable thing between them.
Dear God, she wanted that more than she wanted her next breath.
“I was not out for blood,” she said, coming to her feet, her dress in her hand, shielding her nakedness from him. “And not for money, either.” She took a step toward him. “Please. Let me explain—”
“No.” He turned to her, hand slashing through the air.
She stopped.
“No,” he repeated. “I am tired of it. Of your lies. Of your games. I am tired of wanting to believe them. No more.”
She pulled her dress around her, knowing that she deserved this. Knowing that, for twelve years, her life had been heading for this. For the day when she faced this man and told him the truth, and suffered the repercussions.
But it had never occurred to her that the pain would come from losing him. From hurting him. That she might care for him.
Care for him.
What a silly, tepid phrase in comparison to the emotion that coursed through her now, as she watched this remarkable man battle his demons. Demons she had sent after him.
“I don’t care what your reasons are, or how well you’ve fabricated them. I am done. How much was this worth? This afternoon?”
The words were a blow. He couldn’t believe she would ask to be paid for— Of course he could. It was the arrangement they’d made.
She shook her head.
“And now you are too high for our agreement?”
She didn’t want it now. She didn’t want any of it. She only wanted him.
And, like that—like a sharp, wicked blow, she understood.
She loved him.
And if that was not bad enough, he would never believe it.
But still, she tried. “William. Please. If you’ll just—”
“Don’t.” The word cut through the air, frigid and frightening. And she realized that now, here, she faced Temple, the greatest fighter London had ever seen. “Don’t you ever call me that again. You don’t have the right.”
Of course she didn’t. She’d stolen the name from him when she’d stolen his life. Tears threatened, and she swallowed them back, not wanting him to think them fabricated. Not wanting him to think her fabricated. She nodded. “Of course.”
He was cold and unmoving, and she couldn’t look at him any longer. She wrapped her arms about herself as he took his final shot. As he ended it. “Tomorrow, this is over. You show your face, you restore my name. I’ll give you your money. And then you get the hell out of my world.”
He left her there, at the center of his ring, in the heart of his club.
It was only once the door to his rooms was closed and the lock thrown that she dressed, and allowed the tears to come.
Chapter 15
He’d left her naked in the ring.
At no point in his entire career as a bare-knuckle boxer had he ever left an opponent so stripped of honor.
He’d never had an opponent so keenly strip him of his dreams.
What rubbish. Temple leaned over the billiard table in one of the upper rooms of The Fallen Angel, sending the carom balls flying.
“Christ, Temple,” Bourne said, watching two balls sink into the pockets at the far end of the field. “Should we leave and let you play on your own?” He tossed back the remainder of his scotch. “And with one arm.”
The mention of his arm, still lacking feeling and weak from the fight, brought back his anger. Her brother had taken his strength. His power. But she’d done one worse. She’d taken his hope.
He’d let himself believe that things could be. That she might be that for which he ached. Wife. Family. More.
Love.
The word whispered through him, part shock, part frustration, part desire.
He ignored it and took another shot with furious precision. And a third.
Cross leaned back on his heels, one long arm dangling over the end of his cue. “All right, it’s clear you’re not interested in the game so much as the win,” he said. “So what is it that is at you?”
“It’s the woman,” Bourne said as he headed across the room to pour himself a glass of scotch.
Of course it was the woman.
Temple ignored the thought and sank another ball.
Cross looked to Bourne. “You think so?”
Bourne passed a glass to Cross. “It’s always the woman.”
Cross nodded. “You are right.”
“He’s not right,” Temple said.
Bourne raised a brow. “I’m right.”
Of course he was right.
Temple scowled. “You can both go straight to Hell.”
“You would miss us if we were gone,” Cross said, finally getting a chance to take a shot. “Besides, I like the woman. It’s fine with me if she’s your problem.”
Bourne cut Cross a look. “You like her?”
“Pippa likes her. Thinks she cares for Temple. I believe her.”
Memory flared. Mara’s eyes liquid with tears as she sat naked in the ring. As he treated her abominably. Temple gritted his teeth.