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We praise you, Lord
Calamities are generous gifts,
Catastrophes a sign of munificence.
We praise you, no matter how long the ordeal
Nor how overwhelming the pain.
Magd al-Din’s heart beat fast as the train approached. “Until when will you lie to me, my feeble heart?” he said to himself. This was happening every day and still no Dimyan, still nothing filled the wilderness around him. Even the great commotion of the armies around him did not fill that emptiness, not the retreat and panic before Rommel, not the long queues of the wounded, transported by trains, not the sorrow in the different-colored eyes of the soldiers, the occasional crying, the silence of the bagpipes, not the dust that filled the air, the planes that came and went, went and did not come back, then returned, nor the devilish bombs. He stayed home for days on end, suffering pangs of hunger since the Indians and al-Safi al-Naim had stopped coming. Hilal the stationmaster fled to join Amer, who had left the telegraph room open, ravaged by the wind. All of that did not succeed in making him forget Dimyan. Was Dimyan the reason he stayed? He would never again find events more compelling than those he had just witnessed to cause him to leave the place. It must be Dimyan. He was waiting for him to return, and he would return. And there he was. He saw him getting off the last car of the train, which was carrying military equipment.
He saw him standing there in the middle of the platform, looking exactly as he had when they first came to that place together. Dimyan seemed not to believe that he had come back to his friend, and Magd al-Din also looked incredulous. They rushed to embrace each other.
In the stationmaster’s room they talked and talked. Magd al-Din described the soldiers’ miserable retreat before Rommel, and Dimyan talked about Alexandria’s misery, no one staying, no one sleeping. Magd al-Din could not take his eyes off the aura surrounding Dimyan’s face. This was something that Dimyan did not have before.
“Why are you staring at me so much, Sheikh Magd?”
“Nothing, Dimyan. I just missed you. I didn’t believe we’d meet again.”
Dimyan became lost in thought. The priest, Father Ibshawi, had stared at him a lot. He had taken him to the confession booth and sat him down and stared at him. “What’s the matter, Father?” “Don’t leave the church, Dimyan. Don’t stray far.” The deacons and the other priests also stared at him long, then met and talked. Something, he was not sure what, was happening to his face. But why was his family not staring at him? Or those that sought refuge in the church? What made Magd al-Din like Father Ibshawi and the priests and deacons?
“You should have left this place and joined me,” said Dimyan, lying. In the last few days he had felt that he no longer knew Alexandria and that she no longer knew him. He had no life away from Magd al-Din, and now he was feeling that he could not stay here.
“Yes, I should’ve joined you,” agreed Magd al-Din.
“Why didn’t you, Sheikh Magd?”
Magd al-Din did not have an answer. He realized that he had almost lost all sense of time, that the world was larger than al-Alamein. He kept staring at the face of Dimyan, who continued talking about Alexandria. When Magd al-Din learned that Dimitri’s house had been destroyed, he felt depressed and was able to recall the smell of the home, that calm, sweet smell that induced sleep and rest, a house where you did not hear the noise outside. That was Khawaga Dimitri’s house. He remembered Bahi and immediately recalled the aura that had surrounded his face for so long. He wondered if Dimyan was going to meet the same fate as Bahi. When Magd al-Din recalled the little house, it brought back all the images that he had lost: Lula, Camilla, Yvonne, Sitt Maryam, Ghaffara, Bahi, and Zahra, the love of his soul, who must be withering away in the village grieving over their separation. He felt a sudden jolt of joy that almost lifted him off his feet when he remembered Shawqiya and Shawqi. That meant that he would soon return, a secret magical voice in his heart told him.
“I didn’t know they’d canceled civilian trains,” Dimyan said.
“Since the withdrawal they no longer come here. They stop at al-Hammam now.”
“Yes, I took one of them, and at al-Hammam I boarded this train in the rear car. There were no soldiers there — they were on top of the cars and the equipment.”
“Nothing can stop you, Dimyan! Come on, let’s go home.”
In truth Magd al-Din wanted to confirm the aura of light around Dimyan’s face and find out if it appeared in the shade indoors, and whether Dimyan knew about it or understood what it meant. Dimyan was unknowingly joining the ranks of the saints.
On the way Dimyan asked him, “Do you have any information on Brika?”
“All the Bedouin have left this area for al-Hammam or Amiriya.”
By nightfall Dimyan had tired of Magd al-Din’s staring at him, but he considered it to be a new phase that his friend was passing through temporarily. Magd al-Din talked about how they had to stay there until they received instructions to leave. Dimyan asked about the kind of work that they could do now. Magd al-Din said they had to switch the train onto the old tracks and spend the night there to accommodate another train that usually arrived at the station during the night. He said it was an important job that they should not neglect, even though the crossing was now useless and the semaphore irrelevant, since the trains no longer went farther than the station. The aura of light grew brighter in the night. They heard footsteps approaching. They were in the inner room, but the outside door was open. The footsteps grew louder and were now at the door, then in the hall, then they saw the two of them standing in front of them. It was the English officer, Mr. Spike, in person, after a long absence. Next to him was a short man with disheveled hair and a long beard that covered his whole face; his face was dusty and looked extremely tired, his khaki shorts and shirt tattered and the legs tanned black. Mr. Spike stood staring at Dimyan and Magd al-Din then said, “This man is Egyptian. We found him in the desert. Please help him.”