“He never went anywhere without it. He wore it everywhere. He was wearing that hat the last night I saw him. It wasn’t left behind in the house. You know what this means, don’t you?”
I waited.
“It means he’s alive.”
“It might, yes, it might mean that. But not necessarily.”
Cynthia put the hat back on the table, started to reach for the phone, then stopped, then reached for it again, and again stopped herself.
“The police,” she said. “They can take fingerprints.”
“Off that hat?” I said. “I doubt it. But you already know it’s your father’s. Even if they could get his prints off it, so what?”
“No,” Cynthia said. “Off the knob.” She pointed to the front door. “Or the table. Something. If they find his fingerprints in here, it’ll prove he’s alive.”
I wasn’t so sure about that, but I agreed that calling the police was a good idea. Someone-if not Clayton Bigge, then somebody-had been in our house while we were out. Was it breaking and entering if nothing appeared broken? At least it was entering.
I called 911. “Someone…was in our house,” I told the dispatcher. “My wife and I are very upset, we have a little girl, we’re very worried.”
There was a car at the house about ten minutes later. Two uniforms, a man and a woman. They checked the doors and windows for any obvious signs of entry, came up with nothing. Grace, of course, had woken up during all the excitement and was refusing to go to bed. Even when we sent her back to her room and told her to get ready for bed, we spotted her at the top of the stairs, peering through the railings like an underage inmate.
“Was anything stolen?” the woman cop asked, her partner standing alongside her, tipping his hat back and scratching his head.
“Uh, no, not as far as we can tell,” I said. “I haven’t had a close look, but it doesn’t seem like it.”
“Any damage done? Any vandalism of any kind?”
“No,” I said. “Nothing of that sort.”
“You need to check for fingerprints,” Cynthia said.
The male cop said, “Ma’am?”
“Fingerprints. Isn’t that what you do when there’s a break-in?”
“Ma’am, I’m afraid there’s no real evidence here that there’s been a break-in. Everything seems in order.”
“But this hat was left here. That shows someone broke in. We locked the house up before we left.”
“So you’re saying,” the male cop said, “someone broke in to your house, didn’t take anything, didn’t break anything, but they got in here just so they could leave that hat on your kitchen table?”
Cynthia nodded. I could imagine how this looked to the officers.
“I think we’d have a hard time getting someone out to dust for prints,” the woman said, “when there’s no evidence of a crime having been committed.”
“This may be nothing more than a practical joke,” her partner said. “Chances are it’s someone you know having a bit of fun with you is all.”
Fun, I thought. Look at us, falling down laughing.
“There’s no sign of the lock being messed with,” he said. “Maybe someone you’ve given a key to came in, left this here, thought it belonged to you. Simple as that.”
My eye went to the small, empty hook where we usually keep the extra key. The one Cynthia had noticed missing the other morning.
“Can you have an officer park out front?” Cynthia asked. “To keep an eye on the house? In case anyone tries to get in again? But just to stop them, see who it is, not hurt them. I don’t want you hurting whoever it is.”
“Cyn,” I said.
“Ma’am, I’m afraid there’s no call for that. And we don’t have the manpower to put a car out front of your house, not without good reason,” the woman cop said. “But if you have any more problems, you be sure to give us a call.”
With that, they excused themselves. And in all likelihood, got back in their car and had a good laugh at our expense. I could see us on the police blotter. Responded to report of strange hat. Everyone at the station would get a good chuckle out of that.
Once they were gone, we both took a seat at the kitchen table, the hat between us, neither of us saying a word.
Grace came into the kitchen, having slipped down the stairs noiselessly, pointed to the hat, grinned, and said, “Can I wear it?”
Cynthia grabbed the hat. “No,” she said.
“Go to bed, honey,” I said, and Grace toddled off. Cynthia didn’t release her grip on the hat until we went up to bed.
That night, staring at the ceiling again, I thought about how Cynthia had forgotten, at the last minute, to take along her shoebox to the station for that disastrous meeting with the psychic. How she’d had to run back into the house, just for a minute, while Grace and I waited in the car.
How, even though I’d offered to run in and get the box for her, she beat me to it.
She was in the house a long time, just to grab a box. Took an Advil, she told me when she got back into the car.
Not possible, I told myself, glancing over at Cynthia, sleeping next to me.
Surely not.
14
I had a free period, so I poked my head into Rolly Carruthers’s office. “I’m on a prep. You got a minute?”
Rolly looked at the stack of stuff on his desk. Reports from the board office, teacher evaluations, budget estimates. He was drowning in paperwork. “If you only need a minute, I’ll have to say no. If you need at least an hour, however, I might be able to help you out.”
“An hour sounds about right.”
“You had lunch?”
“No.”
“Let’s go over to the Stonebridge. You drive. I may decide to get smashed.” He slipped on his sport jacket, told his secretary he’d be out of the school for a while but she could reach him on his cell if the building caught fire. “So I’ll know that I don’t need to come back,” he said.
His secretary insisted he speak to one of the superintendents, who was holding, so he signaled to me that he would be just a couple of minutes. I stepped outside the office, right in the path of Jane Scavullo, who was bearing down the hall at high speed, no doubt for a date to beat the shit out of some other girl in the schoolyard.
The handful of books she was carrying scattered across the hallway. “Fucking hell,” she said.
“Sorry,” I said, and knelt down to help her pick them up.
“It’s okay,” she said, scrambling to get to the books before I did. But she wasn’t quick enough. I already had Foxfire, the Joyce Carol Oates book I’d recommended to her, in my hand.
She snatched it away from me, tucked it in with the rest of her stuff. I said, without a trace of I-told-you-so in my voice, “How are you liking it?”
“It’s good,” Jane said. “Those girls are seriously messed up. Why’d you suggest I read it? You think I’m as bad as the girls in this story?”
“Those girls aren’t all bad,” I said. “And no, I don’t think you’re like them. But I thought you’d appreciate the writing.”
She snapped her gum. “Can I ask you something?”
“Sure.”
“What do you care?”
“What do you mean?”
“What do you care? About what I read, about my writing, that shit.”
“You think I’m a teacher just to get rich?”
She looked as though she was almost going to smile, and then caught herself. “I gotta go,” she said, and did.
The lunch crowd had thinned by the time Rolly and I got to the Stonebridge. He ordered some coconut shrimp and a beer to start, and I settled on a large bowl of New England clam chowder with extra crackers, and coffee.
Rolly was talking about putting their house on the market soon, that they’d have a lot of money left over after they paid for the mobile home in Bradenton. There’d be money to put in the bank, they could invest it, take the odd trip. And Rolly was going to buy a boat so he could fish along the Manatee River. It’s like he was already finished being a principal. He was someplace else.