She slid the footstool over in front of Liam and settled on it, slanting her knees decorously to one side. This close, she gave off a faint scent of roses. “Show me your hands,” she commanded, and Liam held his hands out to her obediently. She took hold of them both at the base of his fingers and bent them slightly backward to flatten them. Her own fingers were chilled and dampish from her iced-tea glass. She said, “Now, first what I like to do is-oh!”
She was staring at his left palm-the gnarly line of his scar.
“What happened?” she asked him.
“I had a little accident.”
She made a clucking sound, looking dazed. “Well, this just skews everything every which way,” she said. “I never ran into such a thing before.”
“It’s only a scar,” Liam told her. For some reason, he felt it was important to carry through with this now. “I don’t see why it would make any difference.”
“But am I supposed to treat it like a brand-new line, or what? And how do I read what’s underneath it? I can’t tell what’s underneath it! I mean, your left hand is your whole entire past! I wonder if one of my books deals with this.”
“If it’s my past, why do we care?” Liam asked. “We just want to know about my future.”
“Oh, you can’t read one without the other,” Esther Jo told him. “They’re intermingled. They bounce off of each other. That’s what the amateurs fail to understand.”
She released his hands with a dismissive little pat that gave Liam a sense of rejection, absurdly enough.
“Let’s see if I can explain this,” she said. “You know how farmers can predict what kind of winter they’ll have by looking at the acorns and berries? Those acorns and berries are the way they are because of what has gone before-how much rainfall there’s been and et cetera, et cetera. A whole lot depends on the weather that’s already happened. And the farmers know that.”
She gave a quick, self-confirming nod.
“Well, just the same way, a real fortune-teller-and I’m not one to brag, but I am a real fortune-teller; I’ve just always had the gift, somehow-a real fortune-teller knows that your future depends on your past. It keeps shifting about; it’s not carved in stone. It keeps bouncing off whatever happened earlier. So, no, I can’t do a thing without seeing what’s in your left palm.”
And she sat back on her footstool with an annoyingly smug expression and laced her fingers around her knees.
Liam said, “Couldn’t you at least give it a try?”
She shook her head vigorously.
“You know what they say,” she told him. “‘Those who forget the past tend to regret the future.’”
“What?”
Bard said, “Aw, now, hon. Seems to me you might this once make an exception.”
“It’s not a matter of choice,” she told him.
He said, “At least it would help us to pass the time, look at it that way.”
“Pass the time!” she said. She stared at him. “Have I not just told you I’m a real fortune-teller?”
“Oh, well, real; ha-ha…”
“Do you not know I’ve been reading people’s futures since I was seven?”
“The boy was only wondering where to find a job, Esther Jo.”
Liam said, “Oh, no, it’s not important.” Now he felt foolish, as if he were, in fact, a “boy” begging for crumbs of wisdom. “I was just curious,” he said. “I know it doesn’t mean anything.”
“Doesn’t mean anything!” Esther Jo echoed.
“Or, rather… of course it means something, but…”
How had things reached such a state? But it wasn’t his fault. He honestly didn’t think he should be shouldering the blame for this. He looked across at his father, who seemed unperturbed.
“Well, silly me, right?” Esther Jo said. “Silly me to think you-all would take it seriously.”
She jumped up from the footstool, more spryly than you would expect from a woman her age, and stalked back to her chair and flung herself into it. “I don’t know why I bothered,” she told the ceiling.
“Oh, princess,” Bard said mildly. “Can’t we just have a nice visit? Drink your tea.”
“I’m not thirsty,” she said, still addressing the ceiling.
“Come on, hon. Be nice.”
She didn’t answer, but she picked up her glass and took a sip, finally.
Liam said, “Well, anyhow, I should be running along. I just wanted to pop in and say hello.”
Bard looked relieved. “We appreciate that,” he said. “Always good to see you, son.”
He and Liam stood up, but Esther Jo stayed seated, gazing down into her glass. Liam said, “Thank you for the tea, Esther Jo.”
“You’re welcome, I’m sure,” she murmured, still not raising her eyes.
Bard clapped him on the shoulder and told him, “I’ll see you out.”
Ordinarily Liam would have protested, but he allowed it this time. As they descended the porch steps, he said, “I didn’t mean to hurt her feelings.”
Bard said, “Oh, well,” and looked off toward the pony cart as if he had never noticed it before. Liam felt disappointed; he’d been hoping (he saw now) for his father to say something significant, give some clue about his life.
They reached the curb, and Liam slowed and turned. He said, “By the way, I’ve been… going out with someone lately.”
“Have you now,” Bard said, finally focusing on him.
“I just met her this summer.”
“Good for you, son. It’s not right being on your own.”
“Except, now I find out she’s married.”
There was a pause. His father looked at him with an unreadable expression.
“When we met, I had no idea,” Liam said.
“She didn’t tell you?”
“Not a word.”
His father sighed and then bent to pluck a weed.
“That’s hard,” he said when he’d straightened.
“I never would have gotten involved if I had known,” Liam told him. “There’s no way I would intentionally break up somebody’s marriage.”
“Ah, well, you can’t always pick and choose these things,” his father said.
“I guess the thing to do is to end it,” Liam said.
His father gazed off toward a neighbor’s garden gnome. Eventually he said, “Now, I don’t know as I would agree with that, son. When you get to be my age, you start realizing that you’d better grab whatever happiness comes your way, in this world.”
Liam said, “Well, if that’s your reasoning, then why not say the same to… oh, a child molester, for instance? ‘Go for it,’ you’d tell him. ‘Whatever makes you happy.’”
“Liam! Good Lord above!”
“Well? What’s the difference?”
“There’s a ton of difference! A child molester’s ruining somebody’s life!”
This time the pause stretched on for a very long time. Liam made no attempt to end it.
“You are surely not saying that Esther Jo and I ruined your mother’s life,” Bard said.
Liam didn’t answer. To be honest, he didn’t know what he was saying. This conversation wasn’t one he’d planned on having.
“Or your life,” Bard said.
“No, of course not,” Liam said finally.
“So! What do you call this little thing?” Bard asked. He was looking at Liam’s car.
“I call it a Geo Prizm,” Liam said. He took his keys from his pocket.
“I prefer something a bit more substantial, myself,” Bard said. “Especially on the Beltway. They drive like maniacs on the Beltway! And not a cop in sight. I wish you kids would stop acting like I walked out on you or something.”
The change of topic was so sudden that Liam almost missed it. He was about to step around to the driver’s side when he stopped short and said, “Pardon?”
“I didn’t desert, you know. I did play fair and square. I leveled with your mother and asked her for a divorce. I sent her money every month as regular as clockwork, and I tried to stay in touch with you and Julia. You think I had it easy? It was hell, there, for a while. And everybody looking at me like I was the villain-some bad guy in a dime novel. I was no villain. I just couldn’t bear to go to my grave knowing I’d wasted my life. I just wanted my share of happiness. Can’t you understand how I felt?”