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“The Hon. Sec.,” said she immediately.

“You know?” he asked, amazed that she should understand everything so very quickly indeed.

“Don’t talk, and I’ll tell you.” She had taken her field knife and was cutting the sticky shirt off him, so that she could tilt the bottle and spray right into the wound, “I just suspected you were in trouble, when Bill rode by the house and said something crazy, that you had bought half the galaxy by gambling all night with a crazy machine which paid off. I did not know where you were, but I thought that you might be in that old temple of yours that the rest of them can’t see. I didn’t know what kind of danger to look for, so I brought this.” She slapped her hip. Rod’s eyes widened. She had stolen her father’s one-kiloton grenade, which was to be removed from its rack only in the event of an offworld attack. She answered his question before he asked her. “It’s all right. I made a dummy to take its place before I touched it. Then, as I took it out, the Defense monitor came on and I just explained that I had hit it with my new broom, which was longer than usual. Do you think I would let Old Hot and Simple kill you, Rod, without a fight from me? I’m your cousin, your kith and kin. As a matter of fact, I’m number twelve after you when it comes to inheriting Doom and all the wonderful things there are on this station.”

Rod said, “Give me water.” He suspected she was chattering to keep his attention off what she was doing to his shoulder and arm. The arm glowed once when she sprayed the cryptoderm on it; then it settled down to mere aching. The shoulder had exploded from time to time as she probed it. She had thrust a diagnostic needle into it and was reading the tiny bright picture on the end of the needle. He knew it had both analgesics and antiseptics as well as an ultraminiaturized X-ray, but he did not think that anyone would be willing to use it unaided in the field.

She answered this question, too before he asked it. She was a very perceptive girl.

“We don’t know what the Onseck is going to do next. He may have corrupted people as well as animals. I don’t dare call for help, not until you have your friends around you. Certainly not, if you have bought half the worlds.”

Rod dragged out the words. He seemed short of breath. “How did you know it was him?”

“I saw his face — I hiered it when I looked in the bird’s own brain. I could see Houghton Syme, talking to the bird in some kind of an odd way, and I could see your dead body through the bird’s eyes, and I could feel a big wave of love and approval, happiness and reward, going through the bird when the job was to have been finished. I think that man is evil, evil!”

“You know him, yourself?”

“What girl around here doesn’t? He’s a nasty man. He had a boyhood that was all rotten from the time that he realized he was a short-lifer. He has never gotten over it. Some people are sorry for him and don’t mind his getting the job of Hon. Sec. If I’d my way, I’d have sent him to the Giggle Room long ago!” Lavinia’s face was set in prudish hate, an expression so unlike herself, who usually was bright and gay, that Rod wondered what deep bitterness might have been stirred within her.

“Why do you hate him?”

“For what he did.”

“What did he do?”

“He looked at me,” she said, “he looked at me in a way that no girl can like. And then he crawled all over my mind, trying to show me all the silly, dirty, useless things he wanted to do.”

“But he didn’t do anything?” said Rod.

“Yes, he did,” she snapped. “Not with his hands. I could have reported him. I would have. It’s what he did with his mind, the things he spieked to me.”

“You can report those too,” said Rod, very tired of talking but nevertheless mysteriously elated to discover that he was not the only enemy the Onseck had made.

“Not what he did, I couldn’t,” said Lavinia, her face set in anger but dissolving into grief. Grief was tendered, softer, but deeper and more real than anger. For the first time Rod sensed a feeling of concern about Lavinia. What might be wrong with her?

She looked past him and spoke to the open fields and the big dead bird. “Houghton Syme was the worst man I’ve ever known. I hope he dies. He never got over that rotten boyhood of his. The old sick boy is the enemy of the man. We’ll never know what he might have been. And if you hadn’t been so wrapped up in your own troubles, Mister Rod to the hundred and fifty-first, you’d have remembered who I am.”

“Who are you?” said Rod, naturally.

“I’m the Father’s Daughter.”

“So what?” said Rod. “All girls are.”

“Then you never have found out about me. I’m the Father’s Daughter from ‘The Father’s Daughter’s Song.’ ”

“Never heard it.”

She looked at him and her eyes were close to tears. “Listen, then, and I’ll sing it to you now. And it’s true, true, true.

“You do not know what the world is like, And I hope you never will. My heart was once much full of hope, But now it is very still.My wife went mad.
She was my love and wore my ring When both of us were young. She bore my babes, but then, but then… And now there isn’t anything. My wife went mad.
Now she lives in another place, Half sick, half well, and never young. I am her dread, who was her love. Each of us has another face. My wife went mad.
You do not know what the world is like. War is never the worst of it. The stars within your eyes can drop. The lightning in your brain can strike. My wife went mad.”

And I see you have heard it, too,” she sighed. “Just as my father wrote it. About my mother. My own mother.”

“Oh, Lavinia,” said Rod, “I’m sorry. I never thought it was you. And you my own cousin only three or four times removed. But Lavinia, there’s something wrong. How can your mother be mad if she was looking fine at my house last week?”

“She was never mad,” said Lavinia. “My father was. He made up that cruel song about my mother so that the neighbors complained. He had his choice of the Giggle Room to die in, or the sick place, to be immortal and insane. He’s there now. And the Onseck, the Onseck threatened to bring him back to our own neighborhood if I didn’t do what he asked. Do you think I could forgive that? Ever? After people have sung that hateful song at me ever since I was a baby? Do you wonder that I know it myself?”

Rod nodded.

Lavinia’s troubles impressed him, but he had troubles of his own.

The sun was never hot on Norstrilia, but he suddenly felt thirsty and hot. He wanted to sleep but he wondered about the dangers which surrounded him.

She knelt beside him.

“Close your eyes a bit, Rod, I will spiek very quietly and maybe nobody will notice it except your station hands, Bill and Hopper. When they come we’ll hide out for the day and tonight we can go back to your computer and hide. I’ll tell them to bring food.”

She hesitated, “And, Rod?”

“Yes?” he said.

“Forgive me.”

“For what?”

“For my troubles,” she said contritely.

“Now you have more troubles. Me,” he said. “Let’s not blame ourselves, but for sheep’s sake, girl, let me sleep.”

He drifted off to sleep as she sat beside him, whistling a loud clear time with long long notes which never added up. He knew some people, usually women, did that when they tried to concentrate on their telepathic spieking.