“Have you seen Mama?”
“I have seen Mama,” said Frank.
“And?”
“We were, well, we had an unsuccessful luncheon.”
“An argument?”
“No, we just couldn’t get waited on. Then I got annoyed, and you know how she is about me being annoyed.”
“But that touches me.”
“What does, Hol?”
“You blowing your stack, Mama annoyed.”
“Oh, yeah. Well, in that sense it was like old times.”
Frank tried to make a couple of stacks of paper on his desk.
“Do you miss those times, Dad?”
“Every day,” Frank said.
“You do?”
“I do. I miss a lot of things. I miss you. My life is not in very good order.”
“I know.”
“Well, see, that embarrasses me too.”
“Don’t let it.”
“Some things get out of reach.” He was thinking that her proclivity for Lane Lawlor didn’t help.
“We read in the paper about your putting chickens in the Kid Royale Hotel.”
“Desperate strokes for desperate folks.”
“But Dad, where did that idea come from?”
“I didn’t originate it. They’ve done it in the East for years with old hotels. They’re really perfect chicken coops on an industrial scale. We think we can make money. It was a partnership I needed. I can’t really afford to restore the place.” Frank was conscious of talking too much. He could scarcely depict his pleasure in covering romance, from honeymoons to the Old West, with a thin layer of leveling chickenshit. He didn’t want to burrow around in all this anyway. He wanted to go fishing with Holly. He thought that if he couldn’t, he would suddenly die.
They stopped by the house to gather their tackle. Holly’s was still there. Lane didn’t fish; he was an elk hunter and in fact had made a bit of a name for himself through his marksmanship, picking off infected buffaloes on the border of Yellowstone Park. Frank, seeing Lane’s picture in the paper, thought that, in his knee-high lace-up boots, his broad Stetson and his red plaid coat, he had rather anticipated the photographer. Cuddling his rifle, he had made several articulate statements about the Constitution and its bearing on gun ownership. Lane knew his stuff, that was for sure.
It was a cool, pretty day and it seemed but a jaunt to get through the subdivisions, the more spacious acreages north of town with horses and, here and there, llamas in the yards. They passed low gumbo hills and wandered along the east branch of the Bridger River, then turned up the road to the creek where Holly had had such a triumph. Frank thought how much better it was to have done something together than to have spent all their energy in discussions. Today he hadn’t wanted to discuss his life, his marriage, his record as a parent. He had wanted to do something with Holly. Anything would have done — throwing a Frisbee, making chili, fishing.
They pulled into the brush so as not to make their poaching more conspicuous than necessary. Frank drew the old bamboo shafts of his Paul Young rod from the rod tube and smelled the varnish in the rod sack. He had owned the rod for thirty years and it had become too valuable to fish with, probably, but he fished with it anyway. Frank felt good standing next to Holly and rigging up. She doubled her fly line and ran it through the guides faster than he strung his rod, running the point of his leader through the guides. He opened the battered aluminum fly box that had been a gift from Gracie twenty years before and they looked into the compartments.
“We could wait and see if anything is hatching,” said Holly.
“I think it’s best to be prepared to cast upon arrival.”
“Give me a size sixteen blue-winged olive.”
“Hackled?”
“Please.”
He handed her a fly and said, “I know you’ve got your own, but I’ll spot you one.”
Frank tied on a 1930s Blackfoot River favorite called a Charlie’s special, which a friend in Missoula had tied for him. A note had come with the flies: “Excuse the sloppy job on these flies. The hackle was horrific. Every piece had a spiral stem. Must’ve come from some poor Indian chicken mutated by Bhopal.”
By the size of her trout on their last trip, Holly was entitled to lead the way. They pushed through the woods, Frank gingerly carrying his bamboo rod butt-first. There wasn’t the number of wildflowers there had been previously, but a splendid stand of bear grass revealed itself on an open hillside. They were almost head deep in the streamside grass before they broke through and found that the creek was gone.
In its place was a fetid mud channel beginning to crack in the sun. Where they stood in the middle of the channel, the banks rose high over their heads.
“Are we lost?” Frank asked.
“I don’t think so.”
They walked a short distance in the direction of what had been upstream, and Frank stopped. He said, “Right here is where you caught that fish.” He could see the deeply undercut bank, a cavernous space that had been an ideal chamber for a big fish to live in secretly. The ferns were dying on the banks, and here and there were the remains of fish, picked over by birds and raccoons. From the mud came an intense smell, undoubtedly from the millions of watery invertebrates that had lived there.
They walked on and reached a fence that now crossed above their heads. Passing under it, they came to the heart of a farm. They could make out the upper parts of barns and granaries and electrical poles. They climbed out onto the bank. From here, Frank could see what had happened. The Caterpillars with which the farmer had built up a broad dyke to impound the stream were parked nearby. The ruptured earth on the face of the berm still bore the blade marks; and the impoundment behind it continued to fill, so that the serviceberry bushes and aspens that were now half submerged were still alive. Bright new aluminum pipes for an advanced irrigation system were pyramided on low wagons. Frank had a brief impulse to put a good face on this. “Looks like we’ll have to find someplace else to fish.” Holly nodded. “Is this fella a friend of Lane’s?”
“Dad, I don’t think you can lay this one on Lane. And if the water was leaving the state, I’m for this.”
“He’s the sort of fascist windbag that produces this kind of activity.”
“I’m going home.”
“I’m sorry.”
“I’m sure. And yes, this might be one of our followers. We believe in-stream storage is the basis of our future.” She was talking in a curiously rhetorical way, a recitation. The tone was, Take it or leave it.
Frank drove Holly to her apartment. They talked very little on the way back. Frank thought that it was pretty unlucky to go fishing and find the stream had been stolen, particularly when you needed the stream for more than just fishing.
43
The phone rang in the dark. He had a feeling it might be Gracie, who got up about two hours before dawn. She was always worried about missing something. Frank was able to reach over to the bedside table and get it without turning on his light. It was Gracie.
“Shall we try again?”
“I’m willing to try again, if you are,” he said.
“I’m talking about lunch.”
“That’s what I mean,” he lied, “lunch. What did you think I meant?”
“Lunch, I guess.”
“No, let’s not have lunch. It’s too structured. Let’s go to the library.”
“When?”
“When does it open?” Frank asked.
“I think nine.”
“I’ll meet you in front,” he said.
“Okeydoke.”
“Well, good night.”
“Goodbye.”
Frank got up at daylight. From his bedroom he could see a blush on the houses along the street. A car went by and he looked down at its empty ski rack. A leisurely dog appeared and lifted his leg against the base of a stop sign, then circled it slowly, scratching with stiff legs. A magpie flew down onto a laurel branch and shifted its head back and forth for balance while the oscillations of the branch slowly came to a stop.