“Is it because they hurt you, those brothers?”
“I’ve been hurt before.”
“Then what?” Marybeth kneaded his hand and pursed her lips.
Finally, he said, “I guess I feel like I left a piece of me up there on that mountain. I don’t feel completely whole.”
“You’ll heal up.”
“It’s not that.”
“Then what?”
Joe shook his head. “I’m still sorting it out. I feel like I missed something obvious. Something right in front of my eyes. But for the life of me, I can’t figure out what it was. I feel like I asked them all the wrong questions, and I couldn’t see what was in front of my eyes. Not that I can see it now, either. But those brothers—they beat me at every turn. They were faster, smarter, and meaner. I was outgunned and outmuscled.”
Marybeth frowned at him. “Don’t say that.”
“It’s true. Plus it doesn’t help that McLanahan and the sheriff in Baggs think I made it all up.”
“McLanahan’s an idiot.”
“There was a DCI agent here today,” Joe said. “Or someone claiming to be a DCI agent. He asked some pretty strange questions, and I felt he was trying to trip me up for some reason. And no one seems to have ever heard of this guy before.”
“That’s odd,” she said.
“To be honest, I heard some doubt in the governor’s voice, too.”
“Joe,” she said, “Rulon’s a lot of things, but he’s still a politician.”
He shrugged and winced.
“What did my mother say to you today? When the two of you were alone?”
Joe sighed. “She said it was time I put away childish things. Like my job.”
Marybeth’s eyes flared. “I knew it. I just knew she’d use this opportunity to try and get under your skin.”
Joe said, “I’m wondering if she wasn’t right.”
“That’s ridiculous. Why do you listen to her? I don’t.”
He tried to shrug, but his right shoulder screamed at him. “Ow,” he moaned.
“Don’t do that. Are you in pain? Do you want me to call a nurse?”
He shook his head no.
“Joe,” she said. “You’re tired. You need some sleep. We can talk about all of this tomorrow.”
He said, “How are we affording the motel? How much are you paying per night?”
“Don’t worry about that. We can afford it.”
“But . . .”
“I said not to worry about it, Joe,” she said with authority. “You need to rest and not worry about things. You’ll be back at home in no time, rested and healed.”
He nodded. “Yup.” He told her about being placed on administrative leave.
“And pay no attention to my mother. I can guess what she said because I know her. Joe—” Marybeth released his hand and brushed her fingers across his lips. “You are the man I married. I knew what I was signing on for. I’ve never been resentful or angry with what you do for a living, and I know you’re not the kind of man who could give that up. You do what you do because you’re hardwired for it. You get yourself into situations because you have a certain set of standards that are simply beyond her. So pay no attention to her. She’s crazy and without scruples. She doesn’t understand me, or us. So just put her out of your mind. I thought you’d done that years ago.”
“I thought I had, too,” he said. “But she got to me because I was thinking along the same lines.”
“Only because you’re in a hospital bed and you’re confused by what McLanahan told you,” Marybeth said. “You’ll think differently when you’re recovered.”
“I hope so.”
She paused. Then: “I hope you don’t think you need to go back up there after them. The sheriff down in Baggs will catch them. They’ll eventually find them and bring them to justice. You don’t have to make this a personal quest.”
He nodded, but he didn’t mean it.
She kissed him goodnight and ignored the nurse filling the doorway and looking at her watch as a means of advising them visiting hours were over.
Before she left the room, he said, “Thank you for what you said.”
She smiled painfully and said she’d be back in the morning.
AT 3:15 A.M., Joe slid his legs out from under the blankets and eased out of the bed. His leg wounds were tightly bound, but the movement caused sharp needle-like pains that zapped up into his abdomen and belly. He paused at the doorway to get his breath back and pulled on a pair of boxers so his buttocks weren’t bare out of the back of the duck-covered cotton gown.
The hallway was quiet and dimly lit. The nurse station was to his right, so he padded left in his open-backed hospital slippers. Hugging the wall so he couldn’t be seen by the night nurse, he slid along the slick block wall to the end of the hallway and the elevators. Two floors up was ICU.
George Pickett was in room 621. Joe paused before going in and tried to gather strength and resolve. He had no idea what he would find inside.
He eased into the room and stood with his back to the wall near the door, out of sight in case a nurse or aide walked by and glanced in.
Dim blue-white neon lights lit George on his bed. Dozens of tubes curled up and away from his body into the gloom. Bags of clear liquid hung over him. It was as if his father were a long-forgotten potato gone to root in a dark pantry.
Joe shuffled closer. His father looked like a skeleton wrapped in loose latex, as if his yellow skin could slough off of the bones into a pile on the linoleum if he were jostled. Joe froze in mid-breath when George’s eyes shot open and his father’s head turned on his pillow toward him.
“Dad?”
George said, “What I could really use right now, son, is a drink.” His voice was reedy and dry.
“Hello, Dad. How are you doing?”
“Give me a drink.”
Joe reached out for the water bottle on the tray table and his father’s face folded in on itself in a grotesque scowl. “Not that! I said I wanted a drink!”
“Ah,” Joe said.
His father’s rheumy eyes looked at something above and to the left of Joe, but the scowl remained.
“I can’t,” Joe said.
“Who the hell are you, anyway?”
“Joe.”
“Joe? I had a son named Joe.”
“That’s me,” he said, feeling his heart break.
“You’re my son, but you won’t give me a drink?” George rasped. “Then what the hell good are you?”
And with that, he died.
Joe heard an alarm burr at the nurse station, and he stepped back and aside as an emergency team rushed into the room and surrounded George’s body, which seemed to have deflated even more. Despite the chatter of the attendants, he could hear the pneumatic cack-cack-cack of his father’s death rattle, and he couldn’t shake the thought that his dad was getting in one last laugh.
15
DAVE FARKUS HAD SPENT MOST OF HIS ADULT LIFE WORKING hard to avoid hard work. His philosophy was to save himself for pursuits he favored—hunting, fishing, poker, snowmobiling, mountain man rendezvous reenactments, and blasting through the mountains on his 4 x 4 ATV.
Avoiding hard work required discipline and a complete awareness of his surroundings, as well as an intuitive sense of when to be in the wrong place when extra time or effort was demanded. Like golf or fly-fishing, it was a lifelong pursuit that he knew he might never perfect but he could certainly continue to improve. When his soon-to-be-ex-wife, Ardith, suggested bitterly he consider writing a pamphlet on the techniques he employed to maintain his lifestyle, Farkus told her it would be too much work.
Before everyone had been laid off from the natural-gas pipeline company, he’d been supremely skillful at the art of slipping into the men’s room or taking a break moments before the shift supervisor entered the shop to outline new assignments or ask for volunteers for a big new job. When dirty and grueling tasks were demanded, like sandblasting old valves or replacing blown motors in pump units, Farkus expertly anticipated when the jobs would have to take place, due to his intimate knowledge of the industry and workplace, and would schedule a dentist appointment or mandatory drug test for that day.