“Lady?” He spoke with difficulty, running his tongue over his lips. Paks remembered that feeling.
“Garris. You’re doing well.” Paks pushed herself up; she was not as stiff as she’d expected, but she could feel the blows she’d taken. “I’ll bring you something.”
His head rolled from side to side. “I don’t remember. Did I fall off my horse?”
“Among other things, yes.”
“Hunh. At my age, to be thrown—”
“What do you remember, Garris?”
His brow furrowed. “We—were at Aliam Halveric’s weren’t we? Then—we had to leave. In the night. Something—” He shook his head, and moved an arm. “I don’t know. I can’t remember beyond riding out in the torchlight.”
Lieth looked into the tent. “Paks, are you—oh. Garris. Can I bring you something?”
“Anything hot and liquid for Garris. And me, too.” Paks stumbled upright. “Gird’s arm, I slept as heavy as a hill.” She yawned, and pushed off the helmet she had not removed the night before. Her braid thumped her back as it fell.
Lieth came in with two mugs; Suriya followed with bowls. The food and sib smelled delicious. Garris reached for his mug, then looked around and saw the blanket-shrouded form across from him. The hot sib sloshed over his wrist.
“Falk’s oath! Is that Esceriel?”
“Yes,” said Paks. “It is. Garris, we had a fight yesterday—we were attacked on the trail. You and Lieth were wounded and Esceriel was killed—”
“But I don’t—but what—” His hand shook; Paks took the mug from him and set it down.
“Garris, you had a serious wound—that’s why you don’t remember.”
“But I’m all right now—I don’t feel any pain—”
“The gods sent healing for you, Garris. Not for Esceriel. I’m sorry.” Paks watched the pain on his face. When it turned to anger, she spoke again. “I warned you this was dangerous. I told you that you didn’t have to come. You chose that—Esceriel chose that. He chose more—he chose to come to me, when I needed him, and he killed one of them. Then he faced the same weapon that struck you down, and it killed him.”
Garris nodded, his eyes filling with tears. “And you could do nothing?”
“No.” Paks sighed. She felt slightly affronted; he expected too much of her—she had, after all, fought all of the enemy. She mastered that feeling, and went on. “I prayed for him, Garris, as for you. I was taught in Fin Panir that some brave deeds so delight the High Lord that he calls the warrior at once to his service—as a reward. So I think it was for Esceriel.”
“I see.” Garris pushed himself up on his elbows, rolled to one side, and took his mug of sib. After several swallows, he looked back at her.
“Will you tell us yet where we’re going?”
Paks thought about it. She had not told them at Aliam’s, where someone less wise than Aliam might overhear, and mention that name carelessly. And in the woods, that day, she had felt unsure, aware that the woods might hide enemies. But now, with those attackers dead, now surely she could tell them. She nodded. “I will tell you all, before we go on.” She turned to see Lieth and Suriya both watching from the entrance. “Come in, both of you—you might as well hear it all at once.” Suriya stayed where she could watch outside; Lieth squatted near Paks.
“We have a space of safety, I believe: those attackers are dead, and our enemies have nothing else close to us. So now I will tell you the prince’s name, and where we must go. But that name must not be mentioned aloud—not even in the deep woods. Such evil as assailed us has the great forest taig under attack as well; it is broken into many taigin, and in places the fabric is threadbare; we cannot count on the forest to ward us. Enemies can get through—have gotten through—and the little creatures, if no other, may spy on us and pass along our words to each other. More than that, we shall not ride in forest forever; we must pass among the towns of men. There the many agents of evil will have their chance. I have some protection—nothing evil can change my mind or master my tongue—and you share that protection when you are with me—but you must not say the name aloud, or leave my protection once you know it. Do you understand?”
“I will stay with you,” Lieth said quickly.
“And I,” said Suriya. They both looked at Garris.
“Oh, I’ll stay.” He shook his head, then grinned at Paks. “Falk’s arm, I might as well—how could I ride home alone and miss the rest of this tale. But I feel as I did the night Kieri started us over the Hakkenarsk Pass—it’s a cold road ahead, and no sure fires, it seems to me.”
“It is indeed,” said Paks. “I am honored that you choose to come; alone I would not have much chance on this quest, and I think it worthy enough to cost all our lives if that becomes the choice.” She took a deep breath, and glanced from one grave face to another. “Now . . .”
They started off again at an easy pace after noon, having built a mound of rocks over Esceriel’s body. Paks had found a good way down to the lower ground, and none of the horses had trouble with the snow-covered rocks. Garris, though pale, insisted he could ride, and was able to saddle his own mount. Lieth and Suriya rode the grays, who were unharmed, and the injured animals carried their light packs.
Day after day they traveled the snowy woods, a journey that seemed to Paks later a strange interlude of peace, despite the dangers and discomforts of such travel in winter. Hour after hour they rode unspeaking, only the crunch of the horses’ hooves in snow, and the creak of leather breaking the forest silence. Behind and around them cold stillness lay untouched. The patterns of branches and twigs, the colors of snow and ice seemed to sink deep into her mind. The only warmth was the blazing fire that the squires kindled every night; the only warm colors were the things they carried. That small company, closer with each evening’s campfire talk—it was a return to the close-knit companionship she had valued so much as a soldier. Yet not quite a return. For where once that campfire would have been all she knew of light and warmth, now she felt that magical flame within, a light still flickering across the landscapes of her mind, no matter how cold or dark the outer night, how uncertain her vision of what lay ahead. As the squires comforted each other, and looked to her for comfort and guidance, she found herself reaching within, more and more aware of that flame, and what it meant to her.
24
They traveled to Vérella with far less difficulty than Paks had feared—though with far more publicity than she’d hoped. Marshal Pelyan, whom she’d met on the way to Lyonya, had heard of the quest before their arrival. Travelers, he said, had brought word as soon as it came to Harway. And he himself had passed the word on through the granges. So their arrival in any town caused excitement but not curiosity. Paks enjoyed the crowds of children that followed them, the flurry when they entered an inn, but hoped the admiration was not premature. As well, she remembered the winter before, when she had stumbled into such towns as a hungry vagrant, whom the children tricked and harassed instead of cheering.
In each town, they spent the night in grange or field, for Paks wished the King’s Squires to have such protection at night. The Marshals each had a measure of news or advice; she listened to all. She did not tell them the prince’s name, but she told what she could of the quest so far. The nearer she came to Vérella, the more recent the news became. In Westbells, just east of Vérella, Marshal Torin told her that the Duke had been summoned to the Council. She had not asked, but it seemed Phelan’s call to court was of interest even to a neighboring town.
“What I heard,” he said between bites of roast chicken, “was that after the Marshal-General went up there, and whatever passed between them, his friends on the Council thought he should come speak for himself. You know, I suppose, that there was a motion to censure him.”