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And you hope they forgive

And so you live

With your memories buried deep.

This is the price of commanding.

This is the price of commanding --

That if you won't, others will.

So you take your post,

Mindful of each ghost --

You've a debt to them to fill.

This is the price of commanding.

THE ARCHIVIST

(Jadrek)

I sit amid the dusty books. The dust invades my very soul.

It coats my heart with weariness and chokes it with despair.

My life lies beached and withered on a lonely, bleak, uncharted shoal.

There are no kindred spirits here to understand, or care.

When I was young, how often I would feed my hungry mind with tales

And sought the fellowship in books I did not find in kin.

For one does not seek friends when every overture to others fails

So all the company I craved I built from dreams within.

Those dreams-from all my books of lore I plucked the wonders one by one

And waited for the day that I was certain was to come

When some new hero would appear whose quest had only now begun

With desperate need of lore and wisdom I alone could plumb.

And then, ah then, I'd ride away to join with legend and with song.

The trusted friend of heroes, figured in their words and deeds.

Until that day, among the books I'd dwell -- but I have dwelt too long

And like the books I sit alone, a relic no one needs.

I grow too old, I grow too old, my aching bones have made me lame

And if my futile dream came true, I could not live it now.

The time is past, long past, when I could ride the wings of fleeting fame

The dream is dead beneath the dust, as 'neath the dust I bow.

So, unregarded and alone I tend these fragments of the past

Poor fool who bartered life and soul on dreams and useless lore.

And as I watch despair and bitterness enclose my heart at last

Within my soul's dark night I cry out, "Is there nothing more?"

LIZARD DREAMS

(Kethry: Oathbound)

Most folk avoid the Pelagir Hills, where ancient

wars and battles

Were fought with magic, not with steel, for land

and gold and chattels.

Most folk avoid the forest dark for magics still

surround it

And change the creatures living there and all

that dwell around it.

Within a tree upon a hill that glowed at night

with magic

There lived a lizard named Gervase whose life

was rather tragic.

His heart was brave, his mind was wise. He

longed to be a wizard.

But who would ever think to teach their magic

to a lizard?

So poor Gervase would sit and dream, or sigh as

sadly rueing

That fate kept him forever barred from good he

could be doing.

That he had wit and mind and will it cannot be

debated

He also had the kindest heart that ever gods

created.

One day as Gervase sighed and dreamed all in

the forest sunning

He heard a noise of horse and hound and sounds

of two feet running.

A human stumbled to his glade, a human worn

and weary

Dressed in a shredded wizard's robe, his eyes past hope and dreary.

The magic of his birthplace gave Gervase the

gift of speaking.

He hesitated not at all-ran to the wizard,

squeaking,

"Hide human, hide! Hide in my tree!" he danced

and pointed madly.

The wizard stared, the wizard gasped, then hid

himself right gladly.

Gervase at once lay in the sun until the hunt

came by him

Then like a simple lizard now he fled as they

came nigh him.

And'glowered in the hollow tree and hissed when

they came near him

And bit a few dogs' noses so they'd yelp and leap

and fear him.

"Thrice damn that wizard!" snarled his foe. "He's

slipped our hunters neatly.

The hounds have surely been misled. They've

lost the trail completely."

He whipped the the dogs off of the tree and sent

them homeward running

And never once suspected it was all Gervase's

cunning.

The wizard out of hiding crept. "Thrice blessing

I accord you!

And is there somehow any way I can at all re-ward you?"

"I want to be a man like you!" Gervase replied

unthinking.

"A wizard-or a man?" replied the mage who

stared, unblinking.

"For I can only grant you one, the form of man,

or power.

What will you choose? Choose wisely, I must

leave within the hour."

Gervase in silence sat and thought, his mind in

turmoil churning.

And first the one choice thinking on, then to the

other turning.

Yes, he could have the power he craved, the

magic of a wizard

But who'd believe that power lived inside a lowly

lizard?

Or he could have the form of man, but what

could he do in it?

And all the good he craved to do-how then

could he begin it?

Within the Councils of the Wise there sits a

welcome stranger

His word is sought by high and low if there is

need or danger.

He gives his aid to all who ask, who need one to

defend them

And every helpless creature knows he lives but

to befriend them.

And though his form is very strange compared

to those beside him

The mages care not for the form, but for the

mind inside him.

For though he's small, and brightly scaled, they

do not see a lizard.

He's called by all, both great and small, "Gervase,

the Noble Wizard."

He's known by all, both great and small, Gervase

the Lizard Wizard!

LOVERS UNTRUE

(Tarma: "Swordsworn")

"I shall love you till I die!"

Talasar and Dera cry.

He swears "On my life I vow

Only death could part us now!"

She says "You are life and breath

Nothing severs us but Death!"

Lightly taken, lightly spoke,

Easy vows are easy broke.

"Come and ride awhile with me/'

Talasar says to Varee,

"Look, the moon is rising high,

Countless stars bestrew the sky.

Come, or all the hours are flown

It's no night to lie alone."

This the one who lately cried

That he'd love until he died.

"Kevin, do you think me fair?"

Dera smiles, shakes back her hair.

"I have long admired you --

Come, the night is young and new

And the wind is growing cold --

I would see if you are bold -- "

Is this she who vowed till death

Talasar was life and breath?

Conies the dawn-beneath a tree

Talasar lies with Varee.

But look-who should now draw near --

Dera and her Kevin-dear

He sees her -- and she sees him --

Oh confusion! Silence grim!

Till he sighs, and shakes his head-(pregnant pause)

"Well, I guess we must be dead!"

THE LESLAC VERSION

(Leslac and Tarma)