“We’ll get used to it,” she said for the hundredth time, giving him a tight smile. He returned it, feeling another wave of…not guilt, precisely. He had been an idiot, trying to break his father out in the way he did, but he regretted only his methods. And he hadn’t forced Jerri into anything.
He didn’t feel guilty, only responsible. The fact remained that she could have stayed back in the Capital, with a comfortable life and a family nearby, if not for him.
“Thank you,” he said, after a few more seconds pause. “For coming with me. I don’t know what…I’m glad I’m not alone.”
She took a deep breath to settle her stomach, then smiled at him. “Anywhere’s better than home.”
Jerri had made comments like that before, which Calder didn’t fully understand. As he’d heard it, her father had been a member of the Blackwatch who went missing in the course of his duties. Sometimes, she spoke of her father fondly, and other times as though she were glad to be rid of him. Likewise, when she mentioned her mother and the rest of her family at all, the very thought seemed to make her angry.
“You don’t miss it?” Calder said.
Jerri rubbed her emerald earring, an absent gesture. “My family can be…demanding. They know exactly what they want me to do, and how they want me to do it, and that’s the way it is. It takes dramatic gestures to get their attention, sometimes. They wanted to meet you, by the way.”
Calder had never imagined meeting Jerri’s family, taking his cue from her silence. She went home as seldom as possible, so he’d assumed he would never see where she lived or meet her mother. Now he felt a pang of regret that he might not get the chance.
“You told them about me?” he asked.
“Of course I did. I spent all my time at your house, obviously they would want to know everything about you. They were impressed when you joined the Blackwatch, though they were happier when you left.” She raised one hand to her ear again. “It’s something of a sore spot in my family.”
Calder could imagine so. Jerri’s father had died or vanished on duty as a Watchman, so it couldn’t be comforting to picture Calder sharing the same fate.
“Hold on. They know I was kicked out of the Blackwatch?” Calder asked.
“I told them you’d left, obviously. I skirted past the ‘why’ of it.”
“When did you have the chance?” Calder asked. They had boarded The Testament on the same day they were released from the Imperial Palace. Where had she found the time to fill her family in?
She looked at him as though it were obvious. “I went home to pick up my clothes. I had to explain where I was going, didn’t I?”
“You told them the truth?” Calder asked, astonished. “You told your mother that you intended to run off with me, after I was booted out of the Blackwatch and destroyed an Imperial prison?”
“That wouldn’t bother my mother,” she said dryly. “She doesn’t have the brightest view of the Empire. To her, that made you sound roguish.”
Calder resolved to meet Jerri’s mother.
“Besides,” Jerri continued, “I didn’t say that I’d ‘run off’ with you. That would have a different implication altogether, wouldn’t it?”
She smiled at him and rested a hand on his arm, and his pulse picked up.
At that moment, Andel cleared his throat from the half-open door.
Calder spun to face him. The Imperial officer was standing with his hat in one hand and the door in the other. Sweat rolled down his face, and he fanned himself with the wide brim of his hat. His suit, usually pristine white, was damp with patches of sweat.
Still, he showed no expression. “We have a situation on deck, Marten. You should come take a look.”
The more decisions Andel made for Calder, the tighter his authority would stick. Calder had to put a stop to that now. “I’ll come when I’ve finished here, Andel.”
“Suit yourself,” Andel said. “You’ve got about ten minutes before the ship burns down around you. Spend it however you’d like.”
He bowed his way out, pulling the door shut behind him.
Calder shared a look with Jerri. It was muggy and warm in the cabin, but not oppressively hot. Certainly nothing that suggested a fire.
Andel had been sweating.
In its cage, Shuffles began to laugh. It was covered up by a blanket, under which it slept most of the day, but it woke whenever danger was imminent. Its chuckles were deep and rich, the laughter of a cruel giant.
Together, Jerri and Calder rushed up onto the deck.
More than a month into the Aion, Calder had seen things he would never have imagined back at home. A finned monstrosity just beneath the waves, weaving its careful way around the Lyathatan, raising its spiky mouth above the water for long enough to hiss spitefully. A storm during which water rained up from the ocean and into thirsty clouds. An island that slid away, shy, whenever their ship got too close.
So when he opened the door to a faceful of oven-hot sunlight as bright as an alchemical flare, Calder felt a fresh round of familiar panic. Maybe this time, the Aion was revealing its full fury, and they would finally confront the wrath of something ancient and inhuman.
Jerri gasped next to him, clutching his arm with a hand edged in spidery tattoos. At her touch, he turned his gaze to the sky.
A constellation of flames danced over the ship, just out of reach of the mast, too bright and white to look like ordinary fire. They weren’t traditional tongues of flame, either. Pyramids of fire drifted in stately laps overhead, spinning around cubes, spheres, twisted nests, and undulating snakes. This fire could take on any shape, it seemed, except the natural.
Calder stared for a few seconds before he noticed the pattern. The bright, geometric clouds of fire were not moving randomly, but cycling in some complex formation that kept them orbiting the ship. As The Testament moved, the flames followed effortlessly.
Calder extended his senses, Reading. He caught a whiff of Intent from the fire—alien, distant, curious, and almost joyful—but most of his attention was focused on the ship.
A ship did not experience emotions like a human being, not even an Awakened ship. Its understanding was slow and limited, more a sense of purpose than any actual thought.
But as far as it could, The Testament panicked. It did not like fire. Taut lines suddenly felt as though they quivered with tension, the seamless deck frozen in panic instead of calm and placid.
The ship wanted, more than anything, for Calder to make the fire go away.
In the cage, the prisoner—Urzaia—lay on his back with his arms folded under his head, apparently asleep. Eight, the grim man with the shield strapped to his back, alternated his gaze between Urzaia and the lights overhead. One-eyed Nine had stripped to the waist, his scarred back glistening with sweat, and he stood with his head tilted up to face the sky.
“Is this usual for the Aion, Navigator?” Nine called back, only seconds after Calder stepped out of the door.
Over the past few weeks, the Champions had learned the precise extent of Calder’s inexperience. Namely, that he knew next to nothing about the Aion Sea. Eight seemed to trust that they would get where they were going, or else he didn’t care where they ended up so long as Urzaia never escaped. But Nine blatantly pretended that Calder was an expert Navigator, asking his opinion on weather patterns or the mysterious behavior of the haunted sea.