The ward sister was there because there was a ritual to be observed. Anna couldn’t just walk out of the hospital, even though she was classed as a voluntary patient. She had to be handed over in a formal fashion, to signify that responsibility was being officially transferred from one sister to another. Not that Isabel really was her sister in a biological sense, any more than the ward sister was; she and Anna had simply been parts of the same arbitrarily-constructed foster family. They were not alike in any way at all.
When Isabel finally arrived, in a rush, with all her generous flesh and hectic color, the ceremony began.
“You must remember that this is Anna’s first day out,” the ward sister said to Isabel. “We don’t anticipate any problems, but you must make sure that she takes her medication at the appointed times. If she shows signs of distress, you should bring her back here as soon as possible. This emergency number will connect you with a doctor immediately.”
Isabel stared at the number scrawled on the card as though it were the track of some mysterious bird of ill omen.
To Anna, the sister said only: “Be good.” Not “Have a nice time” or even “Take it easy,” but simply “Be good.” It’s better to be beautiful than to be good, Anna thought, but it’s better to be good than to be ugly. She had been beautiful once, and more than beautiful—so much more as to be far beyond the reach of Saint Oscar’s ancient wisdom, but now there was nothing left to her except to be good, because her more-than-beauty had gone very, very bad.
Isabel, of course, had no idea that Anna was on her way to a funeral, and that her role was merely to provide a convenient avenue of escape. Anna waited until the car was a good two miles away from the hospital before she broached the subject. “Can you drop me at the nearest tube station,” she said lightly, “and can you let me have some money.”
“Don’t be silly,” Isabel said. “We’re going home.”
Isabel meant her own home, where she lived with a husband and two children, paying solemn lip service to the social ideal. Anna had seen Isabel’s husband three or four times, but only in the distance. He was probably one of those visitors’ partners whose supportive resolution failed at the threshold of Bedlam—many in-laws preferred to wait outside while their better halves attended to the moral duty of comforting their afflicted kin—but it was possible that Isabel had forbidden him to come in and be properly introduced. Few women relished the prospect of introducing their husbands to whores, even whores who happened to be their sisters—legalistically speaking—and whose sexual charms had been obliterated in no uncertain terms.
“No we’re not,” Anna said. “That’s just something I had to tell the doctors, so they’d let me out. If I’d told them the truth, they’d have stopped me, one way or another.”
“What truth?” Isabel wanted to know. “What on earth are you talking about? I’ll have you know that I’ve gone to a lot of trouble over this. You heard what the nurse said. I’m responsible for you.”
“You won’t be doing anything illegal,” Anna told her. “I’ll get back on time, and nobody will be any the wiser. Even if I didn’t go back, nobody would blame you. I’m the crazy one, remember. How much cash can you let me have?”
“I don’t have any cash,” Isabel told her, as she drove resolutely past Clapham South tube station without even hesitating. “I don’t carry cash. Nobody does. It’s not necessary anymore.”
That was a half-truth, at best. At the Licensed House where Anna had worked, the clients had used their smartcards, and the transactions had been electronically laundered so that no dirty linen would be exposed to prying wives or the Inland Revenue. The streetwalkers who haunted the Euroterminal and the Bull Ring had smartcard processors too, but their laundering facilities were as dodgy as their augmentations and most of their clients paid in cash.
“You can still get cash, can’t you?” Anna said, innocently. “Walls still have holes, just like spoiled whores. Don’t worry about missing Clapham South. Vauxhall will be fine.”
“Just where the hell do you think you’re going, Anna?” Isabel demanded, hotly. “Just what the hell do you think you’re going to do?” That was Isabel all over: repetition and resentment, with plenty of hell thrown in.
“There’s something I need to do,” Anna said, unhelpfully. She had no intention of spelling it out. Isabel would protest violently just as surely as the doctors would have done. Unlike the doctors, though, Isabel was easy to manipulate. Isabel had always been scared of Anna, even though she was two years older, two inches taller, and two stones heavier. Now that Anna was a shadow of her former self, of course, it was more like four stones—but that only increased Anna’s advantage.
“I won’t do it,” Isabel said, although the hopelessness of her insistence was already evident.
“I can do anything I like,” Anna said, reflectively. “It’s one of the perks of being mad and bad—you can do anything you like, and nobody’s surprised. I can’t be punished, because there’s nothing they can take away that I haven’t already lost. I could do with a hundred pounds, but fifty might do in a pinch. I have to have cash, you see, because people with scrambled brain chemistry aren’t allowed smartcards. Fortunately, there’ll always be cash.” As long as there were outposts of the black economy that weren’t geared up for laundering, there’d be cash—and everybody in the world was engaged in the black economy in some fashion, even if it was only token tax-dodging.
“I don’t like being used,” Isabel said, frostily. “I agreed to take you out for the day because you asked me to, and because the doctors thought it would be a good idea—a significant step on the way to rehabilitation. I won’t stand for it, Anna. It’s not fair.”
Since she was six years old Isabel had been complaining that “it” wasn’t fair. She had never quite grasped the fact that there was no earthly reason for expecting that anything should be.
“There’s bound to be a cash-dispenser at Vauxhall,” Anna said. “Fifty would probably do it, if that’s all you can spare. I’ve lost track of inflation since they put me in the loony bin, but money can’t have lost that much value in three years.”
Isabel braked and pulled over to the side of the road. She was the kind of person who couldn’t drive and have a fit at the same time. Anna could tell that her sister was upset because she’d stopped on a double yellow line; normally, she’d have looked for a proper parking place.
“What the hell is this about, Anna?” Isabel demanded. “Exactly what have you got me into? If you’re using me as an alibi while you abscond from the hospital, I’ve a right to know.”
“I’ll be back on time,” Anna assured her. “No one will ever know, except your husband and children. They’ll probably be disappointed that they aren’t going to meet your mad, bad, and dangerous-to-know foster sister, but they’ll get over it. You can bring them in one day next week, to make up for it. I’ll be as nice as pie, psychochemistry permitting.”
“What is this all about?” Isabel repeated, pronouncing each word with leaden emphasis, as if to imply that Anna was only ignoring her because she was too stupid to know what the question was.
“There’s something I have to do,” Anna said, nobly refraining from adopting the same tone. “It won’t take long. If you won’t give me the fifty pounds, can you at least let me have enough for a Travelcard. I have to go all the way across town to zone four.”
Anna knew as soon as she’d said it that it was a mistake. It gave Isabel a way out. She should have hammered on and on about the fifty until she got it. In the old days, she’d never have settled for a penny less than she’d actually wanted, whatever kind of client she was dealing with.