She finally made her decision and went through into the bedroom.
‘Shall we chant?’ she asked, walking past Jerome with a little spin.
‘Woah!’ said Jerome, leaping back onto his feet. The only mantra that goes with that rag is “Yabadabadoo”.’
As if inspired by the laws of cartoonland, he threw himself on to the bed in one smooth gesture, his head already resting in his palm as he hit the mattress. He raised one knee and lay there in the posture of a feasting Roman.
I knew I should have worn the sari, thought Sabine.
‘Do you like it?’ she asked, pretending to pull a few strands of suede over her pubic mound.
‘You bought your own nakedness at a clothes store,’ said Jerome. ‘That’s what I call capitalism.’
Sabine joined her hands together in prayer and bowed to Jerome.
‘Yabadabadoo,’ said Jerome.
‘You are a silly man,’ said Sabine, beginning to be irritated. ‘This is supposed to be a meditation.’
‘Meditate on this,’ said Jerome, clasping the silken bulge in his boxer shorts.
‘Be serious,’ shouted Sabine, stamping her foot.
‘You come in dressed in a couple of moose sinews, and you want me to behave like I’m in church.’
‘My God,’ said Sabine, ‘what are you doing in a Tantra seminar if you are making a separation between sexuality and spirituality?’
‘Lighten up, will you?’ said Jerome.
‘I think you’re the one who needs to relax,’ said Sabine, getting up and stepping into a pair of jeans. ‘I’m going for a walk, maybe when I get back we can start again.’
‘Start what again?’ said Jerome. ‘Your process?’
‘My process? You know, John warned us about this: one person starts an argument because they’re afraid.’
‘So what are you afraid of?’ asked Jerome.
‘Don’t try that cheap trick on me,’ said Sabine, buttoning up her trousers. ‘You know, with you I’ve always had this feeling that Tantra was just a way of learning some fancy moves so that Mr Irresistible could go on getting cool young chicks into bed. For me, it’s part of my spiritual journey. Like John says, “Don’t be afraid of inviting God into the bedroom.”’
‘John’s the one you’re inviting into the bedroom,’ said Jerome. ‘Are you going to quote him all night?’
‘You’re jealous of John and you’re afraid of inviting God into the bedroom,’ Sabine taunted him. ‘What if somebody else was in charge of the energy? What if Jerome wasn’t running the show? You wouldn’t like that so much, huh?’
‘Cut the psychology,’ said Jerome contemptuously.
‘When you’ve worked out your little problem, why don’t you come and fetch me in the hot tubs? I need to be with my own body right now.’
‘I’m not afraid of inviting God into the bedroom,’ Jerome called out as Sabine swept towards the door. ‘I just don’t want Her to come dressed as Wilma Flintstone.’
‘How do you expect God to dress? In fluorescent green shorts, like some low-class gigolo?’
‘They’re Italian silk,’ shouted Jerome. ‘These shorts cost me a fortune.’
Sabine walked out, leaving the door open. Jerome collapsed onto the bed with a loud groan.
* * *
Both Brooke and Kenneth felt tense as they headed north on Route One. They had switched workshops. The drumming in their ritual workshop had been so powerful and transformational they had decided to leave and try sex again. Three years earlier there had been a fumbling encounter between them, initiated by Kenneth when he was first establishing the subsidy for his book. It had almost lost him Brooke’s support. She knew that he wanted to blame her unattractiveness for what she had described to Adam as a ‘catastrophe’, but if he found her unattractive, what had he been doing in bed with her in the first place? He had never really been honest about the confusion, his motives for taking her to bed, and the backlash of his revulsion. Perhaps it was too horrible to go into. Their friendship had survived with its sails torn, and now they were risking another storm. This time Kenneth had not taken the initiative. He had agreed, though, and agreed at a time when the subsidy he had first courted was in danger of extinction.
Brooke had taken a room in the Post Ranch Inn, a small house in fact, overlooking the ocean from a thousand-foot cliff. The rooms in Esalen, with their Ivory soap and their bewildering lack of maids, were just a little too alien for her to quest in.
‘So, what d’ya think of this non-ejaculatory orgasm?’ said Brooke, taking a hairpin bend.
‘I guess I’m pleased my father wasn’t a practitioner,’ growled Kenneth. ‘Why would Nature make it feel so good if we weren’t supposed to ejaculate? It sounds counter-evolutionary to me.’
‘According to John you’ll feel even better if you don’t ejaculate. Maybe Nature wants us to know that right now. Even evolution’s got to evolve.’
‘I’ve got nothing against delaying orgasm,’ said Kenneth.
‘For how many weeks?’ asked Brooke.
‘Oh,’ Kenneth pondered for a while, ‘just over half a per cent of one week.’
‘How long is that?’
‘Almost an hour.’
‘That’s not bad.’
Brooke paused and wondered whether to say what was on her mind.
‘You know, this is hard for me after what happened.’
‘I know,’ said Kenneth, with the alacrity of someone who has been dreading talking about a subject. ‘But it’s not the same,’ he went on. ‘We’ve been through a lot, and this is a way for us to explore a new level of intimacy.’
Feeling that he was drifting, he switched abruptly to declamation.
‘The point is not to try to sanctify the genitals by giving them foreign names like yoni and lingam, but to be able to say “cunt” with such a radical sense of wonder that the word is restored to its ancient … I want to say “virginity”.’
‘Well, try to resist,’ said Brooke, laughing.
‘But seriously,’ said Kenneth, removing himself further from the awkwardness of the personal. ‘For me this is connected with something that came out of Adam’s class: the point is not that sperm is like holy water, but that it’s sperm, which is quite wonderful enough. Lightning isn’t the emanation of some Divine mood, it’s lightning, which is quite wonderful enough.’
The road became more precipitous, a ribbon of perpetual vertigo carved in a cliff.
‘Well, Professor,’ said Brooke, with uncharacteristic boldness, ‘I guess the question I ought to ask, the one with the radical sense of wonder, is, “Do you want my cunt?”’
Kenneth coughed sharply.
‘Yes,’ he said, sympathizing with the view, ‘yes, I do.’
* * *
‘I don’t like the word lingam,’ said Jason. ‘It doesn’t rhyme with anything. Unlike “prick”, which rhymes with — well, “dick” for a start. Or “cock”, which rhymes with “wok” and, eh … “sock”.’
‘“My cock is in my wok”, is that the kind of lyric you want to write?’ asked Angela.
‘Well, it’s better than “My lingam’s in my wok”, isn’t it?’ said Jason with a lively sense of justice.
‘It’s hard to judge,’ said Angela. ‘It might be better to keep the wok and the cock entirely separate.’
‘In an ideal world,’ admitted Jason. ‘But sometimes the chemistry is just overwhelming,’ he said, grinning at Angela.
‘Like John says,’ said Angela seriously, ‘Tantra is about replacing chemistry with alchemy.’
‘Yeah,’ said Jason. ‘It’s certainly having an alchemical effect on my writing. Tantra, yantra, mantra.’