as they swept past. And soon those gusts
will mill you, when the backhoe comes
to dredge your roots, but that is not
what most impends, as the chopper descends
to the hospital roof so that somebody’s heart
can be massaged back into its old habits.
Mine went a little haywire
at the crest of the road, on whose other side
you lay in blossom.
As if your purpose were to defibrillate me
with a thousand electrodes,
one volt each.
The Caucus
I had my precinct wrong and went to Garfield Elementary
where the hall monitors would not let me through
because I live on the wrong side of the boundary. I could hear
my neighbors, listening reasonably to one another,
listening even to the man who is my adversary
because he leaves his dog’s crap on the sidewalk’s grassy strip.
If he wants to fly, Peter Pan has to focus very hard on Tinker Bell.
If he is quiet and he concentrates, then he can fly.
The girl who spoke sat in the hallway,
so I asked if she was working on her reading. “No,
she’s autistic those are her socialization cards,” said her mother,
who asked if I would watch her girl (whose name was Terri)
so she (the mother)
could take part in the caucus.
He can fly only when he focuses on Tinker Bell.
He can focus only when he listens.
In the classrooms, my neighbors sat in chairs
that shrank their knee-chin distance pitifully. I heard my adversary
say he didn’t think the candidate looked authentic enough
and that’s how history gets made. Quick
write it down before it slips
too far downstream.
Peter Pan likes to sing and hear Tinker Bell sing.
When he hears Tinker Bell sing, Peter Pan is happy.
In the classroom, something was decided—
I heard the collective exhale of assent
before people filed out, looking giddy and grave. When she returned
I asked Terri’s mother what was up
with the singing, and she said that other children
tormented her girl with songs.
Go tell that to a poet.
It would explain a lot about the current state of the art.
Orpheus sang,
and, like the Beatles, his song made the girls scream
so loud they drowned the song. Then they yelled
See yonder our despiser and tore off his head.
Peter Pan and Tinker Bell like to sing together.
They are very happy when they sing.
You know one girl alone wouldn’t have done it,
and this is not just a matter of strength. There’s a fuse
running from one of us to the other— lucky thing
all that’s in my pocket is this old packet
of moist towelettes
I mistook for a matchbook.
She thanked me, the mother, even though Terri
had been reading her cards to my dog. Note
I carry a blue (biodegradable and perfumed)
plastic crap bag, though it hadn’t been used yet,
there at the school, and I was letting it flap
from the pocket of my red flannel shirt
like the American flag.
Come, my adversary—
let us discuss the warblers.
How sweetly they torment us from the budding trees.
Domestic
Here the coyote lives in shadows between houses,
feeds by running west to raid the trash behind the store
where they sell food that comes in cans
yesterday expired. Picture it
perching on the dumpster, a corrugated
sheet of metal welded to the straight, its haunch
accruing the imprint of the edge until it pounces,
skittering on the cans. It has tried
to gnaw them open and broken all its teeth.
Bald-flanked, rheumy-eyed, sniffing the wheels
of our big plastic trash carts but too pigeon-
chested to knock them down, scat full of eggshells
from the compost pile. “I am like that, starved,
with dreams of rutting in a culvert’s narrow light—”
we mumble our affinities as we vacate into sleep.
Because we occupy the wrong animal— don’t you too feel it?
Haven’t you stood in the driveway, utterly confused?
Maybe you were taking out the garbage, twisting
your robe into a noose-knot at your throat, when you stopped
fighting the urge to howl, and howled—
and did it bring relief, my friend, however self-deceiving?
Skedans
I paddled many days to reach the totem poles
not barged off to Vancouver. Tilting in a clearing,
gray and cracked, upholding the clouds,
the grain for a hundred years having risen.
The ghosts of Cumshewa Inlet kept trying to evict me,
but I did not want to leave
because the Haida had left their dead here
and once you step over a human bone while following a deer-path
you want to step over another, unless you are not ruled
by curiosity as I was ruled. Or had already seen a skull
mossy in its entirety, with three holes (eye sockets
+ the nose) + the palate on the duff.
Into which the green teeth bit, the moss
covering it all like luminescent car upholstery,
what do you do if you are just a dumb American,
I can usually figure out how to behave, but require years
to come to my conclusions. Now
the fact the reparations have come due
is being made clear by the photo of the skull
I took when I was young and dumb, this anti-
luck charm emanating green recriminations,
though I notice that I do not take it from the wall.
I Could Name Some Names
of those who have drifted through thus far of their allotted
fifty or seventy or ninety years on Earth
with no disasters happening,
whatever had to be given up was given up—
the food at the rehab facility was better than you would expect
and the children turned out more or less okay;
sure there were some shaky years
but no one’s living in the basement anymore
with a divot in his head, that’s where the shrapnel landed/or
don’t look at her stump. It is easy
to feel possessed of a soul that’s better schooled
than the fluffy cloud inside of people who have never known suchlike
events by which our darlings
are unfavorably remade. And the self
is the darling’s darling
(I = darling2). Every day
I meditate against my envy
aimed at those who drift inside the bubble of no-trouble,
— what is the percentage? 20 % of us? 8 %? zero?
Maybe the ex-president with his nubile daughters,
vigorous old parents, and clean colonoscopy. Grrrr.
Remember to breathe. Breathe in suffering,
breathe out blessings say the ancient dharma texts.
Still I beg to file this one complaint
that some are mountain-biking through the scrublands
while she is here at Ralph’s Thriftway,
running her thumb over a peach’s bruise,
her leg a steel rod
in a miniskirt, to make sure I see.