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was complicated, but turns out

is. Yes I bought the costly mixture

— not the cheap stuff full of milo—

which the birds kick to the ground, where it becomes

an aggregate of shit and chaff.

But I’d not known you must sweep it up

so as not to spread the pathogens, and space

your feeders far apart and dump

the seed each week and clean the feeder tube with bleach.

And you should whitewash the windows of your home

so the birds won’t crash — you’ll live in twilight

but your conscience will be clear. Otherwise

it’s best not to feed the birds

at alclass="underline" your help will only kill them, has killed them,

I killed them says Wild Birds Unlimited — thanks,

now let me tell you that your wind chimes

turn this place into a gong-tormented sea.

Outside, it’s just another shop in the strip mall;

used to be that this place was a grove

of cedars where I knelt in the purplebrown duff

while something holy landed like a lunar rover

on my shoulder. But listen

to what sings in the grove’s bright stead—

computer chips provide what you would hear here

if they weren’t — mechanical birds

on plastic boughs, always flowering.

Bats

Light leaves the air like silty water

through a filterpaper sieve:

there is a draft created by its exodus

that you might think that if you rode

you too could slip away quite easily.

Is this why they call to mind the thought of death?

Squeak squeak, their song: I want to go

but I am stuck here, it is a mistake

being incarnate; I should be made

of the same substance as the dark.

If they must stay, like us they will be governed

by their hungers, pursuit

without rest. What you see in their whirling

is not purity of spirit. Only appetite,

infernal appetite — driving them, too, on.

Autothalamium

On my wedding night I drove the white boat,

its steering wheel a full yard wide. The dress

bellied out behind me like a sail

as I gripped the lacquered wood

and circuited the bay. The poem

by Akhmatova having already

been read, the calamari and cake

already eaten, I stood alone

in the wheelhouse while my friends

danced to the balalaikas outside

on the deck. I could not speak

for the groom, who left me

to the old motor’s growl

and the old boards’ groan; I also

couldn’t speak for the moon

because I feared diverging

from my task to look. Instead I stuck

my eyes to the water, whose toxins shined

with a phosphor that I plowed and plundered.

And no matter what has happened since,

the years and the dead,

the sadness of the bound-to-happen,

the ecstasy of the fragile moment,

I know one night I narrowed my gaze

and attended to my captaining, while the sea

gave me more serious work than either love or speech.

Red Hat

I followed your red stocking hat

down the river of summer snow

until you carved the turn that stopped us both

with a spray of crystals. A prosthetic leg

lay on the ground, wearing a red

running shoe; we almost took it

to the Lost and Found, but skiing on,

we found more legs

perplexed the mountain. Leg

with thermos, leg with scarf, tableaux

with legs like bowling pins

struck down, though some were propped

erect, against a rock. Art installation

or object lesson? — first the body loses,

then it loses what it puts in place

of what it loses? — I thought

Mount Hood had come to life

to hammer this in. But I kept on

after your red hat and soon was overtaken

by one-legged men, a human wind

I whirled among for just a human minute.

Below, I saw them swallow you, then leave

you with the mountain shadowed on your back,

your red hat wagging, happily, it seemed,

despite the tons of rock you wore.

This Red T-shirt

was a gift from Angus, came with his new Harley

which no ladies deigned to perch their buttocks on

and was therefore sold minus the shirt—

net cost: three thousand dollars, I wear the money

in my sleep. The black braid flowing from the man

herding dice at the Squaxins’ Little Creek Casino

cost me two hundred thirty-five, well worth it

for the word croupier. Work seven months on a poem,

then you tear it up, this does not pencil out

especially for my mother who ate potatoes

every day from 1935–41. Who went to the famous

Jackson Pollock show after the war — sure, she was a rube

from across the Harlem River, snickering

at the swindle of those dribbles until death squelched the supply

and drove the prices up. I’ve known men

who gave up houses worth half a million just to see

the back of someone whom they once bought diamonds.

And I’ve known women to swallow diamonds

just to amplify the spectacle of their being flushed.

The Gutenberg Bible — okay, I get that:

five-point-four million dollars for a book of poems

written by God on the skin of a calf. A hundred years ago

the Squaxins could tell you easily

who the rich man was. He’d be dressed in a red robe

made of epaulets from redwing blackbird wings.

The Wolves of Illinois

When I stopped along the road and climbed the platform that the wildlife people built, I saw the dead grass moving. A darker gold that broke free from the pale gold of the field.

“Wolves,” said the man who stood beside me on the platform. On his other side stood his wife and children, I assumed, dressed as if they’d come from church,

a boy and girl, her scalp crosshatched with partings from her braids. Note that this is my way of announcing they were black

or African American, I am shy not only of the terminology but of the subject altogether

compounded by the matter of words, black being strong

if not so precise a descriptor—

and my being torn about the language makes me nervous from the start. “Look at the wolves,” he told his children

before dropping a quarter in the scope, which I didn’t need because I had my own binoculars

and know the names and field marks of the birds

(like the white rump of the marsh hawk),

so I include “the white rump of the marsh hawk” as it flies over the field.

“Those are coyotes,” I said

with pity for the man’s foolishness? is there a correlation between my knowledge and my pity?

(an inside joke: the marsh hawk’s having been renamed the northern harrier,

though marsh hawk is stronger).

Plus what about the man’s pity for the white girl with coyote in her mouth

— coyote in two syllables, the rancher’s pronunciation,

when wolf is stronger. I wondered whether he was saving face before his family when he said, “No, those are wolves,”