How long have you been going with her?
Eighteen months.
Edmond raised his eyebrows. City women are not the same, he said, and I ought to know. I’ve seen enough. They’re not built the same way. They don’t have the same shit and they don’t have the same blood. They don’t smell the same either. They don’t smell of stables and chicken mash, they smell of something else. And that something else is dangerous. They have perfect eyelashes, they have unscratched legs without varicose veins, they have shoes with soles as thin as pancakes, they have hands white and smooth as peeled potatoes and when you smell their smell, it fills you with a godforsaken longing. You want to breathe them to their dregs, you want to squeeze them like lemons until there is not a drop or a pip left. And shall I tell you what they smell of? Their smell is the smell of money. They calculate everything for money. They are not built like our mothers, these women.
You can leave my mother out of it.
Be careful, said Edmond, your blond will strip you of everything. Then she’ll throw you aside like a plucked chicken.
With a slow blow to the face Boris knocked the shepherd over. He lay spread-eagled on the ground.
Nothing stirred. The dog licked Edmond’s forehead.
Only somebody who has seen a battlefield can imagine the full indifference of the stars above the shepherd, spread-eagled on the ground. It is in the face of this indifference that we seek love.
Tomorrow I will buy her a shawl, whispered Boris, and without a glance behind him, took the road back to the village.
Next morning the police came to warn him that his sheep were a public danger, for they were encumbering the highway. Edmond the shepherd had disappeared and he was not seen again until after Boris’s death.
The month of August was the month of Boris’s triumph. Or is glory a better term? For he was too happy, too self-absorbed, to see himself as a victor who had triumphed over others. It had become clear to him that the instructions inscribed at the moment of his conception had involved more than the size of his bones, the thickness of his skull or the power of his will. He was destined, at the age of forty, to be recognized.
The hay had been brought in, his barn was full, his sheep were grazing high in the mountains — without a shepherd but God would preserve them — and every evening he sat on the terrace of the Republican Lyre overlooking the village square, with the blond in a summer dress, her shoulders bare, her feet in high-heeled silver sandals, and until nightfall the pair of them were the colour-television picture of the village.
Offer drinks to every table, he said, leaning back in his chair, and if they ask what’s happened, tell them that Boris is buying horses!
Humpback, not every night, you can’t afford it!
Every night! My balls are swollen.
He placed one of his immense hands on the bosom of her red-polka-dot dress.
It’s true about the horses, he said, I’m going to breed horses — for you! Breed riding horses that we’ll sell to the idiots who come for weekends.
What should I do with horses? she asked, I can’t ride.
If you have a child of mine—
Yes, Humpback.
I’ll teach the child to ride, he said. A child of ours will have your looks and my pride.
The last word he had never before uttered concerning himself.
If we have a child, she whispered, the house where we live now is too small. We’d need at least another room.
And how many months have we got to sort out the question of a house? asked Boris with his cattle dealer’s canniness.
I don’t know, Humpback, perhaps eight.
A bottle of champagne, Boris shouted, pour out glasses for everybody.
Are you still buying horses? asked Marc, who, with his pipe and blue overalls, is the sceptic of the Republican Lyre, the perennial instructor about the idiocy of the world.
That’s none of your business, retorted Boris. I’m buying you a drink.
I’ll be tipsy, said the blond.
I’ll get you some nuts.
On the counter of the Republican Lyre is a machine where you put in a franc and a child’s handful of peanuts comes out. Boris fed coin after coin into the machine and asked for a soup plate.
When the men standing at the bar raised their glasses of champagne and nodded towards Boris, they were each toasting the blond: and each was picturing himself in Boris’s place, some with envy, and all with that odd nostalgia which everyone feels for what they know they will never live.
Beside Marc stood Jean, who had once been a long-distance lorry driver. Now he kept rabbits with his wife and was seventy. Jean was in the middle of a story:
Guy was pissed out of his mind, Jean was saying, Guy slumped down onto the floor and lay there flat out, as if he were dead. Jean paused and looked at the faces around the bar to emphasize the impasse. What should we do with him? It was then that Patrick had his idea. Bring him round to my place, said Patrick. They got Guy into the car and they drove him up to Patrick’s. Bring him in here, lay him on the workbench, said Patrick. Now slip off his trousers.
The blond put some nuts into Boris’s mouth.
You’re not going to harm him? Slip off his trousers, I tell you. Now his socks. There he lay on the workbench, as naked as we’ll all be when the Great Holiday starts. What now? He’s broken his leg, announced Patrick. Don’t be daft. We’re going to make him believe he broke his leg, Patrick explained. Why should he believe it? Wait and see. Patrick mixed up a bathful of plaster and, as professionally as you’d expect from Patrick, he plastered Guy’s leg from the ankle to halfway up the thigh. Jean paused to look round at his listeners. On the way home in the car Guy came round. Don’t worry, mate, said Patrick, you broke your leg, but it’s not bad, we took you to the hospital and they’ve set it in plaster and they said you could have it off in a week, it’s not a bad fracture. Guy looked down at his leg and the tears ran down his cheeks. What a cunt I am! he kept repeating. What a cunt I am!
What happened afterwards? Marc asked.
He was a week off work, watching TV, with his leg up on a chair!
The blond began to laugh and Boris put the back of his hand against her throat — for fear that the palm was too calloused — and there he could feel the laughter, which began between her hips, gushing up to her mouth. Systematically he moved the back of his immense hand up and down the blond’s throat.
Jean, the lorry driver who now kept rabbits, watched this action, fascinated, as if it were more improbable than the story he had just told.
I couldn’t believe it, he recounted to the habitués of the Republican Lyre later that night: there was Boris, over there, bone-headed Boris caressing the blond like she was a sitting squirrel, and feeding her nuts from a soup plate. And what do you think he does when the husband comes in? He stands up, holds out his hand to the husband and announces: What do you want to drink? A white wine with cassis? I’m taking her to the ball tonight, Boris says. We shan’t be back till morning.
The ball was in the next village. All night it seemed to Boris that the earth was moving past the plough of its own volition.
Once they stopped dancing to drink. He beer, and she lemonade.
I will give you the Mother’s house, he said.
Why do you call it that?
My mother inherited it from her father.
And if one day you want to sell it?
How can I sell it if I’ve given it to you?
Gérard will never believe it.
About our child?
No. About the house, he won’t agree to move in, unless it’s certain.
Leave Gérard! Come and live with me.
No, Humpback, I’m not made for preparing mash for chickens.
Once again, by way of reply, Boris thrust his massive head against her breast. His face fitted into her breast like a gun into its case lined with velvet. For how long was his face buried there? When he raised it he said: I’ll give you the house formally, I’ll see the notary, it’ll be yours, yours not his, and then it’ll go to our child. Do you want to dance again?