‘How long have you been here?’
‘Months. Since they began building the fucker. This is the busiest we’ve been for a while. The worst injuries we had before this were splinters and sprains.’ The voice sounded so tired that Jane thought it might simply fade out. He supposed everyone sounded like that now. Tired, strung out. Maybe just giving up the ghost without even realising it.
Jane scrambled to his feet and stretched, keeping his arm tucked in against him. The raft was no longer visible on the water and he thought it might have left without him, or been sunk, but his panic was short-lived. Labourers were huddled together checking plans and drinking hot water from metal cups. Fires had been started all along the beach. He heard laughter from somewhere and it almost scared him. It was such an alien sound, like the sudden cry of an attacking animal. Gradually he allowed himself to relax, to feel safe for the first time in a long time.
‘So what’s it like, back in London?’ Edwards asked him.
‘Not great,’ Jane said. ‘You got anyone there?’
‘London? No. Never set foot in the place me entire puff. Nearest I got was Leatherhead, Surrey. Grew up in Leeds. Everyone dead.’
Jane didn’t know what to say. As in most cases, he allowed the silence to build a wall between them. Then he turned and walked along the beach, his movements ungainly in the deep, shifting pebbles. Forgotten angles of machinery poked out of the ground like relics from an alien era unearthed by archaeologists. Chains and cogs and pistons and gears, larger than lorries. He felt a little like these submerged weird machines. Machines needed people to work them. Once they disappeared, or the knowledge of their purpose was lost, they became redundant, useful only for scrap. He had felt more and more rudderless in recent weeks. He felt like someone who has aged to a point where he no longer feels relevant, someone pale and lined who drifts around the periphery of things, who escapes attention because he has come to the end of his life.
He supposed that the future would come to resemble the past. Hundreds of years ago, you outlived your usefulness to the planet once you’d procreated. Life expectancy was mid-thirties. He felt another tooth coming loose. Lower incisor. Once your teeth were gone, it became harder to take in the nutrients you needed. Aches and pains everywhere. It didn’t matter any more that he knew how to weld, could determine how long to stay underwater on a tank of heliox. These were skills the world no longer needed. He was a shot bolt. He sat down again, weary, sapped to the bone.
An old woman with beautiful hair, silver and soft and long, leaned over him and asked if he was all right. He smiled at her and he saw her wince; blood in the teeth, he thought, and shut his lips. He turned away, looking at the nuclear reactors to the south, the dome of the decommissioned Sizewell A. Jane remembered his concern over these plants, but nothing had come of the threat. He remembered Becky rubbing his shoulder when he became upset that they had survived only to face an impossible future, one fraught with danger at every turn.
‘I know a girl,’ he said. ‘Her name’s Becky. She… she’s pregnant.’ He turned back to the old woman. Her eyes were bright blue; remarkably there was no corona edging the iris to speak of her age. She had the eyes of a teenager.
‘I know Becky,’ she said. She averted her gaze and Jane knew there was something wrong.
‘I’m the father,’ he said. ‘I… well, I think. I hope. A woman called Simmonds. She said she was being looked after. Protected.’
The old woman nodded. She sat next to Jane and put a callused hand on his knee. He stared at the liver spots on her skin and thought he’d never seen anything so beautiful in his life. Her nails were long and pretty. He thought he might have fallen in love with her, a little.
‘Becky’s gone,’ she said.
‘Gone.’ He was finding it hard to imbue anything he said with any emotion.
‘She was taken.’
‘She was being protected.’
‘There was an attack,’ she said.
‘She was taken.’
‘That’s right.’
‘Where?’
The old woman raised her head and pointed beyond the power station, to where the peninsula swept back to the west and Camber Sands.
Jane stared at the workers in their overalls, hair tied back with bandanas. ‘Has anybody tried looking for her?’
The woman looked at him as if he had just made a pass at her. ‘Nobody has seen her since she was taken. We just assumed…’
‘People survive,’ Jane said.
‘There’s nothing we can do.’
The old woman drifted away, so slowly that he thought he could still feel her fingers leaving him even though she now had her back to him and was moving off towards other loners, other groups of crying survivors at tether’s end. He stayed where he was for a while, thinking about women and why the Skinners took them. He assessed the damage to his body and realised that while he was in no fit state to play frisbee, he could maybe walk a few miles and see what was what. He imagined talking to Stanley about it, the complication of explaining Becky to him. The concept of a new mummy, a second mummy. Getting him to understand that they were having a baby. Trying to make him see that this was a good thing. He believed he would not have to talk him around that much. Stanley was a good boy. He liked people. Although he had only been at school a short time, he seemed to make friends easily, much more easily than Jane had when he’d been that age. School in the 1970s was difficult, especially at the rough northern comprehensive he’d had to survive.
He wandered down to the shore, standing a good distance back from the treacly tide. The ancient bones of fish lay all around him. Now he could see the raft, a darker shape, lenticular on the surface. How many people had died in the building of that thing? He doubted he would have the guts to go wading through that caustic soup, and he was mildly amazed by the thought, given that he had spent so much of his adult life submerged in water. He turned back and walked up the shingle to a group of men hunched over square billycans, Sporks clenched in grimy fists. They glared up at him guardedly, shoulders drawing in, protective of their food.
‘I’m going to find Becky,’ he said. ‘I wondered if you might come with me.’
‘Where is she?’ asked one of the men. He had shaved his head badly; it was blue, nicked and slashed all over with cuts that had become infected. The swelling had wormed down across one eye. Lines of gravy on either side of his mouth gave him the look of a ventriloquist’s dummy. The rain began to fall again. Another man, deep within his fur-lined hood, began swearing, covering his can with a gloved hand.
‘We’re eating, friend,’ he said.
‘There’s a woman been taken by those bastards,’ Jane said. ‘She’s pregnant.’
‘She’s gone,’ the man said, scooping thin brown liquid into his mouth. ‘You the father?’
‘Yes.’
He shrugged. ‘You ought to take care of your women better,’ he said.
Jane made to swipe at him but the bald man stood up and put a hand on his injured arm, squeezed, dug his nails in. Jane cried out.
‘Want me to set fire to your other arm? Give you barbecued wings?’
Jane turned away. Didn’t anybody care any more? He tried talking to the medics, but they shooed him from the forest of sucking wounds and slashed limbs. Everyone was staggering around, or so exhausted that they were lying in shingle, many of them partially submerged, as if the beach was steadily, stealthily, sucking them down. He saw two men pull free of some people wearing medical aprons and pound across the shingle, aiming for the sea. The medics went to pursue, but they gave up pretty soon. You ran only when you had to; it was better to preserve your energy. Everyone stood and watched the men as they crashed into the surf, one slightly ahead of the other. The man at the rear surfaced fast and back-pedalled out of the water, spitting and hawking, wiping his hand repeatedly across his mouth. The man in front of him did not come up.