Forty years earlier the Hawkskead would almost have flown itself to Orbitsville. Now more and more human interventions were required to keep its myriad systems in operation, and the extra man-hour payments were gnawing into Lessen's profits. He reacted by waging psychological warfare on Renard — one tactic being to call him with unnecessary frequency over minor decisions — and to Dallen's surprise seemed to be gaining the upper hand, evidence of the advantages of playing on one's home ground.
The ship had one largish canteen area, in place of Dallen's imagined dining room, but it was jealously monopolised by the thirty-strong crew. The group of ten supernumeraries recruited by Renard were more-or-less expected to use the mealomat dispensers and eat in their rooms. These were prefabricated cabins ranged in a partial circle on Deck 5, the one just above the vertiginous well of the cargo hold.
The living arrangements, which could have been described as unsociable, came as an unwelcome surprise to the others, but they suited Dallen quite well because Cona had not taken to space travel. She had become hysterical during the brief shuttle ride to the ship, necessitating heavy sedation, and had continued to react badly to the confinement of the cabin Dallen shared with her and Mikel. The only way he could keep on top of the situation was by dosing her with a tranquiliser prescribed by Roy Picciano, a drug which on Dallen's insistence included an effective libido depressant.
Mikel was rapidly becoming a normal-seeming infant, one who played a lot with his toy vehicles and showed an obvious pleasure on seeing his father, but Dallen found himself still unable to make a wholehearted response. No matter how often he cursed himself for the lack of emotional generosity there remained a hint of reserve, a stubborn feeling that fate was a salesman trying to fob him off with a substitute product.
The story of what had happened to his family was quick to circulate among the Hawksbead's crew, bringing sympathy he could well have done without, but a welcome result was that four women in the field engineering section volunteered a baby-minding service. Dallen accepted with gratitude, conscious of the fact that no matter how much genuine concern other men might show for one in his predicament it was always women who came through with the sun of practical help which made a difference in life's daily battles. As well as freeing him to do his quota of work on the grass trays, the arrangement gave Dallen some extra time with his fellow passengers.
The first shipboard meeting with Gerald Mathieu was a tableau of civilised awkwardness and noncommunication. It took place on the narrow strip of deck between the cabins and the abyss of the ship's hold. There were no other people in sight, and as the two men drew together Dallen was almost swamped by a manic urge to seize his chance, to end his baleful and unnatural involvement with the other man in a single burst of primitive violence. For one thunderous instant the idea seemed almost feasible — a sudden grapple and lift, a body plunging into the lethal steel-spiked depths, a story about a freak accident…
But what sort of accident?
The guard rail was chest-high and, try as he might, Dallen was unable to invent an incident in which one man could be propelled to his death without suspected homicidal intent on the part of the other. Abruptly the crucial moment passed, its karma-potential fading. There was a sense of ponderous wheels, having hesitated, juddering into a new set of positions — and now Dallen was faced with the problem of how to address a person he saw only as a walking corpse.
"Hello, Gerald," he said, smiling, glancing at the Spartan surroundings. "Like to buy a ticket for the mutiny?"
Mathieu met his gaze squarely. "That's yard-arm talk. Mister Christian."
Christum? Dallen thought, disconcerted. Fix got to start reading books, the way Cona wanted.
Before he could compose a reply the odd little nonincident was over and the tall figure of Mathieu was moving out of sight between two cabins, ice-smooth blond hair glowing dully in the ship's dismal illumination. He was wearing immaculate silvery grey casuals — his idea of clothes suitable for manual work — and looked as composed and urbane as ever, but Dallen thought he had detected a difference in the man. Had it been in the hard calmness of the eyes? Was that typical of one who was stoking up on felicitin, or had Mathieu's skirmish with death- — by all accounts a remarkable escape — wrought some profound change in his character?
It makes no difference, Dallen told himself, rejecting the alien idea which had tried Co enter his mind, the idea that Mathieu was in the process of becoming a new person, one who might not deserve the fate which was in store for him. Dallen had little patience with any kind of violent criminal, but the species he had least time for were those who murdered innocents and then, while their appeals against execution were filtering through, composed books or holoplays about the sanctity of human life. He denied Mathieu any right to plead "not guilty for reasons of resurrection". It was essential that the issues of live and death, crime and punishment, sin and retribution should retain their old clarity — enough complication had already been introduced into his thoughts by the Karal London experiment.
Mathieu and London should have remained in separate compartments of his life, but they had a disconcerting way of merging in his thoughts like images in an antique stereo viewer, both of which had to contribute to make a rounded picture. London taught that after death there came new life. Mathieu had already enacted his own little pastiche on that theme — the shock of his "death" and return to life was still reverberating in Dallen's system — and the philosophical implications continued to cloud his thinking about his family tragedy.
Given that there was no such thing as death in the former sense of the word, that it was merely the gateway to a new existence, could execution still be regarded as a penalty? What kind of punishment was it that simply advanced the next phase of an evildoer's life? And, going further, how serious a crime was murder if it meant that the victim had similarly been introduced to his own immortality?
"It makes no difference" Dallen repeated to himself, angered by the mental clamour following his deceptively bland encounter with Mathieu. He returned to his own cabin and spent some time examining the contents of the small travel bag he had privately labelled his execution kit.
It held a miscellany of items ranging from blades and wires to drug containers, gathered almost at random, any of which might become an unobtrusive murder weapon in suitable circumstance. No plan had yet crystallised, but some dark instinct kept drawing his attention to the most innocent-seeming object of the lot — a miniature spray can of paint he had taken from Madison City's transport workshops.
The first in-flight meeting with Silvia London was equally unsatisfactory from Dallen's viewpoint.
He had not seen her since her cathartic act of destroying the glass mosaic in her home, but he knew '| she was being accompanied on the journey by two ^ officers of the Anima Mundi Foundation. Both were ,: women and previously unknown to him. They had dealt with the considerable media interest given to Silvia before the start of the voyage, and now seemed to be coaching her for various kinds of public appearances in major cities. Their presence reminded Dallen that Karal London, in spite of the obviously cranky aspects of his operation, had been a determined and far-sighted man with a serious mission in life. It also made him wonder if he had allowed himself to be too much influenced by Renard's male chauvinist analysis of Silvia's relationship with the dead man.
Her reaction to the news of London's "discarnatism" had, in a way, pleased him with its message that she was far from being the simplistic sexual timebomb described by Rick Renard — but there was another part of him, repressed throughout his adult life, which savoured the thought of being the first to bed a voluptuous young woman after she had been deprived of sex for two years. And his emotional dichotomy was made worse by the fact that he was quite unable to read Silvia's signals, had no way of knowing if what had passed between them meant everything or nothing. One interpretation was that he was a fantastically lucky man who had only to reach out his hand and take one of life's choicest offerings; another was that he was an overgrown adolescent with delusions inspired by a surplus of imagination, conceit and hormones.