"Wait till you see Houston." Light was fading even as traffic thickened, with all the little road tributaries emptying their currents of cars onto I-45. We'd left Texas City behind, and were passing an undeveloped stretch. I put on my headlights.
Two things occurred to me. Michael had distracted me quite nicely from my grief at leaving my home and my friend… and he knew an awful lot about magic. Things he must have remembered.
I planned my next question carefully, hoping to stir more of his memories. "When I was young—and that was a very long time ago—"
"How long?" he asked, interested. "You mentioned something about three hundred years."
"I was born in Ireland in 1701."
He nodded, apparently finding nothing odd about that. "And you were cursed when you were…" He cast an appraising eye over me. "Not quite fifty?"
A laugh sputtered out. "Michael, never guess a woman's age so accurately. It isn't diplomatic. But no, I was twenty."
"You are a very attractive fifty," he assured me. "But you shouldn't be. Fifty, that is. Your body should have been fixed at twenty."
"We're getting off the subject."
"But if something is wrong, if you are aging when you shouldn't be—"
"I did it on purpose, all right?"
He considered that a moment. "You can change your physical appearance?"
"Not exactly. I can grow older, if I choose. It isn't easy." A gross understatement, that. I prefer to avoid thinking about how I'd acquired the crow's feet by my eyes. There's only one way to age a body like mine. Starvation.
"Why did you want to look older?"
"You ask more questions than a two-year-old!"
"I want to know about you, Molly."
Heaven help me, but he softened me in a way I couldn't seem to fight. I sighed. "For one thing, I could stay in one place longer if I looked older. People notice if you stay twenty. They don't notice so much if you always look middle-aged."
"And the other thing?"
I grimaced. He was both perceptive and persistent—useful traits, even appealing at times. But annoying at the moment. "I wanted… friends. Women friends. I missed that rather badly." I glanced at him, wondering if he could understand. "When I looked twenty and oozed sex, men wanted me and women disliked me. Now… well, I use a touch more power to get what I need from men, but not much. Half of seduction is simply wanting the person you're with. So most women don't see me as a threat, especially the younger ones. They don't think of a woman of my apparent age as sexual."
He chuckled. "The young always think the world was born when they were."
"Oh, listen to the graybeard. You're what—twenty-six? Twenty-seven?" I held my breath.
"Hardly," he said dryly. "You ought to know better than…" His voice drifted into silence. I stole a glance at him. He was staring straight ahead, stricken. "It was there," he whispered. "For a moment it was all there, but it melted away."
Impulsively I reached for his hand and squeezed it. His fingers closed around mine tightly. "But that's good," I said gently. "That means your memories aren't gone. They're just hiding for some reason."
He drew a ragged breath. "Yes. Yes, of course. And I have been remembering some things. Nothing about myself," he said with a lack of emotion that, by its very dearth, revealed much. "But facts, concepts, theories—they float up when I'm not watching."
"Then you'll have to spend most of your time not watching, won't you?" I gave his hand another squeeze and, reluctantly, let go. I needed both hands to drive.
"That makes sense, but it's easier to decide than to do."
"Like being told not to think of the number ten," I agreed. "I've got a couple of ideas, if you want to hear them." I paused long enough for him to object. He didn't. "First, I wondered if I was wrong about you being a sorcerer. You know so much—"
"I am not a sorcerer."
My eyebrows climbed. "You're very sure about that."
"I can't be a sorcerer. It… isn't allowed. And I don't know why I just said that, so don't ask. But it feels true."
Interesting. "Well, what about a scholar?"
I felt more than saw his head turn towards me. "A scholar?"
"You said you were a good researcher, and I think you must be. You've picked up an amazing amount in such a short time. You read very, very fast. You know languages and theories of magic and odd facts, and just have that manner—as if you've always loved facts for their own sake, not for what you can do with them."
"Truth. Not just facts—truth."
I smiled.
"A scholar…" His voice was musing, but with a lift to it. He liked the idea. And that was all he said, but I was content to let him follow his thoughts. I had a few of my own demanding attention.
Neither of us spoke again until the sun was well down. We'd reached Houston's greedy, spreading fingers—not the city proper, but Friendswood, one of the many small towns that lay in its path. People sometimes compare big cities to anthills, but I think they're more like mold.
Anthills will only grow so large, but mold keeps right on spreading.
I'd slowed to accommodate the heavy traffic when, out of the blue, he asked, "How did Erin figure it out?"
"What?"
"You said you didn't tell Erin what you are, that she figured it out."
"Good grief. You have quite a memory." I winced. "I mean—"
"I know what you meant. And yes, I think I normally have an excellent memory."
"Do you remember everything?"
"No, but what I do recall is accurate." He paused, as if considering something new. "It seems that either emotion or intent can fix things in my memory."
"Hmm. Works that way for most of us. I wonder if emotion or intent could also make you forget."
He shifted in his seat, looked out the window, then back at me. "What an uncomfortable thought. Why would I do such a thing to myself?"
I didn't know, either. "So, what was the first thing I said to you?"
"You hoped that I spoke English. Molly," he said, and amusement ran through his voice, a silvery ripple in a dark current. "You might distract me, but I'll remember what I asked, and ask again. In that way I am rather like that two-year-old you mentioned. They persist, too. Do you not want to tell me how Erin figured out about you?"
"Not really." The habit of secrecy was strong… as was a sneaky little wish that he would think well of me. Foolishness. Both the wish, and the desire to base it on misdirection. I was what I was.
So why not tell him? "All right," I said, signaling that I meant to take the next exit. I wasn't hungry—well, not for food. But he must be. It was nearly eight. "I… used to know Erin's great-grandmother. So when I moved back to Galveston—"
"You'd lived there before?"
"I was there for the Great Storm. Anyway, I knew about Erin and I was curious, so I sort of kept an eye on her. She liked to walk on the beach at night."
"So do you."
"Yes, but I'm hard to hurt."
"She came into danger?"
"There were two of them that night," I said, remembering. "Two pond-scum bastards who followed her, just as I was. One had a knife. He grabbed her, held the blade to her throat. The other ripped open her shirt."
His breath sucked in. "Did you kill them?"
"You're more bloodthirsty than I realized."
"Perhaps you preferred to let the law kill them."
He was certainly clear on how rapists should be treated. I couldn't say I disagreed. "They had heart attacks. One lived, one didn't."
"How? What did you do?"
"Just a minute," I said, easing the big Winnebago onto the access road. "I want to pull in at that gas station and top off the tank. The sign says they have diesel."
"Are you avoiding my question again?"
"It's easier to show than to tell, that's all."
"I'd rather not have a heart attack."
"You keep asking questions, you can't complain if some of the answers aren't comfortable."