The young man (he couldn’t have been more than eighteen or nineteen) strode to the center of the room. I was half-hidden behind Lucy, pressed back into the cushions, and until then I don’t think he had been able to see me unimpeded. He did not look my way at first—he plainly wanted to strut, to bask in his dominance; but when his eyes fell on me, his prideful expression dissolved. He put his hands together, fingers and palms touching as if in prayer, and inclined his head and jabbered in Khmer.
Bewildered, Lucy said, “He’s apologizing to you. He’s begging you not to tell his father and asking your forgiveness.”
I gawked at her.
“Say something,” she said sotto voce. “Act in control.”
It had been years since I smoked, but I needed a cigarette to marshal my wits. I reached for the pack on the table and lit one. “How can I forgive him when this animal is holding a gun on us? Ask him that.”
Lucy spoke to the young man, and he snapped at the bodyguard, who lowered the gun and withdrew. The young man then reassumed his prayerful posture.
“Tell him he can go,” I said. “If he leaves immediately, I won’t tell his father.”
She relayed the message, and the young man backed toward the door, bowing all the while.
“Wait!” I said, and Lucy echoed me in Khmer.
The young man stopped, holding his pose. I let him stew in his own juices, and his hands began to tremble—his fright increased my spirits more than was natural.
“Tell him to take care of our bill before he goes,” I said. “And have them turn the music down.”
“Jesus fuck!” Mike said once he had gone. “I thought we were dead! What the fuck just happened?”
Sean struggled up into a sitting position. His taxi girl tried to minister to him, but he brushed her away.
“Shit!” said Mike, and then repeated the word.
The other taxi girl kneeled beside her friend and mopped blood from her mouth and chin.
Lucy, regaining her poise and said to me, “He must have mistaken you for someone else.”
“Who the fuck are you, guy?” Mike asked. “Some kind of fucking …?” His imagination failed him and he said again, “Shit!”
“Tom’s a hero,” said Riel, smiling goofily.
“Apparently so.” Lucy picked up her drink and saluted me with an ironic toast. “A hero to villains, at any rate. Could there be something you haven’t told us?”
With a groan, Sean heaved up from the floor and flopped into the chair—he was one unhappy nose guard. “That guy like to bust my fucking skull.”
“Have a drink,” said Mike.
The volume of the music was cut in half. I asked Riel to close the door, and, reaching out languidly, she pushed it shut, putting an end to Madonna. I butted my cigarette, yet it had tasted good, and I lit another. The smoke was hitting me like opium fumes, making my head swim. “Maybe we should go.”
“Oh, do you think so?” asked Lucy nastily. “We might as well stay now. What more could happen?”
“I’d like to have my drink,” said Riel. “Where’s …you know, your friend?”
“Dan,” said Mike. “Yeah, where the fuck is he?” The taxi girls went to hover beside their men. Lucy’s eyes pried at me, trying to see whatever it was she had overlooked in me. She knew something wasn’t kosher. I was on my third cigarette when Dan reentered, carrying a tray of drinks.
“You missed out, man,” said Mike. “Tom saved our fucking ass.”
He delivered an exaggerated play by play of the assault and my “heroics,” and Sean, pressing an iced drink to his head, provided color commentary. “That was one cold dude, man” and “I didn’t know what the fuck he was talking about” were exemplary of his contribution. In response to this last, I asked Lucy what had been the young Khmer’s problem.
“He accused Nary …” She indicated Sean’s girl. “Of giving the third girl—the one who left—drugs.”
“Why? Because she freaked out about the room?”
Lucy spoke to the girls and then said, “The girl has a fondness for Ecstasy. Dith, the young guy, had forbidden her to use any more. They have a relationship, though I can’t quite gather what it is, and he believed that these two slipped her some in a drink. They claim she just started behaving oddly. She said a mirror vanished off the wall.”
“Crazy bitch,” said Dan.
“Let’s go.” I stood, followed in short order by Lucy. “You coming, Riel?”
She held up a forefinger, addressed herself to her drink, and chugged it in two swallows.
Dan put on a woebegone look. “Hey, come on! You guys don’t have to go.”
But Riel was already at the door. She paused to flutter a ditsy wave. “ ’Bye, Danny,” she said.
The Undine was moored at the port facility on the Tonle Sap, a short distance from where it joined the Mekong and close by a huge multistory barge, its paint weathered to the grayish white of old bone. In years past this had housed a dance hall, a brothel by any other name, and now the top floor was home to the offices of the Cambodian Sex Workers Union and other such organizations. Womyn’s Agenda For Change, the sign above one door spelled out in English. The following morning, sitting in the stern of the Undine, I watched streams of taxi girls trundling along the balconies, passing in and out of rooms where their sisters had once slaved, busy being empowered, fighting the good fight against the corporate giants that sought to use them as guinea pigs to test experimental AIDS vaccines. I supposed their sisterhood boosted morale and saved lives, and I knew it was dangerous work. Lucy compared them to the Wobblies back in the 1920s and said many girls had been murdered for their efforts. Yet to my eyes they might as well have been streams of ants plucking a few last shreds of tissue off a carcass—they had no conception of the forces mounted against them, no clue how absurd and redundant a name was Womyn’s Agenda For Change.
Since my arrival in Phnom Penh, the changes (flickerings in the sky, subtle alterations in urban geography, etc.) had grown more frequent or, due to an increased sensitivity on my part, more observable. The episode with the taxi girl and the vanishing mirror was the first evidence I’d had that anyone else noticed them, though the evidence was impugned by the possible use of drugs. If the changes were observable by others, if this were other than a localized effect, and if it occurred in a place less disorderly than Phnom Penh, it would be the lead story on the news. I expected that when I reached Dong Thap the changes might be even more drastic. The prospect unnerved me, yet it held a potent allure. Like the narrator of The Tea Forest, I was being drawn to complete the journey and I wanted to complete it. The previous night’s incident had convinced me that I was undergoing a transformation like the one documented by Cradle Two in the novel. I had taken undue pleasure in the exercise of control over the young Khmer in the Heart of Darkness, and I wondered if the person for whom he had mistaken me could have been the alpha-Cradle, that secretive, powerful figure, the Platonic ideal of Cradles everywhere. The notion that I was evolving into such a ruthless and decisive figure was exhilarating. I had never possessed either quality in great measure, and the proportions of the man, the fear he inspired, were impressive. Yet I was being pulled in another direction as well, and that was why I had returned to the Undine and sat in the stern, the satellite phone in my lap, ignoring the faint, sweetish reek of sewage, gazing at the barge and at eddies in the brown water.