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title “Phallic Imperialism” in Ms., December 1976. ) Some

men in suits sat dourly through it, taking notes. That,

needless to say, was the end of Our Blood. There was one

other telling event: a highly placed department head threw

the manuscript of Our Blood at my editor across a room. I

did not recognize male tenderness, he said. I don’t know

whether he made the observation before or after he threw

the manuscript.

Our Blood was published in cloth in 1976. The only

review of it in a major periodical was in Ms. many months

after the book was out of bookstores. It was a rave.

Otherwise, the book was ignored: but purposefully, maliciously. Gloria Steinem, Robin Morgan, and Karen DeCrow tried to review the book to no avail. I contacted

nearly a hundred feminist writers, activists, editors. A large

majority made countless efforts to have the book reviewed.

Some managed to publish reviews in feminist publications,

but even those who frequently published elsewhere were

unable to place reviews. No one was able to break the larger

silence.

Our Blood was sent to virtually every paperback publisher in the United States, sometimes more than once, over a period of years. None would publish it. Therefore, it is

with great joy, and a shaky sense of victory, that I welcome

its publication in this edition. I have a special love for this

book. Most feminists I know who have read Our Blood

have taken me aside at one time or another to tell me that

they have a special affection and respect for it. There is, I

believe, something quite beautiful and unique about it.

Perhaps that is because it was written for a human voice.

Perhaps it is because I had to fight so hard to say what is in

it. Perhaps it is because Our Blood has touched so many

women’s lives directly: it has been said over and over again

to real women and the experience of saying the words has

informed the writing of them. Woman Hating was written

by a younger writer, one more reckless and more hopeful

both. This book is more disciplined, more somber, more

rigorous, and in some ways more impassioned. I am happy

that it will now reach a larger audience, and sorry that it

took so long.

Andrea Dworkin

New York City

March 1981

1

Fem inism , A rt, and My M other S ylvia

I am very happy to be here today. It is no small thing for me

to be here. There are many other places I could be. This is not

what my mother had planned for me.

I want to tell you something about my mother. Her name is

Sylvia. Her father’s name is Spiegel. Her husband’s name is

Dworkin. She is fifty-nine years old, my mother, and just a few

months ago she had a serious heart attack. She is recovered

now and back on her job. She is a secretary in a high school.

She has been a heart patient most of her life, and all of mine.

When she was a child she had rheumatic fever. She says that

her real trouble began when she was pregnant with my brother

Mark and got pneumonia. After that, her life was a misery of

illness. After years of debilitating illness—heart failures, toxic

reactions to the drugs that kept her alive—she underwent

Delivered at Smith College, Northampton, Massachusetts, April 16, 1974.

heart surgery, then she suffered a brain clot, a stroke, that

robbed her of speech for a long time. She recovered from the

heart surgery. She recovered from her stroke, although she

still speaks more slowly than she thinks. Then, about eight

years ago she had a heart attack. She recovered. Then, a few

months ago she had a heart attack. She recovered.

My mother was bom in Jersey City, New Jersey, the second

oldest of seven children, two boys, five girls. Her parents,

Sadie and Edward, who were cousins, came from someplace

in Hungary. Her father died before I was bom. Her mother is

now eighty. There is no way of knowing of course if my mother’s heart would have been injured so badly had she been bom into a wealthy family. I suspect not, but I do not know. There

is also of course no way of knowing if she would have received

different medical treatment had she not been a girl. But regardless, it all happened the way it happened, and so she was very ill most of her life. Since she was a girl, no one encouraged her to read books (though she tells me that she used to love to read and does not remember when or why she stopped

reading); no one encouraged her to go to college or asked her

to consider the problems of the world in which she lived. Because her family was poor, she had to work as soon as she finished high school. She worked as a secretary full-time, and

on Saturdays and some evenings she did part-time work as a

“salesgirl” in a department store. Then she married my father.

My father was a school teacher and he also worked nights

in the post office because he had medical bills to pay. He had

to keep my mother alive, and he had two children to support

as well. I say along with Joseph Chaikin in The Presence of

the Actor: “The medical-economic reality in this country is

emblematic of the System which literally chooses who is to

survive. I renounce my government for its inequitable economic system. ”*1 Others, I must point out to you, had and have less than we did. Others who were not my mother but

* Notes start on p. 113.

who were in her situation did and do die. I too renounce this

government because the poor die, and they are not only the

victims of heart disease, or kidney disease, or cancer— they

are the victims of a system which says a visit to the doctor is

$25 and an operation is $5, 000.

When I was twelve, my mother emerged from her heart

surgery and the stroke that had robbed her of speech. There

she was, a mother, standing up and giving orders. We had a

very hard time with each other. I didn’t know who she was, or

what she wanted from me. She didn’t know who I was, but she

had definite ideas about who I should be. She had, I thought, a

silly, almost stupid attitude toward the world. By the time I

was twelve I knew that I wanted to be a writer or a lawyer. I

had been raised really without a mother, and so certain ideas

hadn’t reached me. I didn’t want to be a wife, and I didn’t

want to be a mother.

My father had really raised me although I didn’t see a lot of