‘Luc! Luc, wake up. Please, Luc!’ I shake him, but he doesn’t respond and there’s no way I can shift him out of the way quickly enough. I close the roof and do the only thing I can in the circumstances – I improvise.
Although I’m still in the passenger seat, I release the handbrake and stretch my right leg over Luc’s, onto the accelerator. I dip the clutch with my left leg and reach across Luc to grab the steering wheel. His face is resting on my back as I lean in front of him.
The keycard clicks and I feel the engine hum. I stare at the road ahead illuminated by the yellow headlights still on full beam. The log now looks like a jumble of broken wood, but there are also several stunned bodies sprawled in amongst it. Hearing the engine, some of the raiders run into the road to try to lift the injured out of the way.
I slide the gears into first, overdoing the accelerator so the engine roars as the AV leaps forward. I’m aware of several sickening judders beneath the wheels and I don’t know if I’m driving over bits of machine-gunned log and nails or if it’s the raiders’ bodies I’m mangling. I crunch into second gear and then third.
Driving awkwardly, I lean across the still-unconscious Luc, for about ten or fifteen minutes, until I can no longer see the glow of lights in the hillsides. My heart is racing and my body is trembling in fear and shock and from the unnatural position my body is forced into. When I can stand it no more, I pull over to the side of the road and pull on the handbrake. I leave the engine running and make sure the plates are still activated. I know I have to move Luc across to the passenger side, I can’t drive like this and I’m also worried about the awkward position Luc’s sitting in.
‘Luc!’ I whisper loudly, still really scared in case someone is around. ‘Luc! Can you hear me? Are you okay?’
Nothing. Please God let him be okay.
The small crescent moon gives off a weak glow as a cloud moves to reveal it. Luc’s head shows a huge egg-shaped lump and a livid bruise where he was hit with the revolver. Blood is congealing down the side of his face, but miraculously the wound seems to have stopped bleeding. I’m so worried about him. It’s obvious he’s in a bad way and needs proper help. If I was braver I’d turn back right now, but the thought of another encounter with the raiders is too much for me. I wish I’d been thinking straight back there – I would have done a three point turn and headed straight back home to the Perimeter. But I was too scared to think about which direction to drive in; I had just wanted to get out of there.
I stretch, rolling my neck up and down and from side to side and then I lean across and look at Luc. His breaths come slow and even. I can scent the warmth from his skin. Without thinking I lean down an inch and kiss his cheek. It’s soft on my lips.
I want to lie him across the back seat, but he might roll off with all the jolting around and, besides, it’ll be too difficult for me to get him there. My only other option is to put him in the front passenger seat and hope the upright position won’t be too harmful.
I climb into the back and hook my arms underneath his armpits. He’s so heavy and I’m worried I might be making thing worse for his poor unconscious body. But even more worrying would be the imminent appearance of other raiding parties or worse and anyway, it’s impractical and dangerous to carry on driving the way I have been. A dog or a wolf howls in the distance and I try not to think about the horrors of the night, as I concentrate on trying to slide and heave Luc into the passenger seat.
Sweating and breathless, I finally manage to get him where I want him to be. Then I swing his legs across one at a time, climb into the driver’s seat and fasten both our seatbelts.
I rest my head on the steering wheel and try to get my breathing back under control. A few tears drip onto my cheeks and when I look across at Luc I feel immediately guilty. This is all my fault, this wild goose chase which originally seemed so glamorous and heroic. And now I might have gotten Luc seriously and permanently injured. Killed even. Please let him be okay. We have to get out of here, so I drive in a semi-stupor, relieved to be away from the beautiful floodplain.
The road soon narrows and becomes hillier. Summer-coated trees line the road, bowing over to greet each other in the middle. I drive through this long, rustling tunnel, eerie and muffled in the dark, headlights shining strangely in the green murk. The way twists and turns, it rises and then drops away sharply.
I grip the wheel, periodically stretching my fingers out where they ache from being locked into such a tense position. I drive in a terror of so many things: Luc’s unconscious state, the appearance of more raiders, or driving off the edge of the road – it seems so precarious in the unpredictable darkness. But I know so far we’ve been lucky to escape with our lives.
Every time I look at Luc, my heart lurches. It seems as though he’s sleeping peacefully, his breaths are regular and his face is so serene. But in the dim light, I can clearly see the huge lump and vicious cut on the side of his head. Panic tries to jumble my thoughts, so I take some breaths to calm down. I need to put all negative thoughts out of my head, to tell myself he’s just asleep and will wake up soon. If I let myself think anything else, I’ll throw-up, pass-out or have a full blown panic attack.
My thoughts shift to Ma and Pa. They’re more than likely going insane with worry. We should arrive at Grandma and Grandpa’s within a week or two, hopefully having completed what we’ve set out to do. I’ll be in for the biggest telling-off of my life, but it’ll be worth it if we get Chambers.
If I don’t at least try, I know I’ll regret it for the rest of my life. What’s the alternative? To stay at home impotently wishing for Skye to come back? To hope for justice? No, I would go mad. It has to be this way.
Suddenly, a yellow eye and a white ribbed wing fill my vision for a split second, as a huge brown owl nearly smacks into the windscreen. I slam my foot on the brake and the AV skids on the gravelly road with a sound like white noise.
Luc and I pitch forward against our seatbelts, to be yanked backwards into our seats again. Luckily, the force isn’t great enough to deploy the airbags. Luc’s head lolls to one side. The owl hoots and swoops off into the night, unharmed.
I pull on the handbrake with shaking hands and my breath comes in noisy and uneven gasps. What else could possibly happen tonight? The AV is skewed across the road. I looked up and notice the beam from the headlights is shining directly onto a narrow and overgrown dirt track leading off the main road.
I’m too shaken up to drive out here again tonight, so I cross my fingers and re-start the engine. I steer the AV straight onto the track and park up in the tangled undergrowth.
With trembling fingers, I switch off the engine, kill the lights, open the door and climb out. It takes what little courage I have to creep back onto the main road. I shiver and my teeth chatter, though the night air is warm. My nerves are shot to bits but I have to force myself into the middle of the deserted road to make sure no passer-by will be able to see our vehicle. A light wind plucks at my hair and the leaves rustle and sigh. I can’t wait to get back to the security of the AV.
Once satisfied we’re truly hidden from view, I come back to check on Luc. He’s still asleep. I would rather he was lying flat, but I don’t dare attempt to lift him again, so I recline his seat as far as it will go and then crawl into the back seat to fall into a restless sleep.
The following morning, I awake to the strange and unfamiliar sound of a cow mooing. I stretch, peer up out of the rear window and see a herd of black and white cattle leaning their thick necks over a five-barred gate about two hundred yards away. Between me and the wooden gate, towers an even higher wire fence topped with rolls of barbed wire. I’m lucky I didn’t stumble into it last night.