Chapter Fifty-Two
Camp Raven, The Green Zone, Baghdad
The sun went down and the trailer had grown dark except for the blue glow of a digital clock. Camille sat alone with her head on the desk. Her face was sticky from tears and snot. Her head throbbed and her nasal tissues were so swollen, she had to breathe through her mouth, and that only dried out the membranes more. She heard someone come into the trailer, but she didn’t look up. A hand stroked her back.
“I told you to go,” Camille said, her voice hoarse.
“You’ve been alone here for hours,” Pete said as she turned on a lamp.
The bright light burned her eyes and Camille shielded them with her hands. “Get that off.”
“You can’t stay like this in the dark.” Pete switched the lamp back off.
“Just go.”
“Can I get you something? Water? Something to eat?” Pete moved beside her and ran her fingers through Camille’s hair.
“Get me a bottle of vodka.”
“That’s the last thing you need right now.”
“Get it.”
“Whatever you want,” Pete said, her voice now stiff and cold. “You’re the boss.”
Camille didn’t know or care how much time had passed when Pete returned. She hadn’t moved, though it felt like even more of her world had fallen away. Her tears had dried into a salty crust.
Pete placed something on the desk. “Honey, you shouldn’t drink on an empty stomach. Not when you’re like this. I got you some kind of a lamb stew and rice. Best I could do at this hour.”
“You get the vodka?”
“I shouldn’t have.”
Camille heard a glass bottle clink against the desk, but couldn’t identify the sound of what else Pete set down. She heard the click of a lighter and immediately shut her eyes.
“You can’t drink in the dark. I brought some candles.” Candles presumably lit, Pete kneaded Camille’s shoulders. “You want to talk?”
“Nothing to say.”
“Can I get you anything else? Water maybe?”
“No water, two shot glasses.”
Pete made some noise in the kitchenette, then put three glasses on the desk. “You’re getting water anyway.”
Camille heard Pete pour the vodka, then say, “What are we drinking to?”
“We’re not. Go.”
A few minutes after Pete left, Camille raised her head. Her neck was so stiff, she could barely move it. Everything ached, but she was too numb to care. She opened the desk drawer and reached inside. She pulled out another USP Tactical, a replacement courtesy of the Black Management armorer. She checked the magazine, then positioned it on the desk to her right.
The vodka was some Polish brand she didn’t recognize. She screwed off the top and filled the two shot glasses. Using a candle, she lit the vodka in one of the glasses. The blue flame flickered.
“This is for you, Hunter-for us,” she said out loud, holding up the second glass in a toast. As far as she was concerned, the Hunter Stone she had loved really was killed in action in Iraq two years ago. She downed the vodka in a single shot. “I loved you so much. We paid the ultimate price.” Her voice cracked. Reaching for the vodka to pour herself another shot, she glanced at the gun and decided to drink from the bottle instead. She pressed it against her lips. The alcohol burned her raw throat.
She watched the blue flames dance and thought about what had been. She remembered tracking one another in the Mark Twain National Forest, armed with paintball guns, but she could no longer feel the delight as they’d blasted away at one another. She recalled the times their martial arts sessions had gotten out of hand, turning into serious violence, then dissolving into tender lovemaking, but the passion wasn’t there anymore. She was but a voyeur. Pain had stripped away joy and the memories were now flavorless. Everything was a blue blur as tears welled in her eyes and dripped onto the manila file folder. She looked down at it, then grabbed for the vodka. The alcohol rush made her feel warm and calm.
Half of the shot had burned off. It was almost over. She reached over to the pistol and flicked the safety off, but kept her thumb on it, hesitating.
She was happiest when she was with him, but it wasn’t like she couldn’t be happy without him. Before he had resurfaced in May, she was moving on with her life, missing him, but moving on. She loved Hunter and it hurt like hell that he didn’t feel the same way, but she was a warrior.
A Warrior.
Warriors don’t quit.
She shoved the gun aside.
She sat there staring into the air for several minutes, then she opened the top folder and looked at a picture of Hunter. He really was Greek-god gorgeous. She turned the page and looked at the next one. Why wasn’t she the woman lying in his arms after that picnic?
Camille took a deep breath. The flame was nearly gone. She stared at the photo, wedging herself into Hunter’s arms in place of that bitch. The other woman kept butting in and she was left staring at a snapshot. Then she noticed the date in the print’s lower right-hand corner and squinted to be sure-May 11th of this year.
“Oh my god,” she whispered to herself. “May 11th-Granny’s funeral-he was with me.” Tears streamed down her face and her body shook as she wept. He loved her. He really did.
She leaned over and blew out the flame before it could extinguish itself.
Semper Fi, Hunter. Semper Fi.
Chapter Fifty-Three
Global Risk Strategies is a UK company which has developed an entrepreneurial edge to win lucrative military contracts from the US in Iraq. Where British or US ex-special forces soldiers can command more than £300 a day-sometimes a lot more-for their services, Global need only pay around £35 a day to its 1,300 force of otherwise unemployed Fijians and Gurkhas.
– The Guardian [Manchester], May 17, 2004
Camp Raven, The Green Zone, Baghdad
Camille tripped down the stairs of her trailer, shouting for Pete. She stumbled, but caught herself before she hit the ground. She heard the loud bam-boom of a rocket fire in the distance. A few moments later, Pete came running from her trailer.
“He loves me, Pete. He loves me.”
“Camille, sweet pea, you’re drunk.”
She put her arm around Camille and led her to a bench someone had constructed from shipping crates. The generators were so loud, she could barely hear the palm fronds rustling in the warm breeze. A crescent moon hung low in the sky.
“It’s a forgery,” Camille said, slurring her words and breathing through her mouth.
“Even the vet checked out. You’ve had too much to drink. You need to down some water and sleep for a while.”
“No.” Camille shook her head. “The dates are wrong. The pictures. They’re wrong. May eleventh.”
“Why don’t you let me help you take a shower and put you to bed?” Pete brushed the hair from Camille’s face. It was soaked from tears. “You poor thing. You’ve cried a lake.”
“He couldn’t have been with her. On May eleventh Granny Lusk was buried. No one knew he was there. No one but me.” Camille stifled a yawn.
“I know how badly you want to believe him, but you’re not making sense. You need to sleep. If it’ll make you feel better, I’ll take it and get some of our resident spooks to look over it and check it all out.”
“No. It’s a fake. Oh god, they’ve got him. We’ve got to get him away from Rubicon.”
“We don’t know where he is or even if he’s alive.”
“He’s alive. I know he is. They want him to talk. They can’t break him, but they won’t know that yet. That gives us time.” Camille stood, but Pete stayed on the bench. A mortar whistled in the distance. “What time is it?”