The broad and pleasant face of her who looked like a housekeeper had a mortified expression as if she had been overridden; and, instantly, Dinny knew what was coming.
“Members of the jury, are you agreed on your verdict?”
The foreman rose.
“We are.”
“Do you find the respondent guilty of adultery with the co-respondent?”
“Yes.”
“Do you find the co-respondent guilty of adultery with the respondent?”
‘Isn’t that the same?’ thought Dinny.
“Yes.”
“And what damages do you say the co-respondent should be ordered to pay?”
“We think that he should pay the costs of all the parties to the action.”
Through Dinny passed the thought: ‘The more one loves the more one pays.’ Barely listening to the Judge’s words, she whispered to her father, and slipped away.
“Young Croom was leaning against the stone that framed the window, and she thought she had never seen so desolate a figure.
“Well, Dinny?”
“Lost. No damages, just all the costs. Come out, I want to talk to you.”
They went in silence.
“Let’s go and sit on the Embankment.”
Young Croom laughed. “The Embankment! Marvellous!”
No other word passed between them till they were seated under a plane tree whose leaves were not yet fully unfurled in that cold spring.
“Rotten!” said Dinny.
“I’ve been a complete fool all through, and there’s an end of it.”
“Have you had anything to eat these last two days?”
“I suppose so. I’ve drunk quite a lot, anyway.”
“What are you going to do now, dear boy?”
“See Jack Muskham, and try and get another job somewhere out of England.”
Dinny felt as if she had grasped a stick by the wrong end. She could only be helpful if she knew Clare’s feelings.
“No one takes advice,” she said, “but couldn’t you manage to do nothing at all for a month or so?”
“I don’t know, Dinny.”
“Have those mares come?”
“Not yet.”
“Surely you won’t give that job up before it’s even begun?”
“It seems to me I’ve only got one job at the moment—to keep going somehow, somewhere.”
“Don’t I know that feeling? But don’t do anything desperate! Promise! Good-bye, my dear, I must hurry back.”
She stood up and pressed his hand hard.
When she reached Dornford’s chambers, her father and Clare were already there, and ‘very young’ Roger with them.
Clare’s face looked as though the whole thing had happened to someone else.
The General was saying:
“What will the total costs come to, Mr. Forsyte?”
“Not far short of a thousand, I should say.”
“A thousand pounds for speaking the truth! We can’t possibly let young Croom pay more than his own share. He hasn’t a bob.”
‘Very young’ Roger took snuff.
“Well,” said the General, “I must go and put my wife out of her misery. We’re going back to Condaford this afternoon, Dinny. Coming?”
Dinny nodded.
“Good! Many thanks, Mr. Forsyte. Early in November, then—the decree? Good-bye!”
When he had gone Dinny said in a low voice:
“Now that it’s over, what do you really think?”
“As I did at first: If you’d been your sister we should have won.”
“I want,” said Dinny coldly, “to know whether you believe them or not?”
“On the whole—yes.”
“Is it impossible for a lawyer to go further than that?”
‘Very young’ Roger smiled.
“No one tells the truth without mental reservations of some kind.”
‘Perfectly true,’ thought Dinny. “Could we have a taxi?”
In the cab Clare said: “Do something for me, Dinny. Bring me my things to the Mews.”
“Of course.”
“I don’t feel like Condaford. Did you see Tony?”
“Yes.”
“How is he?”
“Rotten.”
“Rotten!” repeated Clare, bitterly. “How could I help what they sprung on me? I lied for him, anyway.”
Dinny, looking straight before her, said:
“When you can, tell me exactly what your feeling towards him is.”
“When I know myself, I will.”
“You’ll want something to eat, darling.”
“Yes, I’m hungry. I’ll stop here in Oxford Street. I shall be cleaning up when you come with my things. I feel as if I could sleep the clock round, and probably I shan’t sleep a wink. When you’re divorced, Dinny, don’t defend—you keep on thinking of better answers.”
Dinny squeezed her arm, and took the taxi on to South Square.
CHAPTER 34
More deadly than the atmosphere during a fight is that when it is over. You ‘keep on thinking of better answers,’ and you feel that life is not worth living. The primary law of existence having been followed to its logical and—win or lose—unsatisfying conclusion, the sand is out of your dolly, you loll and droop. Such were the sensations of Dinny, who had but understudied. Unable to feel that she could be of any real help, she fell back on pigs, and had been for a good week in this posture when she received a letter headed:
“Kingson Cuthcott & Forsyte,
“Old Jewry.
“May 17th, 1932.
“MY DEAR MISS CHARWELL,—
“I write to tell you that we have succeeded in coming to an arrangement by which the costs of the action will be met without making any call upon either Mr. Croom or your sister. I shall be grateful if you could take an opportunity of relieving their minds and also your father’s mind in the matter.
“Believe me, my dear Miss Charwell,
“Very faithfully yours,
“ROGER FORSYTE.”
Reaching her on a really warm morning, to sound of mowing machine and to scent of grass, it would have ‘intrigued’ her if she had not detested the word. She turned from the window and said:
“The lawyers say we need none of us worry any more about those costs, dad; they’ve come to an arrangement.”
“How?”
“They don’t say, but they want your mind relieved.”
“I don’t understand lawyers,” muttered the General, “but if they say it’s all right, I’m very glad. I’ve been worrying.”
“Yes, dear. Coffee?”
But she resumed her meditations on that cryptic letter. Did something in Jerry Corven’s conduct force him to agree to this ‘arrangement’? Was there not someone called ‘The King’s Proctor’ who could stop decrees being granted? Or—what?
Abandoning her first idea of driving over to Tony Croom because of the questions he might ask, she wrote to him and to Clare instead. The more, however, she pondered over the wording of the solicitor’s letter, the more convinced she became that she must see ‘very young’ Roger. There was that at the back of her mind which refused quietus. She, therefore, arranged to see him at a teashop near the British Museum on his way homeward from the City, and went there direct from her train. The place was an ‘artifact,’ designed, so far as a Regency edifice could be, to reproduce such a ‘coffee house’ as Boswell and Johnson might have frequented. Its floor was not sanded, but looked as if it should be. There were no long clay pipes, but there were long cardboard cigarette-holders. The furniture was wooden, the light dim. No record having been discovered of what the ‘staff’ should look like, they looked sea-green. Prints of old coaching inns were hung on walls panelled by the Tottenham Court Road. Quite a few patrons were drinking tea and smoking cigarettes. None of them used the long cardboard holders. ‘Very young’ Roger, limping slightly, and with his customary air of not being quite what he ought to be, uncovered his sandyish head and smiled above his chin.
“China or Indian?” said Dinny.
“Whatever you’re having.”
“Then two coffees, please, and muffins.”