When I get to the top of the stairs I stop and replay it all in my mind.
His hand on my shoulder.
The smack across the back of my head that turned into a push.
The fall.
The blood.
The hours it took for Jon to decide that I really did need to go to the hospital.
The look on the doctor’s face when he told me it was too late.
The screaming as they strapped me to a gurney and rolled me down the hallway so they could medically induce me into giving birth to a dead baby.
And then waking up in a hospital bed to the man who caused it all, handing me balloons.
Balloons.
And a card.
The anger and hate I felt that day washes over me again. But I let it flow like wind and then it dissipates. Because I came here for a reason and this memory lane shit needs to be over now.
I walk slowly down the steps and let the baby go so the other horrors can fill in the space. The basement is tossed too, and while it does make me a little sad to see all my things trashed upstairs, down here nothing belonged to me. Down here I was a piece of property. Down here I was his piece of property and I spent most of the months after the baby down here being punished for some reason or another.
Jon likes the kinky stuff. And I’m not talking the fun kinky stuff. I’m not talking about cute pink cheeks from an erotic spanking, or teasing a girl so she wants to come, but can’t. Or any of that play stuff.
I’m talking painful, ‘I never signed up for this, there is no word that will keep me safe, I don’t want this, it does not feel good, please, for fuck’s sake, stop’ kind of kinky stuff.
Ford likes the kinky stuff too, so he hints. And Ronin thinks he likes the kinky stuff.
But I’m doubting either of them have ever hog-tied a teenager and hung her up from the ceiling with a ball gag in her mouth and then proceeded to sexually torture her and called it fun.
I eye the ceiling hook as I step onto the cobblestones that line the basement floor and let out an uncontrollable shiver before taking my attention to the room around me. Most of the walls are made of some sort of gray rock. The floors are these old-ass bricks in some places, and crumbling concrete in others.
I head to the laundry room where the floor is crumbling concrete and try not to look at the shattered pieces of the St. Andrew’s cross as I pick my way past. This is a long room, but it’s pretty much bare of anything except the laundry stuff. Washer, drier, ironing board, folding table.
And one secret.
There is only single small basement window on the far side near the utility sink. The late afternoon light seeps in and blasts about six feet of air with illuminated floating dust particles. Across from that is the massive coal-powered furnace left over from when the house was first built. I used to hide behind it sometimes, but Jon always found me. He always found me.
I bend down and pick up the crowbar that’s mostly hidden underneath the washer, then insert it into the large drain grate in the crumbling floor. It lifts up so I set it aside and I lie down so I can peek in, straining to see if what I’m looking for is still there.
It is and the tips of my fingers just barely graze across the metal safe when a car door slams outside.
Fuck!
I get up and run to the little window which looks out to the front walkway.
Men’s voices.
And one of those voices belongs to Jon.
Chapter Thirty-Seven - ROOK
How? How is this even possible? He’s supposed to be in jail!
I’m so stunned I stand there gazing up at three sets of feet as they walk up the front steps. I waste any time I might’ve had to get out of this basement. The front door slams closed and I panic. What the fuck?
I look around frantically for a hiding place. The coal furnace calls to me, I could crawl behind that, but what if Jon knows I’m here somehow? He’ll definitely look there first because that’s where I always went. Hard footsteps thud over my head as the men walk across the living room floor. My gaze travels past the coal chute and I rush over, swing the door up, and I’m just about ready to climb in and crawl up to the side yard when I realize the footsteps are crossing into the kitchen.
They’re coming down here.
I give up on the coal chute—I’ll be caught for sure—and I refocus on the drain where we hide the secret shit. I’m not as skinny as I was when Jon made me climb in here, dig out a hole around the sewer pipes, and shove that fire-proof box in a little nook down there. But I wiggle as the first thuds on the basement stairs pound in my head, then slip through and pull the grate over the top.
Fuck, I left the crowbar. The footsteps are louder now, but not down yet. I slide the grate, grab the crowbar, slip back inside the hole, and slide the grate again.
“We’re tired of playing, Jon,” a voice says. “We know it’s here and the only way you’re getting out of here alive is if you give it to us. So let’s make this easy.”
I scoot away from the light filtering through the grate and push my back against the dirt wall as the men continue to talk near the stairs. I fish out my new iPhone and start the video camera and set it on a pipe on the other side of the hole, pointing up at the grate.
“Where is it?” another man says.
I’m so busted if he tells them because I’m sitting right next to the very thing they’re looking for.
“I told you,” Jon says. “I gave it to friends to hold for me. You kill me, they release it to the public. We walk out of here together or we don’t. But if I go down, so do you.”
A loud crack and a thud as someone falls to the ground almost makes me gasp. “You want to threaten me?”
There’s more shuffling and then the men are headed my way. I hold my breath.
“It’s in this basement, we know it is. One of your buddies gave you up.”
“That right?” Jon says, then spits on the floor, swallows hard, like he’s swallowing blood, and then coughs. “Then why don’t you tell me where it is, since you seem to know so much.”
They hit him again and this time he falls to the floor and his cheek lands right on the grate above me.
I suck in a long breath.
His eyes shift downward.
At first I think he can’t see me. And then his expression morphs though several different phases. Shock. Grimace. Anger.
And then nothing.
We open our mouths at the same time, but only he speaks. “I’ll never tell,” he says, looking me straight in the eye.
What? Is he talking to me?
One of the guys kicks him in the ribs and he spits out more blood. This time it clings to the rusty grate and drips down.
Please, God, I pray. Please don’t let me be caught here with these men.
“I won’t tell,” he says in a low voice. “I won’t tell.”
“You’ll tell, asshole. Because we’re gonna beat the living shit out of you if you don’t,” one of the other guys says.
“They ransacked the baby’s room, but I cleaned it up as best I could,” he chokes out. And then he whispers so softly I almost miss it. “I swear it was an accident. I swear to God, it was an accident.”
He is talking to me. I sink back against the wall and try to hold my tears in.
“Yeah, yeah, your dead baby’s room. We’ve already heard about it. Now you either tell us where the shit is, Jon, or we’ll go get that little raven of yours next. And if she thinks what you did to her was bad, she’s in for a surprise. I have a guy in Columbia who’ll pay a half a million for a girl like her. I can pick her up and have her sold before anyone knows she’s gone. We’ve got her boyfriend in jail, and she’s on the run from the other two, just like we planned. Hell, they might not even miss her. Might just figure she moved on and found a new place to hide.”