Philippa smiled. He could still be the impatient lover. It was an achievement really. She could scarcely have believed it would be possible if he had not again and again given her proof of it.
The bridegroom was uneasy because he had a duty to perform and it was a secret one.
He was delighted by his marriage. Blanche was enchanting. He had long heard of her beauty, though he did know that a bride’s charm was invariably measured by the size of her fortune, but this was not so in the case of Blanche. With her long fair hair and her very white skin and that air of vulnerability, she was irresistible and that she was a great heiress was just an additional attraction. Moreover had she not been rich and of such noble birth she would never have been chosen for him. He could not complain. He was in love with her already. It was a different sort of love from that he had had for Marie St Hilaire and he was deeply aware of the difference. It did not mean that he loved either of them the less. Blanche was the romantic lady, the kind of whom poets sang; Marie was the earthy mistress who knew how to satisfy him, how to soothe him, at all times. She did not complain. She understood that a man in his position could only come to her rarely. She knew that no great titles would come her way. Yet she had given him a deep and satisfying love.
He had talked to her as he never talked to anyone except Isolda Newman. Isolda – that staunch Flemish woman who had been his nurse – was a mother to him. It was to Isolda that he could reveal his innermost thoughts – even more so than to Marie, for Marie would never have understood entirely. Isolda did. He was aware in his Flemish nurse of a similar resentment which he himself felt.
When he was a little boy she had called him her little king and it had been a secret name for she had never used it before others.
Once she had said: ‘’Twas a pity you were not the first. What a King you would have made.’
He had been quite young when he had begun to feel the resentment because he was the fourth son. Edward and Lionel came before him. Young William had died. He had seen the adulation given to his brother Edward, the great Black Prince. When they had ridden out together people scarcely looked at him, and he had been very conscious of being only the little brother, while the people always shouted for the mighty Black Prince.
Lionel did not mind being the second son. Good-natured, lazy, stretching his long legs before him, stroking his handsome face, Lionel shrugged his shoulders. Lionel did not want to rule a kingdom. ‘Rather you than me,’ he had said to Edward. ‘I would not be in your boots, brother. Go on living, there’s a good fellow. Produce as many healthy sons as our parents did. Make sure that there is no way for me to come to the throne.’
How differently John felt! When he saw the crown his fingers itched to take it. He often thought: there are Edward and Lionel before me. And Lionel does not want it. What if …
He dismissed such thoughts. He was fond of his eldest brother. When he was a boy he had thought he was some sort of God and had joined in the general worship. But Edward was now twenty-nine years of age and he did not show any desire to marry; he was a fighter and one who liked to be in the forefront of the battle. If he did not marry; if he did not produce an heir; if he were killed in combat, there would only be Lionel before him. It was true Lionel had a four-year-old daughter Philippa – named for her grandmother the Queen – but a girl.
He must not think of these things. He could imagine the horror of his parents if they knew he did. He had a beautiful wife; passionately he wanted sons. It might well be that one day his son …
No, he must stop. There was an important matter to settle. He must see Marie. He must explain to her. He wondered if she had been among the spectators at the joust. Poor Marie, how had she felt to see the fair Blanche seated beside the Queen, to see him go forward and take her hand and kiss it fondly and ride with her into Westminster?
Blanche and he must have sons. It might well be that already she was with child. He hoped so. She seemed over fragile for much childbearing – unlike his mother – stolid, firm, Flemish wide-hipped, ample-bosomed, born for motherhood.
He must slip out of the palace unnoticed. It was well that he was not as easily recognised as his father and elder brothers were – for while the visage of the Black Prince was well known throughout the land, Lionel’s excessive height made it impossible for him to remain incognito. John himself was tall but not as tall as his brothers; his hair was less fair being more of a tawny shade; he was clearly Plantagenet, but that cast of features did appear here and there in the land, due no doubt to the lustiness of some of his ancestors.
He left the palace alone and made his way towards the City. Riding along the Strand past the noble palaces he saw the Savoy towering above the rest and he thought exultantly, one day that might well be mine. It belonged to his father-in-law and Blanche with her sister Matilda was his heir.
It was a pity that Blanche had a sister – and an elder one at that. Never mind the fortune was vast and when Duke Henry died it must pass to his daughters.
His fair bride could bring him more than her beauty.
He made his way into the City and rode along by the Water of Walbrook which came from its source in the heights of Hampstead and Highbury and flowed through swampy Moorfields to empty itself into the Thames. He came to a house near St Mildred’s Church close to Bucklersbury and here he paused. He rode through an arch at the side of the house and as he entered a courtyard a man ran out to make a sweeping bow. John dismounted and the man took his horse. He pushed open a door in the courtyard and was in the house.
Marie was waiting for him. She did not rush into his arms as was her custom. She stood back waiting for him to give some sign of what was expected of her. It was her indication that she realised there was a marked change in their relationship.
He thought: She was at the joust. She saw Blanche there …
He caught her hands and kissed her passionately.
‘Oh my lord …’ she murmured.
They went together into the room with the leaded windows that looked out on the courtyard. How often had he been here and found solace with Marie. It had been a satisfying relationship. He was not a promiscuous man. He had had one mistress at a time and Marie had held that position for more than two years. She was older than he was but he had been very young when he had first come to her.
They did not go to her bed as they would have done had this been an ordinary occasion. Marie was aware of this. She had set out on a table wine and the wine cakes she liked to bake for him. She knew that he had come to talk.
‘You were in the crowd?’ he asked.
She nodded. ‘I saw your bride. She is very beautiful. She looks … kind and good.’
‘Yes,’ he answered. ‘I know she is.’
‘You will love her well and she will love you.’
‘Marie,’ he said. ‘I am sorry. It had to be.’
She smiled bravely. ‘I always knew it would be thus. I never forgot that you were the King’s son and some day there would be a bride for you. Sometimes I thought that might not be the end.’
‘It must be the end,’ he said.
She nodded. ‘I knew you would wish it so.’
‘I could not deceive her,’ he said.
‘I understand.’
‘Dearest Marie, you have always understood. It is not that I do not love you. I shall for ever be grateful to you …’
‘You owe me no gratitude,’ she answered. ‘It was my pleasure to give and to take as it was yours. Suffice it that we have been happy together.’
‘It is a new life. I shall be sailing for France with my father ere long.’