This, she thought, was certainly something she could understand. Just as the actual feel of a place transformed old books and documents into living history for him, the physical presence of Ireland made the old songs into much more than words and music in her own eyes.
Did she herself feel at home in Ireland? She had told him that she was not sure, and now she asked herself the question again. She did not feel like a native, certainly, but neither did she feel like a stranger. And she thought of those hours spent at O’Donoghue’s the night before, perched on a stool with a borrowed guitar in her hands and a pint of stout on the bar before her and the world’s most truly appreciative audience hanging on every note she sang...
That night he took her to the Irish Cabaret at Jury’s, an old hotel in the heart of the city. They sat at a table down front and ate Irish stew and shared a bottle of French wine.
“The show’s strictly for tourists, of course,” he told her. “Most of the songs you’ll hear aren’t true Irish songs at all. They’re what Dubliners call Oirish. Sentimental numbers like ‘Galway Bay’ and ‘Mother Machree’ and all. They became popular with homesick Irishmen in America, and of course, the American tourists expect to hear them when they come back to the ould sod. But they do a good job here, and I think you’ll enjoy it. There’s a chorus of young girls who sing beautifully.”
She sat entranced throughout the show. Even the ventriloquist with his stage-Irish dummy delighted her, and the little girls, all of them around ten or eleven years old, were an unadulterated joy with their songs and dances. They were all quite beautiful with their long black hair and pink cheeks and bright blue eyes, and it was worth the price of the evening just to look at them.
They walked home from Jury’s. The rain had still held off. “Think of it,” he said, “a whole day without a drop of rain. Hard to believe we’re really in Dublin.” The night was glorious, cool but not chilly, the air clear and gloriously fresh and sweet in her lungs.
“I’ll call for you tomorrow,” he said at her door. “Is ten a good time for you?”
“Oh, you don’t have to—”
“But I want to.”
“I hate to take up your time. I know you have other things you have to do, and—”
“I’m all finished with classes for the summer — remember? And my time’s my own until I get on the bus for Connemara. Until then I’m a gentleman of leisure, and I can’t think of a way I’d rather spend my leisure than with such a lovely young lady.”
“Oh, get off with your blarney and don’t be after turning a poor girl’s head!”
“Why, you’re learning the language, Ellen!” He smiled. “Ten o’clock?”
“Will you sing some of those songs for me? And let me tape them?”
“You drive a hard bargain, but I accept.”
“Ten o’clock.”
His hands found her shoulders, and she closed her eyes and waited for his kiss, but he did not kiss her. She went upstairs to her room and lay in bed thinking of him. Don’t be a fool, she told herself. He’s good company and an excellent guide, and after all this time he’s probably lonesome for an American girl. But he’s not in love with you, or you with him.
She told herself this and made herself believe it, or thought she did. But all night long she tossed and turned in her sleep, and when she awoke in the morning she knew she had dreamed the night through, and that the dreams had been of David Clare.
She had three more days in Dublin, and she passed almost all her time with David. They spent a morning in the parlor of her hotel while he sang songs into her tape recorder. His voice was as poor as he had alleged it to be, but he came close enough to the melody so that she wound up with a fair idea of how the songs were supposed to sound. And, more important, he knew the full background of each of the songs he sang, the battles they commemorated, the lives of the heroes, the roles each had played in Ireland’s fight for freedom.
He told her of Father John Murphy, the rebel priest of Boulavogue who rallied Wexford around him, only to be executed by the British after the final defeat at Vinegar Hill. And he sang four ballads about Murphy.
In the afternoons he took her out to show her more of the city. The botanical gardens and the President’s Mansion. The Four Courts, where the 1916 insurgents held out against British guns and where, just a few years later, Michael Collins turned the new Free State’s guns upon the anti-Treaty forces of the Irish Republican Army. “No one likes to talk about the Civil War,” he told her. “It’s the country’s shame. So many successful uprisings end that way, with the Revolution devouring her own children. Michael Collins and Arthur Griffith accepted the Treaty and the Free State. De Valera and Cathal Brugha and others rejected it. And so old comrades fought each other. Cathal Brugha died right here; he took seventeen British bullets in nineteen sixteen and lived through it, and Michael Collins’s men shot him down here in nineteen twenty-two. And Collins was gunned down a few months later in an IRA ambush. The country’s not all jokes and songs and poetry. There’s a strain of sheer tragedy underneath it all.”
One night he took her to the Abbey Tavern in Howth, a coastal suburb to the north of Dublin. He hired a car, and they drove there in the twilight. This time she brought her guitar, and although she spent most of her time listening to other singers, she did sing a few songs of her own and was as well received as the first night in O’Donoghue’s. She drank enough Guinness to get just the slightest bit high, and on the way back she sat with her head on David’s shoulder. When he drew to a stop at last in the still darkness of Amiens Street he took her in his arms and kissed her.
After a moment he said, “You’re leaving tomorrow?”
“Yes.”
“I’ll miss you, Ellen.”
She didn’t trust herself to speak.
“You’ll love the west. You may miss Dublin, but I know you’ll like the rest of the country. Don’t be afraid to talk to people. The only strangers in Ireland are people you haven’t met. Once you meet them they stop being strangers. You should have a grand time in Tralee and Dingle. I’ve never been there, but I’ve been to other parts of County Kerry. It’s beautiful country.” He paused for a moment. “I know you’ll do well in Berlin. And that you’ll have a good trip home.” Another pause. “You know, I really will miss you, Ellen.”
His arms held her, and his lips found hers. She knew she was going to cry but hoped she could hold her tears until she was alone in her own room. Just a vacation romance, she told herself. He would forget her in a week, and they would never see each other again.
He walked her to her door and kissed her good night. She hurried inside without a word and rushed up the stairs and into her room. She was all prepared to cry, but now the tears refused to come.
Hardly a grand passion, she told herself. Just a very pleasant way to pass the time in Dublin.