It was nothing. It would pass. It was just at times like this … times of great anxiety when his head started to buzz with strange voices and ideas darted in and out of his mind and escaped before he could catch them.
How dared his son add to his troubles! As if he had not enough.
But George was young yet. He had to learn his lessons, and what of himself? Had he lived so blamelessly?
He picked up his pen and added to the letter he had just written to Lord North:
I am happy at being able to say that I never was personally engaged in such a transaction which perhaps makes me feel this the stronger.
Mr Fox’s arguments carried weight and Perdita’s terms were accepted.
She was happy. She was no longer bothered by her creditors. The Prince would take on her debts. She could live in Cork Street until other plans could be made; she had an unusual lover, and the whole world knew it. She could still ride out in her carriage and people stopped to stare at her.
‘Mrs Robinson has quickly found a new protector in Charles James Fox,’ they said.
When the Prince heard that his old love was Fox’s mistress he was very amused.
‘Why, Charles,’ he cried, ‘if you have done me the honour of taking on my mistress, I have done the same by you, for I believe you were once on very friendly terms with Mrs Armistead.’
It was amusing, said Mr Fox; and more than that, most convenient.
But when he returned to his lodgings in St James’s he thought of Mrs Armistead and he was surprised that he had not enjoyed hearing the Prince discuss her as though she were a woman of the town, lightly to be exchanged from one man’s bed to another.
Yet he had felt no such resentment at the mention of Perdita in the same connection.
He had known from the start that he was quickly going to tire of Perdita. She had little to offer him but her beauty. She was undoubtedly a pretty creature and she had a certain slender talent both for acting and writing. She liked to read her poems to him – sentimental stuff, but a pleasant enough jingle.
Thinking that the day would come when his sojourns at Cork Street would be less frequent he had taken some of her poetry along to various newspapers with whose proprietors he was on excellent terms.
As a result poems were appearing now and then under the name of Tabitha Bramble and the little money they earned was greatly appreciated by Mrs Mary Robinson.
Poor Perdita, thought Fox. So soon to be deserted again. Well, at least I arranged that she should have five hundred a year and see her poems profitably in print.
Not poor Perdita. Lucky Perdita. There were many who would be eager to supplant the Prince and Mr Fox.
Mr Fox and the Government
PERDITA WAS SAD to lose the companionship of Mr Fox, but he eluded her so skilfully and so gradually that she scarcely realized he had gone.
Even when their relationship was at its closest, there were so many matters to which he must give his attention and Perdita had made up her mind that she would make no demands on him. Therefore she never reproached him when he did not appear. He had done so much that she must be grateful to him for ever. She would never forget the horror of the debtors’ prison from which with a few deft arrangements he had delivered her. He had brought interesting people to her house; and he had allowed her to play the hostess as she had dreamed of doing.
Among the guests had come one of the most interesting men she had ever met. This was General Banastre Tarleton who had just returned from the most exciting adventures in America. He entertained the company with accounts of his exploits and at that time everyone was talking about the Colonies.
In fact it was because of them that Charles absented himself so often; great disasters meant great opportunities; and perhaps she had always known that Charles would rather lose a mistress than an opportunity.
Banastre Tarleton was so gallant. He told her that she was the most beautiful woman he had ever met; and it was perfectly clear that he was only waiting for Charles to move out before he moved in. It seemed a delicate touch which she would have expected of Banastre. He understood that she was not the sort of loose woman who would have more than one lover at a time.
So although she had not been able to have the political salon of which she had dreamed, there was something comforting about a soldier’s return from the wars, And when Charles was no longer her lover she slipped gracefully and happily into the protective arms of her soldier lover.
Fox often rode out to Chertsey to Mrs Armistead’s comfortable little residence. He found it very pleasant to sit in her garden or at her fireside whichever the season warranted, and talk to her. She had kept herself informed of politics and he was astonished at her insight. Not that she was inclined to put forward an opinion unless asked. She preferred to listen.
He could talk to her about the worsening situation which he saw developing.
The King and North he said would be remembered by future generations with contempt. It was their policies and nothing else which had lost the American Colonies – for lost they were whatever these two blind dodderers might think.
‘He thinks Cornwallis will beat Lafayette and that he’ll link up with Clinton and together they’ll fight the main force under Washington. My dear Lizzie, it is easy to win battles in an armchair.’
‘How can they be so foolish as not to beg you to take charge of affairs.’
‘But it is precisely because they are foolish that we are in our present dilemma. If we had had wise men in the Government we should never have allowed this quarrel to reach this point. Poor old George! He means well, you know. But how many well-meaning people have fallen into disaster. He babbles about our troops being excellent fellows and he talks of the justice of our cause and he is quite certain that God is on our side.’
‘Do you think he is seriously worried and that is why he talks like this?’
‘I think there is a great deal in what you say. Our gracious King while decrying the deceit of the French is guilty of the most damning deceit of all – self deceit. Where is this policy leading us? Holland declares war on us. The French have blockaded Gibraltar; and France and Spain have captured fifty of our ships in the West Indies. This Empire which Pitt built up is disintegrating.’
‘And when we have lost the Colonies will the Government fall?’
‘Undoubtedly the Government will fall.’ Mr Fox looked as sly as his name, and Mrs Armistead knew that he was thinking that that would be the time for Mr Fox to realize his dream.
Meanwhile Mrs Armistead could enjoy the realization of her own. She would never again serve other ladies; she would have her own lady’s maid. The Prince was her friend; his passion was less intense than it had been, but she was prepared for that. He had been a generous lover and she was growing, if not rich, extremely comfortable.
The most interesting days were those when Mr Fox called to talk politics; and she was very happy on those occasions to be able to entertain him not as a mistress entertains a lover, but as a friend in whom he could confide his ambitions, and the extent to which he did this was a measure of his trust.
The King could no longer deceive himself and was forced to admit the loss of the Colonies. He shut himself into his bedroom and buried his face in his hands.
‘What will become of me?’ he asked himself; for in time of crisis he felt the old sickness returning to him and he was afraid.
All these months he had been deceiving himself. He had defied those men who had cautioned him, who had suggested a conciliatory policy; he had believed he knew; he had forced poor North to follow his line … and he had lost.