“That is what I have come to speak to you about,” he said. “Maleldil has sent me to your world for some purpose. Do you know what it is?”
She stood for a moment almost like one listening and then answered “No.”
“Then you must take me to your home and show me to your people.”
“People? I do not know what you are saying.”
“Your kindred-the others of your kind.”
“Do you mean the King?”
“Yes. If you have a King, I had better be brought before “I cannot do that,” she answered. “I do not know where to find him.”
“To your own home then.”
“What is home?”
“The place where people live together and have their possessions and bring up their children.”
She spread out her hands to indicate all that was in sight. “This is my home,” she said.
“Do you live here alone?” asked Ransom. “What is alone?”
Ransom tried a fresh start.
“Bring me where I shall meet others of our kind.”
“It you mean the King, I have already told you I do not know where he is. When we were young-many days ago-we were leaping from island to island, and when he was on one and I was on another the waves rose and we were driven apart.”
“But can you take me to some other of your kind? The King cannot be the only one.”
“He is the only one. Did you not know?”
“But there must be others of your kind-your brothers and sisters, your kindred, your friends.”
“I do not know what these words mean.”
“Who is this King?” said Ransom in desperation.
“He is himself, he is the King,” said she. “How can one answer such a question?”
“Look here,” said Ransom. “You must have had a mother. Is she alive? Where is she? When did you see her last?”
“I have a mother?” said the Green Lady, looking full at him with eyes of untroubled wonder. “What do you mean? I am the Mother.” And once again there fell upon Ransom the feeling that it was not she, or not she only, who had spoken. No other sound came to his ears, for the sea and the air were still, but a phantom sense of vast choral music was all about him. The awe which her apparently witless replies had been dissipating for the last few minutes returned upon him.
“I do not understand,” he said.
“Nor I,” answered the Lady. “Only my spirit praises Maleldil who comes down from Deep Heaven into this lowness and will make me to be blessed by all the times that are rolling towards us. It is He who is strong and makes me strong and fills empty worlds with good creatures.”
“If you are a mother, where are your children?”
“Not yet,” she answered.
“Who will be their father?”
“The King-who else?”
“But the King-had he no father?”
“He is the Father.”
“You mean,” said Ransom slowly, “that you and he are the only two of your kind in the whole world?”
“Of course.” Then presently her face changed. “Oh, how young I have been,” she said. “I see it now. I had known that there were many creatures in that ancient world of the Hrossa and the Sorns. But I had forgotten that yours also was an older world than ours. I see-there are many of you by now. I had been thinking that of you also there were only two. I thought you were the King and Father of your world. But there are children of children of children by now, and you perhaps are one of these.”
“Yes,” said Ransom.
“Greet your Lady and Mother well from me when you return to your own world,” said the Green Woman. And now for the first time there was a note of deliberate courtesy, even of ceremony, in her speech. Ransom understood. She knew now at last that she was not addressing an equal. She was a queen sending a message to a queen through a commoner, and her manner to him was henceforward more gracious. He found it difficult to make his next answer.
“Our Mother and Lady is dead,” he said. “What is dead?”
“With us they go away after a time. Maleldil takes the soul out of them and puts it somewhere else-in Deep Heaven, we hope. They call it death.”
“Do not wonder, O Piebald Man, that your world should have been chosen for time’s corner. You live looking out always on heaven itself, and as if this were not enough Maleldil takes you all thither in the end. You are favoured beyond all worlds.”
Ransom shook his head. “No. It is not like that,” he said. “I wonder,” said the woman, “if you were sent here to teach us death.”
“You don’t understand,” he said. “It is not like that. It is horrible. It has a foul smell. Maleldil Himself wept when He saw it.” Both his voice and his facial expression were apparently something new to her. He saw the shock, not of horror, but of utter bewilderment, on her face for one instant and then, without effort, the ocean of her peace swallowed it up as if it had never been, and she asked him what he meant.
“You could never understand, Lady,” he replied. “But in our world not all events are pleasing or welcome. There may be such a thing that you could cut off both your arms and your legs to prevent it happening-and yet it happens: with us”
“But how can one wish any of those waves not to reach us which Maleldil is rolling towards us?”
Against his better judgment Ransom found himself goaded into argument.
“But even you,” he said, “when you first saw me, I know now you were expecting and hoping that I was the King. When you found I was not, your face changed. Was that event not unwelcome? Did you not wish it to be otherwise?”
“Oh,” said the Lady. She turned aside with her head bowed and her hands clasped in an intensity of thought. She looked up and said, “You make me grow older more quickly than I can bear,” and walked a little farther off. Ransom wondered what he had done. It was suddenly borne in upon him that her purity and peace were not, as they had seemed, things settled and inevitable like the purity and peace of an animal that they were alive and therefore breakable, a balance maintained by a mind and therefore, at least in theory, able to be lost. There is no reason why a man on a smooth road should lose his balance on a bicycle; but he could. There was no reason why she should step out of her happiness into the psychology of our own race; but neither was there any wall between to prevent her doing so. The sense of precariousness terrified him: but when she looked at him again he changed that word to Adventure, and then all words died out of his mind. Once more he could not look steadily at her. He knew now what the old painters were trying to represent when they invented the halo. Gaiety and gravity together, a splendour as of martyrdom yet with no pain in it at all, seemed to pour from her countenance. Yet when she spoke her words were a disappointment.
“I have been so young till this moment that all my life now seems to have been a kind of sleep. I have thought that I was being carried, and behold, I was walking.”
Ransom asked what she meant.
“What you have made me see,” answered the Lady, “is as plain as the sky, but I never saw it before. Yet it has happened every day. One goes into the forest to pick food and already the thought of one fruit rather than another has grown up in one’s mind. Then, it may be, one finds a different fruit and not the fruit one thought of. One joy was expected and another is given. But this I had never noticed before-that at the very moment of the finding there is in the mind a kind of thrusting back, or a setting aside. The picture of the fruit you have not found is still, for a moment, before you. And if you wished-if it were possible to wish-you could keep it there. You could send your soul after the good you had expected, instead of turning it to the good you had got. You could refuse the real good; you could make the real fruit taste insipid by thinking of the other.”
Ransom interrupted: “That is hardly the same thing as finding a stranger when you wanted your husband.”
“Oh, that is how I came to understand the whole thing. You and the King differ more than two kinds of fruit. The joy of finding him again and the joy of all the new knowledge I have had from you are more unlike than two tastes, and when the difference is as great as that, and each of the two things so great, then the first picture does stay in the mind quite a long time many beats of the heart-after the other good has come. And this, O Piebald, is the glory and wonder you have made me see; that it is I, I myself, who turn from the good expected to the given good. Out of my own heart I do it. One can conceive a heart which did not: which clung to the good it had first thought of and turned the good which was given it into no good.”