The whole time, the rain poured down relentlessly and silently over the reservoir. The sound was something like shredded newspaper falling on a thick pile carpet. It was like the rain that falls in Claude Lelouche movies.
Once we finished the cookies and had each had our two cups of coffee, we all brushed off our laps in unison as if by prior arrangement. No one spoke.
"Well, we might as well get it over with," voiced one twin.
The other nodded.
I put out my cigarette.
We walked to the end of the catwalk that projected out over the water without bothering to put up umbrellas. The reservoir had been formed by damming up the river. The surface of the water curved unnaturally where it lapped into the folds of the hillsides. The color of the water gave you an unsettling feeling of depth. The raindrops made tiny ripples everywhere.
One of the twins took our dearly beloved switch-panel out of the paper bag and handed it over to me. In the rain, the switch-panel looked more miserable than ever.
"Say some kind of prayer, will you?"
"Prayer?" I was caught off guard.
"It's a funeral, so we need to say last rites."
"It hadn't occurred to me," I said. "I haven't got anything prepared."
"Doesn't matter, anything's fine."
"Just for form's sake."
I searched for some appropriate words, meanwhile getting soaked from head to toe.
The twins glanced alternately from me to the switch-panel with a worried look on their faces.
"The obligation of philosophy," I drew on my Kant, "is to eradicate illusions born of misunderstanding. Oh, switch-panel! Rest ye at the bottom of the reservoir."
"Toss it."
"Huh?"
"The switch-panel."
I went into a windup, and hurled it up at a forty-five degree angle with all my might. The switch panel traced a beautiful arc through the rain, and struck the water. The ripples slowly spread, finally reaching our feet.
"That was a wonderful prayer."
"You make it up?"
"But of course," I said.
Then the three of us, drenched as dogs, huddled together and stared across the reservoir.
"How deep is it?" asked one.
"Very deep," I answered.
"Are there fish?" asked the other.
"Ponds this size always have fish."
Seen from a distance, the three of us standing there must have looked like some classy memorial marker.
12
Thursday morning that same week, I put on my first sweater of autumn. A totally undistinguished gray sweater, slightly frayed under the arms, but still quite comfortable. I shaved myself a sight more neatly than usual, put on heavy cotton slacks, and pulled out my scuffed-up desert boots. They somehow looked like two trained puppies at my feet. The twins buzzed around the room gathering together my cigarettes and lighter and wallet and train pass.
I sat down at my desk in the office, and sharpened six pencils while I sipped the coffee the office girl brought me. The whole room was filled with a sweater-just-out-of-storage and pencil-lead smell.
Lunchtime, I ate out and once again played with the Abyssinians. I stuck the tip of my little finger through a gap in the showcase, and two cats vied with each other to jump up and bite me.
That day someone from the pet shop let me hold one of the cats. Its coat felt like fine cashmere, and it pressed a cold nose to my lips.
"It really cuddles up to people," the shop attendant said.
I expressed my thanks and returned the cat to the case, then bought a box of cat food I couldn't use. The attendant wrapped it up nicely, and as I walked out of the pet shop with it under my arm, the two cats stared after me as if trying to recall some fragment of a dream.
When I got back to the office, the girl brushed the cat hairs off my sweater.
"I was playing with a cat," I offered by way of explanation.
"Your sweater's all frayed under the arms."
"I know. It's been like that since last year. It got caught on the rearview mirror while I was trying to knock over an armored car."
"Off with it," she said, unamused.
I took off the sweater, and she sat beside the chair, her long legs crossed, and proceeded to darn it with black yarn. While she was mending the sweater, I returned to my desk, sharpened my pencils for the afternoon, and got back to work. Even if anyone saw fit to comment, you could hardly fault my work habits. I did exactly the work I was asked in exactly the prescribed amount of time, and did it all as conscientiously as possible – that was my method. I surely would have been prized at Auschwitz. The problem was, I think, that the places I fit in were always falling behind the times.
But that probably couldn't be helped. There was no going back to Auschwitz or twinseater Kamikaze torpedo-planes. Nobody wears miniskirts any more, nobody listens to Jan and Dean. And when was the last time you saw a girl wearing a garter belt?
When the clock struck three, the office girl came to my desk as usual with hot green tea and three cookies. She'd mended my sweater beautifully.
"Say, could I have a little talk with you?"
"Go ahead," I said, munching on a cookie
"About the trip in November," she said, "how does Hokkaido sound?" We were planning to take a company trip, just the three of us.
"Not bad," I said.
"Then it's settled. Do you think there'll be any bears?"
"Hmm, I imagine they'll all be hibernating."
She nodded, relieved "By the way, could you have dinner with me tonight? There's a great lobster restaurant nearby."
"Fine by me," I said.
The restaurant was a five-minute taxi ride from the office in a quiet residential area. We sat down, and a black-suited waiter floated noiselessly across the woven palm-fiber carpeting to leave us with two menus the size of swimming pool paddle boards.
We ordered two beers before dinner.
"The lobster here is really good. They boil it live."
I acknowledged this with a grunt and drank my beer. Her slender fingers toyed with the star-shaped pendant around her neck.
"If you've got something to say, you might as well come out with it before dinner," I said. The moment I'd spoken, I regretted it. Happens every time.
She smiled slightly. Then, simply because it was a bother to put that one-tenth-of-an-inch smile back in its proper place, she kept it there on her mouth a while. The restaurant was so empty you could almost hear the lobsters waving their feelers.
"Do you like your present job?" she asked.
"Hmm. You know, I don't believe I've ever thought about work in that way. But I can't say as I'm dissatisfied.
"Nor me, I can't say I'm unhappy," she said, taking a sip of beer. "The pay's good, you two are both considerate, and I have a free hand at arranging my vacations."