proximity made me nervous, and she seemed to sense it. On some
level, I think that pleased her.
“What are you drinking?” she asked as her gaze met mine.
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There was a hunger there, and I didn’t think it had anything to do
with my boots.
“Another round of cosmos,” Marvin called out.
“Thank you, but that one will have to be my last,” I said to
jeers. “I have to work tomorrow. I assume y’all do, too.” All four
of them shook their heads.
Three drinks later, I was as giddy as Marvin. The more Alicia
pressed closer, the more I drank. I couldn’t deny that a part of me
was enjoying the attention.
“Do you like to dance?” she asked against my ear.
“I do, but gravity is a bitch right now.”
“Come on, it’s a slow song. I’ll hold you up.”
I let her take my hand and lead me to the dance floor. She
pulled me snugly against her, and the warmth of her body pressed
close to mine made me shiver.
“I don’t think you’re as bad off as you claim to be. You’re
moving pretty well,” Alicia said.
“I just don’t like falling on my face.”
She laughed, and I felt it down to my toes. “Do you do that
often?”
“No, but I don’t want to start tonight.”
Alicia’s lips moved from my cheek to my mouth, and she
kissed me, nibbling on my lip as she did. “I can think of better
things to do with this evening.”
And this is where my brain and body went to war.
You don’t know this woman, my brain said loudly. I stepped
back a little.
Well, we could get to know her if you’d shut up, the lower half
of my body countered.
Kalen is going to have a fit, my brain said.
We are well north of twenty-one, and we don’t need Kalen’s
blessing.
I was inclined to agree with the lower region.
Well, hell, do it. I’m pickled anyway. Brain was on board.
“Marvin and the boys are on the dance floor. They’ll never
see us leave,” Alicia whispered against my ear.
Apparently, my body was speaking directly to hers, so I didn’t
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try to intervene. I nodded, and we were on the way out the door
before I could blink.
“My place is a few blocks over,” Alicia said as the cold air hit
me full in the face. I sobered slightly but found myself nodding.
With my hand clutched in hers, we walked briskly toward her
place. Even though my brain was impaired, it did its job and tried
one last time to dissuade me, but when we walked through her
front door and she shoved me against it, I didn’t listen to anything
else but the sound of Alicia’s breathing.
“Where’s your bedroom?” I asked as I pushed her away from
me. She gave me a toothy grin and tugged me down the hall.
I’m shy and introverted. Conversation is difficult, and this
was my first one-night stand. Maybe it was the alcohol, then
again, maybe it was just wanton desire. Probably both, but my
body didn’t have any problem doing the talking.
I pushed her down onto the bed and pulled off my jacket. She
smiled seductively back at me as she pulled off her boots. I helped
pull off her pants, then removed her shirt and bra. I shoved her
hands away when she reached for my clothes.
“You like being in control?” she asked.
I nodded as she pulled off my boots.
She rolled over onto her hands and knees and reached into
a drawer at her bedside, giving me a great view of her backside.
“Think you can handle being in control of this?” Alicia held up
a harness.
I’d had some experience with a strap-on, but it wasn’t
pleasant. We never could get it tight enough, and the base of the
dildo shifted, causing a painful sensation when it hit all the wrong
spots. But I was willing to take one for the team.
After I stripped off the rest of my clothes, Alicia pulled me
by the hips until I was standing directly in front of her. I watched
as she strapped me into the contraption expertly. It fit tight and
didn’t slide when she gave it a tug.
“You’re really going to enjoy this.” Alicia pushed the button
on the first of two well-positioned bullet vibrators. My right leg
shot out like I was being electrocuted.
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“Shit,” I blurted out. I’d not spoken a word since we’d entered
her bedroom, and that was all I could mutter when the vibration
met with the most sensitive part of my body.
Romantic and very smooth, my brain said in disapproval.
“Fuck me now,” Alicia demanded.
I was willing to oblige but not on her command. I went at
her mouth hungrily, and she ground against me, trying to come
in contact with the dildo. Her nails raked up my back as I moved
lower and took a nipple into my mouth.
“Don’t be gentle,” Alicia said between clenched teeth, and I
bit the tender skin as hard as I dared.
Alicia grabbed a fistful of my hair and pulled me up to her
lips. She sucked my tongue as she writhed beneath me, then said
against my open mouth, “Don’t fucking tease me, fuck me now.” I
did as she asked. She was incredibly wet as I guided the tip of the
dildo into her opening, then let her take it the rest of the way.
I felt her heels digging into my ass cheeks, urging me deeper
and faster. The bullets felt like they were vibrating the entire
harness. The sensation was so intense, I thought I was going to
explode like a teenager. We were sweating and making noises
that I was sure they could hear over the music at the bar. And then
another face appeared in my peripheral vision.
“What the fuck are you doing?”
I froze. The vibration of the harness being pressed so tightly
against me robbed me of the breath I needed to scream.
“What does it look like, Ann?” Alicia said angrily.
“With my harness? The one you bought me for my
birthday?”
I rolled away from the stranger, and Alicia slipped from
beneath me. She rose up and stood toe to toe with Ann, and they
began screaming in each other’s faces.
I struggled to get the harness off, but my hands were shaking
so badly, I couldn’t unclip the damn thing. Ann walked toward
me and stuck a finger in my face. “Get the fuck out of here.”
“I’m trying,” I said like a fool. I grabbed my pants and the rest
of my clothes off the floor and vibrated down the hall when the
two resumed yelling. The harness wouldn’t budge, and I knew at
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any minute Ann whoever she was would be coming down the hall
to pitch me to the curb.
I pulled my pants on over the diabolical sex toy, but there was
no way I was going to be able to zip them for two reasons. First,
the dildo was too big. Second, the damn thing was vibrating so
much I couldn’t control my hands. Putting my boots on nearly
killed me.
I half ran down the street, holding my blazer in front of me
to hide the party going on in my pants. My teeth were chattering