"He tried again to push his cock into me, this time harder and faster. I felt a tearing pain in my pussy, and I had to scream again. Blood began to seep down my leg as he went deeper and deeper. It felt like he was shoving a telephone pole inside me, but it felt good, even with all the pain. I grabbed Dick and hung on, trying to help him. I was afraid I was going to faint, but I didn't want to. My pussy was beginning to tingle again, and my whole body began to get a good, warm feeling, in spite of all the pain.
"Over and over again, I could only think, 'Dick's cock is so big, he's so big and strong.' I suddenly knew what had happened that night I'd first seen my Mom suck my father's cock after he'd kept hitting her. She had wanted to be beaten, hurt, and humiliated. I knew now why she'd crawled over and sucked his cock, because I was beginning to feel the same way!
"It's hard to tell you so you'd understand, the fantastic feeling that was spreading all over me. It was like being in a different world a world I'd only dreamed about. I opened my eyes to see Dick's sweating face, lustful eyes, close to me. He was puffing and grunting and his eyes seemed ready to pop out. His body seemed to be moving automatically, as if he wasn't controlling it, and I moaned in pleasure as I felt his prick going deeper and faster, and I knew he was going to come.
"I had only thought I'd had a climax before. When I came this time, I knew that all the rest had been just 'kid stuff.' I felt it coming far off, minutes before I really had my climax. Dick began to stiffen and his stroke quickened and ended up in short, stabbing jerks. Chills ran over me, and I began to shake. I pounded my cunt as hard as I could against his body, trying to take it all inside me. That's how I felt. His prick twitched and jerked, then he shot into me. I tried to climb up on the pink cloud that was settling around me, and I made it. I begged him not to take it out yet, and I just lay there, feeling light as a feather, and sexy all over. I was sure that if anyone looked, they would be able to see my body glowing.
"Then it was over. I looked at Dick, and he kissed his cheek and asked him never to leave me. I guess it must be like that with most girls, when they've had their first real fuck when they've given their 'cherry.’
"We didn't do any more that day. I was too sore, and Dick was a little scared that he'd hurt me too much when he saw how much I had bled.
"He helped me clean the blood off me and asked when he could see me again. I told him I'd work it out, but that it probably would have to be during the day, because both my parents worked days and they weren't very permissive about me going out at night.
"It wasn't has hard as I had thought it would be. Like I said before, they never really cared about me, so when I told them I was sleeping overnight at a girlfriend's house, they never questioned me. I saw Dick about twice a week, sometimes oftener, and he really learned fast what it took to turn me on. He began to like the idea of giving me spankings. A couple of times, he got carried away, and he really beat me bad. He apologized afterwards, and said he just didn't know what had come over him he just couldn't stop himself. That bothered me a little, because I had to keep control over Dick, and also, I had to be able to trust him. I didn't want to become as completely helpless with him as my Mom was with my Dad, nor so dependent on the pain. If I had to worry about Dick not being able to stop, I was afraid it would spoil my enjoyment of sex with him.
"He brought a paddle along one time one of those wooden ones that fraternities use in their doings. We drove to our usual spot and undressed each other I always used to like to suck Dick's cock a little while I was undressing him and when I rolled over for Dick to spank me, he used that paddle. It really hurt me, so I told him to stop and to use his hand instead. But he wouldn't stop. He hit me again and again, harder each time. I got scared. My whole backside ached and stung, and I wasn't getting a charge out of it.
"I begged him to stop, but he just held me down and hit me again and again, all over my legs and my back, as well as my ass. Suddenly, my body began to feel warm all over, and I wondered if I was bleeding or maybe even dying or both. It felt as if somebody were pouring hot water all over me. The pain of the paddling seemed to drift away. It was like I was in another body, standing aside, and watching myself being beaten.
"I heard myself moaning, but it wasn't from pain this time. 'Oh, Dick… oh, Dick… ' I moaned in pleasure. 'More… harder… more… ' I never wanted him to stop. I was heading for that beautiful pink cloud again.
"I felt him stop and roll me over and spread my legs. It hurt when I put weight on my back and my ass, but it didn't really matter anymore. I felt his lips on my mouth, and I opened it and sucked his tongue into it. I could feel his soft hands caressing my body as if he adored it, and I was approaching a peak of ecstasy.
"I couldn't wait any longer. I wanted his cock inside me so badly that I wanted to scream in frustration. In desperation, I grabbed for his prick, place it against the lips of my pussy, and pushed forward with my hips. I felt the full force of his penetration and I wanted to die with the pleasure of it. I never wanted to move from that instant and that feeling.
" 'Fuck me, Dick,' I groaned.-'Don't ever stop fucking me! Promise you'll never stop!’
"He thrilled and satisfied me completely. His full weight was on me and his cock was thrusting inside me. I felt that I was nothing, compared to this great god that was fucking me. I was his slave. Then, as I approached my orgasm, I changed completely. From nothing, I became everything. I was not just myself, I was both of us all the lovers in the world! Our bodies were one we had one mind, one soul mine!
"I was a mass of nerve ends, each one exploding with pleasure. When it came, I screamed with joy and squeezed Dick tightly with my legs and my arms and the muscles of my cunt. I tried to keep him going, and he did too, but he was too exhausted, and at last, I reluctantly let him take hi amp; limp prick out of me. When I went home I must have slept a thousand hours, but I was sleeping in Dick's arms, with his cock inside me, on a big, wonderful, pink cloud.
"I went with Dick for the next year and a half, and it seemed that I had to have that wild, brutal kind of whipping. I know that it doesn't make sense to most people, that so much pain could lead to such great pleasure. I don't understand it myself because I always thought that pain and pleasure were exactly the opposite of one another. But they can blend into one overwhelming sensation of joy.
"Then I split up with Dick, and for the first couple of weeks I almost went crazy, needing him and the sexual pain-pleasure. I was only thirteen, but I could pass for eighteen by then. I was fully developed, nice breasts, curvy hips and long, shapely legs. And, I was pretty at least most boys thought I was.
"I had a few dates, but when I had to be hurt, all of the boys backed away. They thought I was a kook and they said so. I even offered to pay a couple of them, but they wouldn't do it. Finally, I stumbled across a copy of an underground newspaper and I saw the sex ads. Sure enough, there were several that advertised 'discipline sessions.’ I knew what they meant. Dick and I had talked about some of those ads after he'd graduated high school and started in college.
"I answered one and was accepted right away. I couldn't wait for the first meeting and it was more than I expected. That first night, a man used a rough hairbrush on me, and later on, after he'd fucked me good, another man used a riding whip on me, and I climaxed even better with that.
"You know the rest. I kept on with the club. I ran away from home to live with one of the fellows in the group. We'd still be going strong, if we hadn't been dumb enough to let Sylvia in the group. She was only fifteen, and when she went home one night, all marked up from a whipping, her father forced her to tell where she'd been whipped. He was sneaky, too, for he waited, let Sylvia lead him and the police to the meeting place, and the cops arrested everyone involved.