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"After my father died, my mother sold the farm and we moved to the city. Well, it wasn't really big enough to be called a city, but there were two churches, a school for all grades, right through high school, and they had a movie house, too.

"I was excited to be moving to a big town like that, and I could hardly wait to get acquainted with all the kids at school. The girls were kind of cold to me at first, but the boys weren't. I guess I must have smiled at a lot of them, because they took to me right away.

"I was only in school a couple of days when one of the boys, who was about sixteen, grabbed me by the cunt, and said, 'Hey, you're kind of cute, kid.' He just kept on walking, but he looked back and laughed. Believe it or not, just that one grab at my snatch had got me excited. It had been a long time since any boy had fucked me or even touched me, and I was all hot and bothered.

"I hollered at him to come back, and he turned around and walked toward me. I think he felt I was going to give him a good bawling out, because he had a hard look on his face when he stopped in front of me. He put his hands on his hips and said gruffly, 'Yeah?’

"I asked, 'Why'd you grab me by the pussy that way?'

"It surprised him and he just stood there frowning. Then he said, 'Because I felt like it.'

" 'Is that all you wanted to do?' I asked. He looked me up and down, then said, 'What the hell is going on?’

"I came right out and put it to him. 'Would you like to fuck me?’

" 'You're a wise little cunt, aren't you?' He snarled.

"I said, 'No, I mean it if you want to.

"He started to walk away, then he turned and said,' Are you for real?’

"I walked up to him and told him I wanted him to fuck me. There was a shed in back of the schoolyard, where they used to keep softballs, volleybalis, nets, all that junk, so we went in there. I took my panties off and laid down on a pile of netting and spread my legs. It didn't take him any time at all to get his cock out and it was already pretty hard. He got down on top of me and went right in. It had been so long since I'd had any that I came in a few seconds, but he didn't, and by the time he came I had already had my second come.

"He began to kiss me, sticking his tongue into my mouth when he was ready to come, and I helped him all I could.

"He came a lot, but then he jumped up and wiped his prick off with his handkerchief, and opened the door and peeked out. He said, ‘I’ll leave first. We'd get hell if they caught us here together. Then he left. I could hear him running across the paved court I felt real good and I knew it was going to be all right for me at school. I knew that I would have all the sex I needed."

Teenie may never have all the sex she wants or needs. She is a classic nymphomaniac. Unable to satisfy her inordinate desire for sex, Teenie took on almost every boy in the school who was willing. Then she moved into faster company and began to roam the streets of the small town in which she lived, picking up men of any age.

At age twelve, she contracted a severe case of syphillis and was placed in a hospital. She was eventually cured, but her real sickness a destructive appetite for sex may never be completely cured or even curbed substantially.

Psychiatrists who have worked with her feel that she is what they term a "morally retarded" person. She is unable to recognize the fact that she is a delinquent, because her childish emotional structure has never developed beyond the baby stage, in which a child knows only pain or pleasure. He desires pleasure and shuns pain, and he becomes resentful and balky if pleasure is denied him.

This is Teenie's attitude. It is difficult to decide if or when she will be able to resume her place in society. With the promiscuity of today's teen-agers, Teenie would be certain to join in all sorts of sex games.

In many ways, she is a normal girl. In certain of her school subjects, she does better than average. But in all areas that involve sound judgement, tolerance, moral soundness and consideration for others, which calls for obeying the established rules, she draws a zero.

Blame is difficult to place. Of course, the hired hand, Ryan, was to blame and the father of the girl. However, after months of trying to uncover the real person inside the delicate boy of this girl, two of the doctors who have spent the most time with her, feel that in any set of circumstances, in any city or rural community, Teenie would have followed much the same sex pattern.

Medical science does not yet know what causes the uncontrollable passions that we associate with nymphomania. It is to be hoped that, perhaps in working with Teenie, one more ray of light may be shed on this mysterious subject.

Chapter 3

The Homosexual Pro

"Hell are you kiddin'? My brothers and sisters played with my dick from the time I was real little. I guess I was hardly walkin’ before my brothers had me tryin' to stick it in some girl. I wasn't even seven when my older brothers screwed me in the rear… "

This was part of the response of Jack K. when asked if he remembered his first sexual experience.

Psychiatrists point out that the sexual life of an individual begins almost at birth. The tissue involved in the sex organ is responsive from the beginning and the child learns early, by trial and error, that pleasure from manipulation is possible.

The first form of sexual activity is known as infantile auto-erotic behavior. A noted psychiatrist states, "Studies show that auto-erotic responses are by no means abnormal, but occur frequently even in very young children." Such behavior, however, is much more common in the male than in the female, primarily because of the availability and convenience of the male organ. "From about one to six years it is frequently indulged in by children of both sexes. From six to adolescence there tends to be less of it than before, but at adolescence it reappears together with a more direct interest in sexual expression generally."

The reason we note this statement is to show that children not only are capable of sexuality in their early years, as Jackie was, but are almost anxious for the opportunity to participate through auto-erotic behavior initially and later with other humans. It is commonly agreed upon in psychiatry that early sexual experiences will affect the individual's later life. Early background factors tend to show why Jack became, at age twelve, a professional homosexual prostitute, selling his sexual favors and prostituting his young body for older men who were happy to pay him for what, to Jack, was very natural and pleasurable sexual behavior. We see, too, that much of it has more to do with the psychological makeup of the child than with his physical being.

Continuing with Jackie's revelation to the psychiatrist:

"Hell, I knew what a cock was for before I could even walk. I was even in bed sometimes when my old lady was screwin' one of her boyfriends.

This is understandable, for Jack's mother was an uneducated, almost illiterate woman, who had lived in near poverty all her life. She was from a Southern sharecropper's large brood, and at age thirteen, had run away from home in the company of a thirty-eight-year-old sexpot who, at the same time, was deserting a large family of his own.

"He dumped Jack's mother when she became pregnant, and this child was the first of six that she would bear all out of wedlock. Jack was the second youngest of a family of four boys and two girls. None of them knew their father, so all adopted the promiscuous mother's maiden name.

When she felt lonely, Jack's mother went to a bar. She drank heavily, but her big hangup was sex, not alcohol. She was almost a nymphomaniac, and at the bar, she would take home the first man who made an offer. Sometimes it was just for a night, but often the man stayed on until either he, or Jack's mother, grew tired of the situation. Few, if any of them, ever worked or contributed anything to the welfare of the children. For all his life, Jack knew nothing but a "welfare" existence.