“Hello, Mrs. Hathaway,” I said brightly, kneeling in front of her. I had a new angle on the man, but he’d moved. I didn’t think he was one of the goons from the garage, but I needed to get a good look. Could there be a whole posse of rednecks after me?
I turned back to Mrs. Hathaway, who, after seeing me, had paused her self-imposed daily eight-hour shift chirping back at the reception room aviary, a floor-to-ceiling cage in the corner fluttering with tiny canaries.
She wore a bright yellow robe, looking like something of a canary herself. Mrs. Hathaway’s daughter told me that her mother had been a lounge singer; now she never made a sound except when she was with those birds. I hoped she imagined herself flying away or bowing to generous applause. She wrapped me in a hug that transferred a smear of Olay lotion to my cheek and then went back to the business of chirping. Mama and Mrs. Hathaway hung out together sometimes when the odd little planets where they lived aligned.
“See you later, sweetie,” I told her.
As I turned down the hall that led off reception, the man’s head was down and shaded by the brim of his hat. He laughed. Maybe he was just a flirt providing an old lady with the high point of her week and a story to make her Bridge Club widows jealous. Because aren’t we all still sixteen inside?
At room 125, I knocked three times. Mama didn’t answer, so I turned my spare key in the lock. I closed the door, wishing it had a deadbolt. I had never trusted flirts and was pretty sure I was born thirty when it came to men.
She rocked back and forth by the window, staring at the slice of garden view that cost four hundred dollars extra a month. The room was like dusk, shadowy and depressing, because Mama didn’t like the lights on in the daytime anymore. You could turn them on all day and she’d go behind you turning them off.
She showed no signs of recognizing me. I stopped being disappointed a long time ago. During Wade’s eulogy at Daddy’s funeral, she’d placed her hand on my arm and leaned closer to ask, “Who died?”
“Can I brush your hair?” She didn’t respond but she let me guide her up and over to the chair in front of the dressing-table mirror. I stood behind her, gently taking out the bobby pins holding up her hair. It fell like a snowy waterfall, still silky and long.
I picked up the brush and slowly began to count every stroke just as she did for me when I was a child and had a bad day. My scalp used to tingle for an hour afterward. My counting was often the only sound that broke the silence between us during this ritual and one of the few things that seemed to relax her.
Today I was angry. Today I felt like time was running out for good, maybe for all of us.
“Mama, am I your daughter?” I asked. “Was I stolen?” My voice crept higher. “Did you adopt me?” If Rosalina wasn’t lying, this was the next best option. Mama and Daddy had adopted me not knowing I’d been kidnapped.
“Baby,” she said.
“Don’t ‘baby’ me,” I said, so sharply that she flinched. “Look at this.”
I held the picture of a young Rosalina Marchetti cradling a baby, possibly me, in front of her eyes. She turned her head away from it, and her hands began an agitated dance in her lap.
“Who is this woman? Do you know her? She wrote me this letter.” I laid the single piece of pink stationery in her lap. She brushed it to the floor. I bent to pick it up, pushing down anger, knowing it would not help. I took a shaky breath.
“She says you lied to me. That she is my real mother.” I spoke gently. “Her name is Rosalina Marchetti, Mama. She is married to a killer.”
“She’s a pretty girl.” Mama’s voice was like brittle paper. “You’re a pretty girl, too.”
She reached up with a hand cruelly resculpted by arthritis. One more body part that didn’t cooperate. Those once elegant fingers had dipped and sailed across the grand piano every afternoon of my childhood, teaching me the chemistry and magic of the great composers.
Sometimes, she’d still my practicing fingers and tell me little stories: that Bach had at least twenty children; that Mozart was christened Johannes Chrysostomus Wolfgangus Theophilus Mozart; that Vivaldi was nicknamed “The Red Priest” for his red hair and had been buried, broke and destitute, in an unmarked grave; that Rachmaninoff had giant hands with fingers that could stretch across the keys like rubber bands; that Chopin loved Poland so much he filled a small silver box with earth when he left the country and had it buried with him. That most of these men would never understand their genius before dying.
On the very best days, she would scoot me aside on the piano bench and play a little Duke Ellington or Billie Holiday and sing in her clear high alto. Mournful, playful, intelligent. My mother was all those things. Was she also a liar?
In October or November, when the embers of summer died down, we’d throw open the windows and Daddy heard the strains of our music all the way to the barn. He claimed that the horses stopped to listen. Mama said that she liked to believe the wind snatched up our notes and that they floated on the prairie, traveling forever.
“Did you take me?” I pressed. “Do I belong to someone else?”
Mama reached up. I thought she was going to hug me, but instead she pulled skillfully at the messy knot that held up my hair.
She drew me down, turning my face to the mirror, and laid her cheek on mine.
I studied our features-the delicate bone structures, the soft, straight hair, the sad expressions.
“Mama, I need your help.” Pleading. “I’m afraid,” I whispered.
It was the first time in my life I’d said those words out loud.
Her face remained blank, unmoved.
In the shadows of the mirror, I was the girl she used to be. There seemed no doubt.
Before I left, I asked for the key she always wore on a silver chain.
Without protesting, she let me unfasten it from her neck.
By the time I made it back to my truck, there was an empty space where the man’s black pickup had been parked.
I reminded myself that I needed to find out the names of the men who’d attacked Jack. Maybe I could get a restraining order. But that might just tick them off more, serve to remind them of my pesky existence.
I wish I knew what the hell I was dealing with. One of those men had sought out and found a picture of me on the Halo Ranch website, for God’s sake. I should probably tell someone that. I felt under the seat for my faithful.45. Still there. Some people sought comfort in the warmth of a furry pet; I was growing fond of cold steel.
The depression I always felt after seeing Mama was now compounded by the growing sense that something was very wrong, like invisible monsters were laying low, biding their time, traveling with me in the bed of the pickup. All I could do was keep moving forward, I told myself, and be alert. Don’t freak out Sadie and Maddie too much, certainly not yet.
I’d asked Sadie to meet me back at the house by two, and she was already waiting in the driveway. Maddie sat cross-legged on the ground, sorting pebbles into piles of different colors, looking up as she heard my tires crunch the gravel. Her huge smile only swelled my apprehension.
“I think this is the right thing to do,” Sadie assured me, as we walked toward the front door, but I sensed that she felt guilty, too. Mama had worn the tiny key around her neck as long as we could remember. She never took it off, even to shower or swim, and always brushed away our questions about its history. As little girls, we were enthralled by the flea-sized red jewel embedded in it, certain it held some magic powers. We were convinced that the key belonged to a hidden treasure chest, and one restless summer afternoon we even dug holes around the property looking for it.