“What the hell,” she said as his arms went around her.
“Is it a bad time?”
“It’s not that.”
He heard her voice change and she was pushing the papers and her empty cup away. He slid his hands under her T-shirt, and felt the dampness by her armpits.
“Jesus,” she murmured. “You’re hardly in the door.”
“Pretty close. Come on.”
He covered her mouth with his, and felt her rising from the chair. Her breasts flattened against him and his hand traced her spine up and back to her hips, straining now against her track pants.
“You want me so badly,” he whispered. “I just know it.”
“You goof,” she said.
His hand slid around her and pulled her into him. He felt her hips push back and she settled her crotch with a small movement against him. He thought of her ass, of how she was embarrassed in the beginning always but then gave way and stretched, with that cat smile, her eyes almost closed.
She gave a little sigh and he felt her breath puff onto his ear.
His fingers sought the parted flesh and slid over the hairs there, finding their way to her bone and the soft folds he sought.
“You’re terrible,” she whispered. “What’s gotten into you?”
“It’s called ‘We’re on holiday.’ And you made me do it.”
“Me?”
He raised his arms under the T-shirt and did too as he pulled it over her head.
“No staring,” she whispered, but her eyes were almost closed already.
“Will if I want.”
His breath was coming out in short deep gusts now. She held her arms behind her head and opened her eyes.
“Not fair,” she said. “You, you first.”
He tried to keep his eyes on hers while he got his clothes off.
He almost lost his balance with the first leg of his pants.
“How long have you been walking around with that?”
“With what?”
She threw her arms down and lifted the band of his underpants. Then she dropped to one knee to draw them down. Before she had reached his knee, she had grabbed at him.
“No,” he said, lying. “No.”
He felt her teeth settle in, leave and settle in again.
“No, Giuliana?”
She lifted her head, and she slid back on the carpet and kicked off her pants. Her scent reached him and seemed to envelop him, and he stared at her bush as her legs went up, until the cleft appeared. She pulled the last leg off her foot and her hand reached for her crotch.
“Is that what’s on your mind?”
He tried to nod but the muscles in his neck were so tight that he shuddered instead. She was staring at him and the smile was gone. Her hips made a small, sliding movement.
“Let me,” he said. It came out as a croak.
“Let you what?” she whispered. “What should I let you do?”
“Let me do it for you. Come on.”
Her eyelids almost closed.
“Tell me what you want to do.”
He stepped out of his underpants, his penis giving a spasm. His belly contracted in a shiver. Her forefinger had disappeared, he saw.
There was a roaring in his ears, like he was underwater.
He got down on his knees. She reached a leg around him.
“Let me.”
“I haven’t had my shower,” she said.
It was the old fake, and he’d guessed from the start that she’d say it. It was the same way she said her ass was too big, or that her boobs wouldn’t ever go out on a topless beach. It was to dare herself, and him.
He stilled her hand, drew it away. Her hair was like breath on his face, and the soft tissue that met his mouth seemed to dissolve.
She sighed, and seemed to want to draw back. He pulled her more to him until at last he felt her hips begin to move, and to push gently against him.
“You,” she said in a clear voice. “I want to.”
He slowed, and raised his head. Her face was flushed and strange.
“Lie,” she said, turning, and drew up her leg.
“I don’t,” he tried.
“I know I know,” she said, and she pushed against his chest.
She was not tender now. She moved around a lot, tugging and releasing, only to use her tongue in the intervals.
“You should stop,” he said again.
When he felt it, he tried to pull her up.
“Giuliana!”
She pushed at him and then he was lost to the brushing of her hair on his belly. She worked harder, even when he cried out. He tried to sit up again, but then he let go and her mouth clasped around him, and he went still.
Things cascaded through him, an avalanche, as the last tics got weaker. Guilt, some frantic wish he couldn’t pin down, and his senses exploding as everything raced through him, fled, and then crashed over him again.
“Not fair,” he said weakly. “Not fair.”
Then her face was over his. He felt her breasts drag across his chest. She looked at him with an expression that was almost a smile.
“Let me,” he said.
But as he reached for her, she was up.
“We’re not finished,” he called out.
He heard a tap running.
“Be quiet,” she said. “I know. I can’t just get off like that. Not now.”
He listened to the tap water, heard it divert and splash.
When she came back there were water drops on her breasts.
She knelt on the bed and sat back on her legs.
“Let me,” he said. “I want to.”
She smiled now, and it reminded him of how he’d seen a blindman smile.
“I know,” she murmured and let herself be pushed back. “You are so spoiled, kiddie, so spoiled.”
THIRTEEN
It took until four to get to Kitzbuhel proper. Felix didn’t want to flog the Polo to death to get there a half an hour early, especially with the rack and bike frame on top. It would be light until nine anyway, now.
Giuliana had dozed on and off for an hour after they’d hit the M1. He’d stopped to fill the tank just before Spittal, right off the autobahn. They had semmels and wurst not-bad cured ham and the buns were still warm and a few slices of Havarti in a bakery next to the Fina. They sat at a bench to eat them, just as the sun came out. He bought beer before they left.
They were soon amid thickening traffic that he guessed was Salzburg-bound, and he was glad to get off again at Bischofshofen.
He stayed on the main road after, rather than the slower and more scenic route that would have led them by St. Johann.
Giuliana put down a guidebook on Thailand. She looked at the sharp edges on the crests of the Kitzbuheler Alpen that had risen up steadily to their right.
“I can’t stop thinking about that,” she said. “What you did up there. It would give me nightmares for sure. The two, you know…?”
“Who knows,” he said. “You do what you have to. Mom will tell you how squeamish I was when I was a kid.”
Kitzbuhel was fairly cluttered already, with more tour buses than Felix expected. He let the Polo through the outer streets toward the zentrum, eyeing the Beemers and Audis and SUVs. A tour bus with a lot of Asians was jammed at the curve that led to the train station. Giuliana giggled as they inched by and looked up at the faces.
“Banzai!”
“How do you know they’re Japanese?”
“They look like rabbits.”
“Are you one of those racist cops who picks on Albanians and Nigerians, huh?”
“Ouch. Are you Red Brigades? Humour, please, liebchen.”
“Don’t ‘liebchen’ me. I’m not one of your Alpine maidens.”
He turned down the lane he had found the first year he’d come with the ski club in hochschule. They’d gotten drunk before going on the lift and nearly fell off.
He pulled in beside a cream Fiat with a German plate and a Munich crest on the window.
“That might be one of our guys,” he said. “See the rack?”
He looked over at Giuliana and looked around her face, at the faint glow of perspiration high on her forehead. The air conditioning in the Polo had failed a couple of years ago now. It wasn’t worth fixing.