When Felix made no reply, Speckbauer glanced over.
“You’re really not looking forward to this visit are you?”
“I don’t see what purpose it’ll serve.”
“Okay. But police science is not always by the book. It’s memory, like I told you before. Your mind plays tricks. When you retrace your steps up that track, you may remember things.”
“Such as?”
“A remark. A reaction. Maybe the boy pointed at some place.
Or his father, the time you all went up. Your colleague, maybe?”
“We went over our notes and statements pretty thoroughly.”
“I hear you. But what I am saying is not a criticism. I’m not trying to catch anyone out. I’m working with evolution, you see? How the mind switches off certain departments, or how it notices things without the owner of the brain box realizing it. And when the lights go on again, sometimes things you did not notice, they come back.”
TWENTY-TWO
Felix was sure he could smell a sour tang in the air from a kilometre away. Ashes from the house, he supposed, or the scent of burned material, like what lingered after smouldering rubbish was turned to burn. There was nothing visible from the road, but as he turned into the lane he saw the three wreaths hung on the fence.
There was a Gendarmerie Skoda in the farmyard. As Felix parked behind it he saw one of the Gendarmes put down the radio mouthpiece. He stepped out after Speckbauer who was already helloing them. He recognized neither man. He heard running water somewhere. He let his gaze drift around the yard and felt some spacey, acidic glow swelling in his chest. One of the policemen, a tall one who still had ferocious acne even in his thirties, shook hands.
The four men stood, awkwardly and silently, surveying the blackened rubble. It had been saturated, and pools of dark oily water shone dully up between charred rafters and the dark spindly masses that Felix supposed were remnants of furniture. The old kachelofen stood like a dark gravestone in the middle of the destruction. Felix thought of the cat he had seen snoozing there, the cake Mrs. Himmelfarb had cut up and put on plates.
“It was still smoking even this morning,” said the policeman with acne. “We thought we’d have to call in the feuerwehr to hose it again.”
“‘Wood is a friend, wood is a foe,’” said Speckbauer.
“The families are coming this afternoon,” said the other policeman, clearing his throat. “We just got word.”
“Really?”
“The man had a sister, and she is coming with her husband.
From Passail, I believe. She, the lady, had three — a brother and two sisters, but has only a sister left. And that one is coming in also.”
“Animals?” Speckbauer murmured. “Cows?”
“Taken care of,” said the acned one.
The stench began to seem almost visible to Felix, a cloud, or a fog that was permeating his clothes and even soaking his skin. The whitewashed stones that had fronted the old foundations of the house had only one or two places left that the smoke had not blackened. It only made things look worse. He shivered.
“We’re going up to the other place,” said Speckbauer to the two. “Okay?”
Glad as he was to leave the farmyard behind, Felix’s mind rebelled even more at the prospect of trudging up to where Hansi Himmelfarb had brought him such a short time ago.
Speckbauer’s shoe slipped on a wet, grassy mound, and he swore under his breath as he put out a hand to steady himself.
“Dolls, he called them, you said. Right?”
“Yes,” Felix replied. “Dolls, sleeping.”
He heard Speckbauer begin to wheeze with the exertions. This pleased him.
“Did he have, maybe, little stories about these ‘dolls’?”
“No. Not that I remember.”
“Not a novel now, but.”
Felix shook his head. Speckbauer stopped and turned to look back down over the farmyard. It was already half-hidden by the rise of ground in the field between. He turned back, breathing heavily, and looked beyond Felix.
“Now the forest begins,” he said and resumed his slow trudging.
Speckbauer stopped several times, looking around, and as they stopped at the track Speckbauer spent some time looking in both directions, slowly scanning the woods. He dropped to one knee and ran his hand over the pine needles.
“Well they weren’t dropped by a frigging helicopter,” he said, standing. “Come on. It’s close, isn’t it?”
Felix nodded toward the space between trees he remembered.
“The site team had to carry their gear in here,” said Speckbauer. “So as not to mess up any impressions on the road there, or the track. Turns out they needn’t have bothered — there was nothing. Our old friend General Winter seems to have camped in the ground here for a long time.”
The stakes and poles for the tent, along with the yellow perimeter tape, were gone. There were only tags on the trees now.
Speckbauer didn’t hesitate but walked over to where the bodies had been. Felix’s stomach was almost lurching now. He was surprised and ashamed to feel the panic gnawing at his mind. He imagined turning, running down to the road, and not stopping the entire 30-odd kilometres back to Graz.
Speckbauer was eyeing him.
“He must have said something. The boy. Try to put yourself back there.”
Felix tried not to think of his tight, aching stomach that seemed to have something moving slowly in it, and the strange taste beginning to make itself known at the back of his throat. He wanted badly to yell at Speckbauer, to tell him to stop calling Hansi Himmelfarb a boy.
“Nothing,” he said instead. “Sorry.”
“He was talking though?”
“He was talking to himself, words that I couldn’t fit together.
It made no sense.”
“Words: a nursery rhyme, your notes said?”
“It was like a nursery rhyme. He kept repeating himself, over and over again. Nonsense words.”
Speckbauer looked into the forest. Felix was looking at his watch when Speckbauer turned. He nodded toward the track.
“It’s only ten minutes,” he said to Felix. “No more.”
Speckbauer slowed in places, looking around trees, and stepping between brambles. Twice he went down on his haunches to stare at the decayed leaves and pine needles.
“I know the crew was up and down here a half-dozen times,” he said. “But don’t be surprised at what a cop nose can still find, even afterwards.”
He looked up toward the crowns of the trees.
“Planted, what, say thirty years?”
“Looks about that to me,” said Felix. “Replanted, it would be, though.”
Speckbauer gave him a keen glance.
“Right,” he said. “Good. So this weg here, this track, it hasn’t been here forever, has it?”
“Who knows? They come in every few years, and they thin out the lower branches.”
“Why do you say that? Do you know this place?”
“No. But I know a bit about woodland, how it’s managed.”
Speckbauer slowed again, and he looked down near his feet, before walking on.
“Deer?” he said. “There’s hunting still?”
“It’s what people do around here.”
They walked on, past the orange ribbons that had been attached to tree trunks. Felix was sure he could still smell the charred remains of the farmhouse, even up here. They rounded small clumps of bushes that already had brambles entwined in vigorous growth about them.
“Nobody drove in here,” Speckbauer said. “And whoever these two turn out to be, they won’t be Martians either.”
A monologue intended to be overheard, Felix decided. He said nothing. His mind felt muffled, and he was beginning to believe that he couldn’t hold the unease from becoming a dread that would make him want to just run back down to the car and drive like hell away from here. Every sound, even Speckbauer’s careful steps through the undergrowth, and the occasional bird call, seemed amplified. The trees looked different, looming, and even the sky felt too close.