There were two windows in the garage, both covered with curtains. I closed the garage door behind me and made my way to one of the windows, following the gray light that seeped through the dirty curtains. I banged my ankle against something hard and felt the skin break under my pants. The patrol car had stopped just outside the garage. I could hear the engine. I could hear the voices as the cops got out.
“Right there, by those bushes,” came a voice.
“So why didn’t you say so when we came past?” came a rasping complaint.
“I … I just wasn’t sure, and you were talking,” the first voice said.
A flashlight beam scanned the curtains of the garage and footsteps moved across the grass.
“Well,” sighed the raspy cop.
I held my breath and waited. And then they stopped, and one of them started to try the door.
“Maybe I just …” he began.
“Maybe you just,” the raspy voice agreed. “Let’s get over to Mel’s and have something to eat.”
The car doors closed and the engine hummed away, but I didn’t move for a few seconds. I pushed back the curtain and found myself looking into the eyes of an alley cat who was perched on the ledge outside. San Francisco was filled with cats. I’d have to tell Dash about this.
Then I turned around. This was not the simple one-car garage of a happy family with a mom and pop and a couple of fat kids. The place was full of bicycles and parts of bicycles. Tires and wheels hung from hooks on the ceiling. Biking helmets and handlebars were mounted on one wall like a hunter’s antler trophies. A table in one corner was lined with cans of paint. Either Santa Claus lived here or I’d stumbled on a stolen bicycle shop.
My heart soared like a bird. I could be a self-righteous thief. I could steal a bike and feel like MacArthur liberating stolen property and giving it to a deserving peasant, me. I picked the nearest bike, a man’s bike with a bad paint job. I didn’t have time to go quietly through the pile. It would have to do. I found a dirty white painter’s cap with the word ZOSH printed across the brow in nail polish or something else red, and plunked it on my head.
I wheeled the bike to the door, opened the door, and went outside. Dawn was coming fast. I could see light from the sun. I looked into the alley. No cop car. I looked back at the house behind the garage and something caught my eye. A man was standing in the second-floor window looking out at me. He was big, bearded, and naked, and he did not like what he saw. He threw open the window as I ran the bike into the alley and jumped on.
“You goddamn thief,” the man hissed, but he didn’t yell, which confirmed my belief that this bike and the others weren’t kosher. The man wasn’t shouting for help or running after me with a gun. The man was a thief, and he was taking his losses rather than draw attention to himself and his vocation.
I was pumping like crazy just in case the man in the window decided not to take his loss easily. I sailed into the street and felt a gentle push of wind off the ocean. It was a cool morning, but I took off my shirt as I rode and stuffed it under the handlebars. An overaged morning biker, head down, racing against a stopwatch in his mind.
I decided to stick to side streets. People were getting up and out of their houses and apartments. Kids were slouching bleary-eyed out to the curb to catch school buses. A truck inched past me and the guy inside hurled a bundle of San Francisco Chronicles past my head onto the front steps of a brownstone house.
I don’t know what time I hit downtown. I had no watch. I biked straight up the street, head down, pumping as hard as I could, not looking right or left. I asked an old black woman with a shopping bag how to get to the Trocadero Hotel. I found it at the bottom of a hill right next to a cable car turnaround. A couple of men and a woman were pushing a cable car to point it back up the hill.
I parked the bike against a tree. There was a good chance the bike would be stolen, but the bike was accustomed to that by now. I shoved the Zosh hat in my back pocket and put my shirt back on. It was a wrinkled mess. I looked at myself in the window of a drugstore. I was a mess of wild hair, sticking straight up from wearing the cap, and bristly gray hair on my face from not shaving. What the hell. I walked into the lobby of the Trocadero Hotel as the cable car clanged behind me to let people know it was ready to roll.
The hotel was small, the lobby narrow. A skinny old man in a dark suit was standing behind the counter drinking a cup of coffee and going through a stack of cards. He looked up at me and stopped.
“Miss Tenatti’s room,” I said.
He didn’t move.
“It’s been a tough night,” I said, reaching over to shake his hand. “I can see you recognize me. We’ve been shooting down by the wharf.”
“I …” the old man began.
“Buster Crabbe,” I said, showing my profile. “Haven’t had time to get out of costume.”
“I don’t …” the old man said, looking around for help.
“Just give Vera a call and tell her Toby is here,” I said, leaning over confidentially. “That’s our private name. You understand.”
“Private … yes, Mr. Crabbe,” he said, and picked up the phone, keeping his eyes on me.
I grinned and looked around as if I were considering buying the place.
“Miss Tenatti? Yes. Mr. Buster Crabbe is …”
“Tell her Toby,” I interrupted.
“Toby,” he corrected. “Yes. Of course.”
He hung up and looked at me.
“She said you should come right up,” he said. “Room four-fourteen. You look much different in your films.”
“Makeup,” I said, taking a step toward the elevator.
“Now or in the movies?” he asked.
I laughed falsely and stepped into the elevator. The elevator woman glanced at the desk clerk, who nodded that it was all right to take me up.
Vera was waiting for me at the open door. She was wearing a silky pink nightgown.
“You look terrible,” she said, putting her hand to her mouth and stepping back to let me in.
I went into the room, looked around for Passacaglia, and plopped on the unmade bed. From nowhere Miguelito leaped onto my chest and tried to eat one of my shirt buttons. I petted him. He didn’t bite.
“The police are looking for you,” Vera said.
“I know,” I said, my eyes closed. “You have anything to eat?”
“No … yes, some doughnuts,” she said. “But I’m starting on health food to … Lorna’s dead.”
I pushed Miguelito away and sat up as Vera handed me a dish with two doughnuts.
“She’s dead,” I agreed.
“They think you killed her,” Vera said, touching her beestung lower lip with her thumb. Her pink silk gown opened slightly at her breasts.
I downed the doughnuts.
“Anything to drink?” I asked.
“Water?”
I got out of bed and moved into the small bathroom. I filled a glass and drank five glasses of not-quite-cool water. Vera and the dog watched me. I looked at her in the mirror. She looked soft and fresh. I looked at myself. I looked like a hairy, overripe avocado.
“You have a razor?”
“Yes, in the cabinet. Fresh blades are … you’ll see them.”
I took off my shirt, opened the cabinet, found the razor, put in a blade, and shaved as we talked.
“Who would kill Lorna?” she asked.
“Rance, Johnson, and Minnie,” I said. “She told me before she died. You know them?”
“Rance, John … They’re characters in La Fanciulla del West,” she said.
“Interesting. She also told me to shave,” I said. “I’m shaving.”
I finished, found some toothpowder, rubbed it on my teeth, washed my face, and ran my fingers through my hair. I looked in the mirror and saw something that resembled a tired me.
“I’m supposed to go to a rehearsal,” she said. “At ten. With Lorna dead … I don’t … I don’t belong here. Martin came here last night. He tried to … I shouldn’t be here. And what am I going to do with Miguelito?”