One of the hostesses was perhaps the last black woman in Berlin. Her name was Ella. She sat at a table playing Solitaire using a pack of cards featuring photographic portraits of our beloved Nazi leaders. I joined her and watched for a while and she said that it improved her luck so I bought her a glass of lemonade and talked out the right cards for her; and when I gave her one of my precious American cigarettes she was all smiles and offered to ride the horse for me.
‘For fifty pfennigs you can see my thighs. For seventy-five you can see the mouse and everything in its mouth. I’m not wearing any underwear.’
‘Actually I was rather hoping to see Fräulein Tauber.’
‘She doesn’t work here any more. Not for a long time.’
‘Where does she work now?’
Ella took a lazy puff of her cigarette and remained silent.
I pushed a note across the table. There were no pictures on it like the ones on the backs of the cards but she hardly minded about that. I let her reach for it and then put my finger on the little black eagle in the corner.
‘Is she at the New World?’
‘That dump? I should say not. She tell you that she works there?’ She laughed. ‘It means she doesn’t want to see you again, darling. So why don’t you forget her and watch me ride that pony.’
The Negress was tapping Morse code on the other end of the bill. I let it go and watched it disappear into a brassiere as large as a barrage balloon.
‘So, where does she work?’
‘Arianne? She runs the cloakroom at the Jockey Bar. Has for a while. For a girl like Arianne, there’s plenty of money to be made at the Jockey.’
‘In the cloakroom?’
‘You can do a lot more in a cloakroom than just hang a coat, honey.’
‘I guess so.’
‘We got a cloakroom here, Fritz. It’s nice and dark in there. For five marks, I could take real care of all your valuables. In my mouth, if you wanted.’
‘You’d be wasting your time, Ella. The only reason they let me come back from the front was because I don’t have any valuables. Not any more.’
‘I’m sorry. That’s too bad. Nice-looking fellow like you.’
Her face fell a little and, for a moment, seeing her sympathy, I felt bad about lying to her like that. She had a kind way about her.
I changed the subject.
‘The Jockey,’ I said. ‘Sure I know it. It’s that place off Wittenberg Platz, on Luther Strasse. Used to be a Russian place called Yar.’
The Negress nodded.
‘I’ve only ever seen it from the outside. What’s it like?’
‘Expensive. Full of Amis and big-shots from the Foreign Ministry. They still play American jazz there. The real stuff. I’d go myself but for one rather obvious disadvantage. Coloureds ain’t welcome.’
I frowned. ‘The Nazis don’t like anyone except Germans. You should know that by now, gorgeous.’
She smiled. ‘Oh, I wasn’t talking about them. It’s the Amis who don’t like coloureds in the place.’
From the outside, the Jockey Bar certainly sounded like the old Berlin from before the war with its easy morals and vulgar charms. Others thought so too. A small crowd of jazz fans stood on the sidewalk in the dark enjoying the music but unwilling to pay the prohibitive cost of going inside. To save paying the entrance fee myself I flashed the beer-token in my raincoat – a little brass oval that said I was police. Unlike most Berlin cops I’m not fond of trying to score a free one off an honest business, but the Jockey Bar was hardly that. Five marks just to walk downstairs was little better than theft. Not that there weren’t plenty of people already down there who seemed more than willing to be robbed. Most of them were smart types, with quite a few wearing evening dress and Party buttons. They say crime doesn’t pay. Not as well as a job does at the Foreign Office or the Ministry of Propaganda. There were also plenty of Americans, as Ella had said there would be. You could recognize them by their loud ties and their even louder voices. The Jockey Bar was probably the one place in Berlin you could speak English without some fool in a uniform trying to remind you that Roosevelt was a gangster, a Negroid maniac, a warmonger in a wheelchair, and a depraved Jewish scoundrel; and the Germans who really disliked him had some even more unpleasant things to say.
At the bottom of the stairs was a cloakroom where a girl was filing her nails or reading a magazine and sometimes she managed to do both at the same time. You could tell that she was clever. She had dark hair and plenty of it but it was tied up like a velvet curtain at the back of her head. She was thin and she was wearing a black dress and I suppose she was good-looking in an obvious sort of way, which, lacking all subtlety, is the way I usually like my women; but she wasn’t Arianne Tauber.
I waited for the girl to finish her nail or her picture caption and to notice me and that seemed to take longer than it ought to have done with the lights on.
‘This is a cloakroom, isn’t it?’
She looked up, gave me the up and down and then, with a well-manicured hand, ushered my eyes to the coats – some of them made of fur – that were hanging on the rail behind her.
‘What do those look like? Icicles?’
‘From here it looks as if I’m in the wrong line of work. You, too, if I’m not mistaken. I had the strange idea that you’re supposed to be the first line of welcome in this upmarket shell-hole.’
I took off my coat and laid it on the counter and she stared at it with distaste for a moment before dragging it away like she was planning to kill it and then handing me a ticket.
‘Is Arianne here tonight?’
‘Arianne?’
‘Arianne Tauber. That’s Tauber as in Richard Tauber, only I wouldn’t like to have him sitting on my lap.’
‘She’s not here right now.’
‘Not here as in not working or not here as in she just stepped outside for a few minutes?’
‘Who wants to know?’
‘Just tell her that Parsifal is here. That’s Parsifal as in the Holy Grail. Talking of which, I’ll be in the bar if she does show up.’
‘You and everyone else, I guess. There’s the bar and then there’s the bar, see? And if you get bored in there you can try the bar. That’s bar as in Jockey Bar.’
‘You were listening after all.’
I went into the bar. The place needed a coat of paint and a new carpet, but not as much as I needed a drink and a set of earplugs. I like music when I’m drinking. I even like jazz, sometimes, just so long as they remember where they left the melody. The band at the Jockey Bar was a three-piece trio, and while they knew all the notes of ‘Avalon’ these were in no particular order. I sat down at a table and picked up the drinks card. The prices felt like mustard gas on my eyeballs and when I’d picked myself off the floor, I ordered a beer. The waitress came back almost immediately carrying a tray on which stood a tall glass filled with gold, which was the nearest thing to the Holy Grail I’d seen since the last time I bought a forty-pfennig stamp. I tasted it and found myself smiling like an idiot. It tasted exactly like beer.
‘I must be dead.’
‘That can be arranged,’ said a voice.
‘Oh?’
‘Take a look around, Parsifal. This louse house is jumping with important Nazis. Any one of these stuffed shirts could pick up the telephone and get you a seat on tomorrow’s partisan express.’
I stood up and pulled out a chair for her. ‘I’m impressed. That you know about the partisan express.’
The partisan express was what German soldiers called the troop train that travelled between Berlin and the eastern front.
‘I’ve got a brother in the Army,’ she explained.
‘That’s hardly an exclusive club. Not any more.’