Nancy shook her head. “A senior.”
“Oh, gosh,” my mother said, as if a senior were as rare as a black pearl or an endangered tree frog.
“We better go,” I said loudly. “See you later.” I did not look at Nancy, and I hoped that she would know by my not looking that I recognized this exchange as merely random and would never try to talk to her again-that I might even, to make up for my transgression, go out of my way not to talk to her.
“Enjoy the weekend,” Mr. Daley called after us. Once outside, I realized I was actually holding on to the sleeve of my mother’s turtleneck, tugging her along. I dropped my hand and surveyed the circle and the other buildings-many more people were wandering around-and felt a sense of dread at the thought of completing this tour, let alone of enduring the rest of the weekend. They’d leave after brunch the next morning, which was only twenty-two hours away, and for roughly ten of those hours, they’d be at their motel. So twelve hours. But twelve hours was infinite! If we left campus, it would be different. If we went into Boston, say-in Boston, we’d get along, we could visit the aquarium or walk the Freedom Trail or sit in a restaurant, eating clam chowder; I would even let my mother take my picture inside, right there at the table.
But we were at Ault; it was best just to move forward into the next moment. As we walked toward my dorm, my mother said, “And Martha will be there now?”
“She should be.”
“Will her parents be there?”
“They got in yesterday, so they’re probably just at their hotel now.”
“Where are they staying?”
I hesitated. “I don’t know.”
“And Martha’s dad is a doctor, right?”
“No, he’s a lawyer.”
“Why did I think he was a doctor?”
“I don’t know.” This, too, was a lie. She thought so because Dede’s father was a doctor.
“Be sure to introduce us to Martha’s mom and dad at the lunch. I want to tell them thank you for how nice they’ve been to you.”
I did not respond. Her questions, her little efforts-didn’t she know that Easterners didn’t really care? Niceness for its own sake wasn’t a virtue to them. I could remember talking about this once with her, in a conversation during my Christmas vacation the year before. I’d been sitting at the kitchen table reading the newspaper and she’d been standing at the sink with her yellow rubber gloves on, washing pans. She had wanted to know, was it true that people in Massachusetts weren’t friendly like at home? I said that it was a stereotype, but that, like most stereotypes, it contained some truth (this statement was, verbatim, one I’d recently heard a senior, a guy who was head of the debate team, make at a formal dinner when we’d been assigned to the same table). Then I said that it didn’t bother me that much, the unfriendliness, that you got used to it. At the time, the topic had made me feel smart and grown-up, to be talking with my mother not about how the Martzers had finally painted their house, or how it looked like Bree Nielsen had gained weight, especially in the face-no, not chitchat, but an idea, a concept. Heading toward the dorm, I wondered if my mother had any memory of our conversation.
I knocked on the door to the room Martha and I shared, in case she was changing clothes. “Come in,” she called, but before I could reach for the knob, my mother had stepped forward, pulled her glasses down to the tip of her nose, and was peering over the top of them at the photographs taped to our door. She pointed, her finger touching the photo, at one of Martha and me side by side in a swimming pool, gripping the side so only our arms and shoulders and wet heads were visible. “Now where was this taken?”
“At Martha’s house.”
“When were you there that it was warm enough to swim?”
“Right before school started this year.”
“That’s not your striped bathing suit, is it?”
“I was borrowing one of Martha’s suits.”
“I didn’t think it looked like the striped one, but-”
“You can come in,” Martha called again from the other side of the door, and I called back, “Two seconds.” I looked at my mother. “Any other questions?” I wasn’t even being sarcastic, not completely, but when her eyes widened, I could tell I’d injured her.
“Must be nice having a pool,” my father said. He said it the same way he’d said he wouldn’t mind meeting a senator, and I felt my irritation with him blossom into genuine anger.
I opened the door. Martha was sitting on the futon, folding laundry and setting it on the trunk we used as a table, and, as we entered the room, she stood. With my parents still behind me, I flared my nostrils and rolled my eyes. Martha smiled at my expression, but then she turned it into a smile for my parents’ benefit, walking toward us with her arm extended. “It’s great to finally meet you,” she said. She shook their hands and asked them about the drive and what they thought of Ault so far.
“It’s just so pretty,” my mother said.
Martha nodded. “Sometimes when I’m walking around I want to pinch myself because I can’t believe I get to live in such a beautiful place.” Was this true? I felt that way myself, but Martha was more accustomed to fancy things than I was. Maybe she was being polite-truly polite, not bare-minimum-polite like Nancy Daley.
“Martha, Lee told us about you being elected to the discipline committee,” my mother said. “What a big honor.”
“Thanks,” Martha said, and I said, “She wasn’t elected. She was chosen by the headmaster.”
“That’s what I meant,” my mother said. “I think it’s terrific. Your dad must be real proud.”
For several seconds, no one spoke.
“Didn’t he go to Ault, too?” my mother said, but her voice was thinning with doubt. “I thought-”
“No, he did,” Martha said. How had my mother known that part, when had I told her? And why had she felt the need to bring up any of it? So this was where I got my tendency to hoard information about other people, though at least I knew better than to mention the information in front of them. “But it’s funny, actually,” Martha was saying, “because my dad didn’t have the greatest time here. It was when it was still all-boys, and I guess there was a lot of hazing. When it came time for me to apply to boarding school, he was like, you can go anywhere except Ault. And of course Ault is the place I ended up liking the best.”
“I’m glad to know Flea isn’t the only one who disobeys her parents,” my father said.
Martha laughed. “Flea?” she repeated. “You never told me that one.” To my father, she said, “I can’t imagine Lee being disobedient.”
“Then you have a very weak imagination, Martha.”
At this, she really laughed. It would almost be worse for Martha to like my parents than not to like them. If she did, then for the rest of the weekend, every time all of us were together I’d be waiting for her positive impression to crack. Not that it should crack, not that I thought badly of my parents, but if one of my classmates liked them, even Martha, it would probably be-I could see it now, watching her talk to them-because they seemed “refreshing,” or perhaps “authentic.” Precisely because they were disheveled, because my father used colorful expressions, because they’d driven from Indiana. But anyone who saw my parents as cute would surely be disappointed. My father in particular had his own ideas and appetites, and he was not like a lamb in a petting zoo who would not bite back.
“Martha, you don’t play soccer, do you?” my mother said.
Martha shook her head. “Field hockey.”
“That’s what I thought. Do you have a game this afternoon, too?”
“Everyone has games today,” I said.
“Will Martha’s game be at the same time as yours, Lee? Because, Martha, we’d love to get to see you”-my mother made little quote marks with her fingers-“ ‘in action.’ ”
“That’s so nice of you,” Martha said. It was difficult to imagine her parents suggesting they attend one of my games, and impossible to imagine them having done so within the first ten minutes of meeting me. “My game’s at two-thirty, and, Lee, when is yours?”