She put her hand up in the air above both their heads.
This one is not the best. In my home, it’s the best one. You cannot believe. The lamb is kill very fresh. In the morning, he is alive, run around. In the afternoon, he is hanging up. Cut the meat, put the fire.
He nodded.
You never eat so good in you life. The bread, my mother bake.
She went on:
In my home is the mountain, forest. River. Everything.
He watched her silhouette. She started to say something else and stopped.
What?
You guess.
Then give me something to go on.
I am not the Chinese.
I thought you were.
No. One half.
She leaned forward, the bottom half of her face coming out of the shadow. He stared at her chin.
What are you?
You guess.
He didn’t know.
The Muslim people. Eats lamb.
She grinned and bit her skewer and slid the meat off with her teeth.
Are you messing with me?
She walked around in the dark smiling at him.
He shrugged.
She poked his shin with her sneaker toe.
You surprising?
No. I knew there was something different about you.
Maybe you don’t want to play games anymore.
That’s not true.
To hug.
Yeah, I do. Quit movin and I’ll show you in a heartbeat.
They were in a KFC in a chaotic Spanish and black neighborhood. They had walked here, having travelled down a rolling stretch of tall trees and small houses, a narrow strip of sidewalk to go on, sometimes going in ranger file with her in the lead, stepping over sodden cardboard which could have been where people camped. The restaurant’s windows were steamed over, and gangs of teenagers in matching red colors and blowout afros were calling back and forth across the place. She saved a booth, her face windburned, eyes bright. He came back from the counter carrying their dinner, his boots just missing the feet in red and black Jordans which were extended in the aisle.
He set the tray in front of her. She clapped her hands.
We has everything!
I know. Here’s your Coke.
He sat down and something heavy in his pack, which he had again worn to see her, clunked the seat. He shrugged out of it and set it under the table between his boots. They reached into the chicken bucket. She leaned forward, eating with both hands. The skin came off his chicken and he put it in his mouth and wiped his face. He wiped his hands, which, even when washed, looked as if he had been handling charcoal, the nails outlined.
At the next table, a female voice was hollering, Is you ready to stop bullshittin? And a gale of hooting went up around the place. In ecstasy, one of the teenagers screamed and stamped the floor with his Jordans.
You want ice cream? Skinner asked Zou Lei.
Ice cream! Maybe, she nodded. Maybe it is nice.
I know I’m feelin it.
He got them cones. When they were halfway done, he moved around and sat next to her on her side and reached under the table and squeezed her thigh. There was no resistance in her leg, as if the warmth of the restaurant had relaxed her joints.
How’s that ice cream, baby?
Good!
She licked the side of the cone. He watched her, his mouth a flat line. Slowly he slid his hand up her leg. He swallowed. He put his hand all the way up between her legs and squeezed.
How’s that.
He glanced at her.
She nodded, concentrating on her cone as if he wasn’t there. He swallowed again. She kept her eyes straight ahead. His arm was working under the table. Heat through her jeans. He pretended to eat his ice cream. A minute later, she sighed and shifted forward, hiding her face from the loud restaurant and from him. She flushed, as if in mortification, and opened her legs. He heard her breathing. Her jeans damp. He kept working, glancing sideways again. Then she tremored — it was distinct. She swayed and went weak and pressed against his arm.
Outside, he held her around the waist, saying to her:
It don’t matter where we go, we just gotta go somewhere. You feel that?
He pressed against her leg.
Yeah, I feel.
He was scanning around for a black car that might be a cab.
You bring the thing?
The what?
The… the biyuntao?
What, a rubber? Yeah, I got that. There’s one. Let me flag this fool down.
A Lincoln Town Car pulled up in front of them, aerial waving, and Skinner and Zou Lei got into the leather backseat, a wooden cross dangling from the rearview with the air freshener and reggaeton ratatatting from the speakers.
Dude, I want to go to a hotel near here, like not too far away. You got me? Like what hotels are there?
The driver, who they could barely see, said he would take them to Queens Boulevard.
And we can’t go to your place, right? Skinner asked Zou Lei.
No, they could not do that, because she had roommates.
Good to go, Queens Boulevard.
But right when the driver put his foot on the gas, Skinner had to tell him to wait. Just hold it, thirty seconds. He jumped out and Zou Lei watched him run back into the KFC. Then he came out carrying something, and it was the assault pack with the pistol in it, which he had left forgotten under the seat where they were sitting.
The first time he had taken his shirt off in front of her — this was in the motel they went to in Rego Park — she had seen his yellowish gray torso in the lamplight, which cast a warmer color on him, giving his skin a life it didn’t have on its own. She had not been paying attention. But then her hand had moved from his shoulder and touched his back. She withdrew and they stopped kissing for a moment. She gave him a little push to turn him so she could examine him in the lamplight. He said oh that.
She hadn’t known what it was, had not connected it to the war. She had thought it was a birth defect or a contagious disease.
You can’t like catch anything from it.
She said okay. She touched it. The tissue felt cold.
It hurts?
Not really.
She laid her palm on the dented puckered slick bumpy knotted flesh.
You get in the war?
He said yeah.
She made a tsking sound.
They shoot you in the body?
Shrapnel, he said, his back to her in the lamplight.
She examined him for a moment longer. Sighed. She moved her hand up above the damage and smoothed her palm across the death wings spread across his shoulders.
9
HE FOUND A ROOM on Craigslist that was in her area, one stop further out on the Long Island Railroad. From Chinatown, he took the bus up Franklin and got off at 160th Street. They were all small houses under the power lines, with sneakers tossed over them. The curbs were worn-down, creating the illusion of pooled water sheeted over the ground, as after a rain. Through the trees, you could see the train tracks and the graffiti on the rocks.
One of the houses had its postage-stamp yard filled with statues and figurines — of elves, wise men, the crucifixion, leprechauns, animals, plastic flowers, a sleigh, a whirligig that spun in the wind. There were wind chimes on the porch and an American flag bumper sticker for 9/11 on the house. This was where he was going. Behind the lace curtains in the windows, the house had a dead appearance. There were angels too. In the upstairs window, the venetian blinds were broken.
Circumnavigating a pickup — there were no bumper stickers on the pickup — that had been left parked on the cracked sidewalk, he went to the side door and knocked.