"I don't want to talk about him any longer," Victoria announced. She gave Hunter a frown and then turned back to Taylor. "Do you think Lucas will want to talk to you tonight?"
"Probably. I'm dreading it," she admitted. "I honestly don't know what I'm going to say to him. I shouldn't have to soothe him, should I?"
"Just tell him the truth," Victoria advised. "If you love him, you're going to have to start trusting him."
"I do trust him." So easy to say and so difficult to do, she thought.
Victoria shook her head. "You've got an odd way of showing it. You trust him to protect your children, but I don't believe you trust him with your heart yet."
"Why should I?" Taylor realized she'd raised her voice and immediately lowered it to a whisper again when she added, "The man doesn't want to be married. How do you think he'd react if he knew I loved him?"
Taylor didn't wait for her friend to venture an answer. "Trapped," she whispered. She turned her gaze to Lucas and glared at him, while she wondered why he had to be such a difficult man.
"'Men are deceivers ever, one foot in sea, and one on shore, to one thing constant never.' William," she added with a nod.
"You've got that right," Taylor muttered.
Victoria let out a loud sigh. "I shouldn't be giving you advice," she said. "But I would suggest that if Lucas gets the upper hand in your discussion, and you can't come up with a logical argument, use William."
Taylor perked up. "And what quotes do you suggest I use?"
Victoria nibbled on her lower lip while she considered what would be most appropriate. A minute passed in silence, then she said, "I've got it. 'In a false quarrel there is no true valour.'"
Taylor repeated the quotation. Then she nodded. Victoria added another quote to use in the event Lucas's temper still hadn't cooled down. Taylor repeated the second quotation and nodded once again.
Victoria was yawning every other minute now. Taylor stood up and then helped her friend to her feet. Both women deliberately ignored the men. Victoria started to turn away, then stopped. "Don't you wonder why he rode so hard to get here? Hunter said he had to have set some kind of record. He seemed in an awful hurry for a man who doesn't want to be married."
She whispered good night and then circled the campfire to get to the wagon. She didn't look at Hunter. She knew she'd make a fool of herself if she tried to be civilized and say good-bye to him. She couldn't be sophisticated tonight. She was hurting too much. Why in God's name had she allowed herself to become so attached to him?
Victoria lifted the flap at the back of the wagon, stepped up on the crate, and then climbed inside. She was crying before she got the first button at the top of her dress undone.
Taylor was too restless to sleep. She didn't want to sit back down by the fire and be ignored by her husband any longer. She'd had enough of his rudeness. She decided to go for a walk. She needed a few minutes alone to get her emotions under control. The anticipation of the inevitable confrontation was making her a nervous wreck. She would have to explain everything to him. He deserved to know the truth, and oh, God, that meant telling him about Malcolm. She honestly didn't know if she had the strength or the courage. She turned away from her husband and hurriedly walked back to the stream.
The men watched her leave. Hunter was the first to speak. "Your face on fire yet? Your wife's glare was hot enough to burn you."
"Victoria was giving you the same attention," Lucas pointed out. "Are you going to walk away from her?"
"I can't see any other way," Hunter answered. "What happened in Chicago?"
Lucas took the hint. Hunter didn't want to talk about Victoria.
"Caulder was hiding out at his brother's place."
"You called that one."
"I didn't get him. A couple of bounty hunters got in my way. Caulder left in a hurry though. He didn't have time to pack."
"He left the gold behind."
Lucas nodded. "I wired Travis and told him where it was. Caulder thinks I've got his fortune."
"Are you going after him again?"
"I won't have to," Lucas explained. "He's going to come looking for me. They took Caulder's brother in. He was raving about Caulder blaming me for ruining his life. Said he'd get even. Can you believe it, Hunter? The bastard's talking revenge because I cost him his career and his gold? He's conveniently forgotten he ordered eight men killed and watched them die."
"He ordered nine men killed," Hunter reminded him. "You were also supposed to die, remember?"
"I remember."
"And you're still trying to figure out why you're still alive, aren't you?"
Lucas unfolded his legs and stood up. "Taylor's stewed long enough," he announced. He turned to go after his wife. "And I'm real curious to hear her reasons for coming here. They're bound to make me crazy."
Taylor had stood by the edge of the stream listening to the sounds of night. The crickets were out in force tonight. The sound they made in unison had a pulsating yet soothing beat. Every now and then an owl would add his voice, and Taylor was thinking how peaceful it was and how very beautiful the trees looked dappled in moonlight, when she heard a rustling of leaves being tread upon on the opposite side of the creek. The image of the huge mountain cat leaping at Victoria came into her mind, and she started shivering. Then she heard the howling of a lone wolf. The animal sounded close. Taylor whirled around and started back to the wagons.
Lucas blocked her path. He stood next to a tree not five feet away from her. One arm was draped over a low-hanging branch.
He hadn't made a sound. She didn't know how long he'd been standing there watching her. The noises of the night no longer frightened her. She felt safe again, and with that comforting feeling came courage.
She clasped her hands behind her back and stared up at her husband. He still hadn't shaved. The beard made him look all the more rugged, and she suddenly wanted to kiss him so she'd feel his whiskers rub against her skin.
"I did a lot of thinking on my way here," Lucas told her. His voice sounded mild, almost pleasant. "And I came to some interesting conclusions. Want to hear them?"
"If you want to tell me," she answered.
He crooked his finger at her. She took another step toward him.
"You and your grandmother had everything all figured out, didn't you? You weren't lying to me when you said I was your plan."
"We didn't have everything…"
He wouldn't let her finish. "I've been manipulated since the day I said I do. Isn't that right?"
She shook her head. "I didn't deliberately…"
Once again he interrupted her. "Yes, you did. Were you afraid I would say no if you asked me?"
"If I asked you what?"
"To be a father."
He answered his own question. It was beginning to become a habit. "Of course you were afraid. You didn't trust me at all, did you?"
With each question he asked, his voice became a little rougher and intense.
"Well?" he demanded.
"I'm waiting to hear my own answer," she told him. "I might as well go back to the wagon while you have our discussion. You have it all figured out, don't you?"
"Taylor, I'm trying to understand how I ended up chasing a wife and three children all the way to Redemption."
She bowed her head. "I know I have a lot to explain," she whispered. "I just need to figure out how." And to find enough courage, she silently added.
He shook his head. "No, that's not the way we're going to do this. I'm going to ask the questions and you're going to answer them. I've got quite a few stored up inside me. And no half answers, Taylor. I've run out of patience."
"Yes," she agreed. "I'll tell you everything." Tears welled up in her eyes. "And after you know the truth, I promise I won't try to stop you."