The whole thing seemed surreal. Dempsey was too calm on the video. The kind of calm that came to people when they had made a difficult decision and felt at peace. He picked up a knife and stroked the blade lovingly while he explained what kind of knife it was, what its purpose was.
He put the first knife down and picked up a broad, gleaming hunting knife with a deadly-looking serrated blade. He explained how it could be used to cut the throat of an animal, how it could be used to gut the animal, to skin the animal.
He picked up a boning knife and explained the process of removing bones and cutting the meat from them. The job took a very sharp knife, he said. Stan talked about how he oiled and honed the blades of his knives himself and took great pride in his work.
The hunting knife and the boning knife were both absent from the table now, Kovac noted.
On the tape, Dempsey picked up a long two-pronged fork, the kind that came with barbecue sets.
“Depending on how a person used this, ”Dempsey said in his flat, monotone voice, “this could be a very effective tool.”
Jesus God.
He talked about his guns, how the first two of the collection had been his father’s, his own pistol from WWII and another he had taken off a dead German.
He talked about the Haas murders, how hard he had worked that case, the rage he had felt in the interrogation room looking at the man who had tortured and murdered a woman and two little children. He talked about how angry he’d been when the lieutenant had pulled him not only from the case but from the rotation, and stuck him on a desk.
“… and now the judge has ruled Karl Dahl’s prior bad acts can’t be admitted into evidence. The jury might find that evidence too significant. The buildup to a triple homicide, the making of a killer. Judge Moore found that to be prejudicial and inflammatory. Well, that’s the whole idea, isn’t it?” Dempsey asked. “Are we supposed to pretend Karl Dahl was a damn Boy Scout before he butchered Marlene Haas and those two children? Of course he wasn’t. He was a criminal and a pervert, but the jury won’t hear about that.”
Dempsey shook his head slowly. “That’s just not right. It’s not right for a judge to take away the prosecution’s case. Judge Moore’s decision puts Karl Dahl one step closer to walking on a triple murder, and she should be ashamed of herself.
“I hear she has a small daughter. I wonder how differently she would feel if her daughter were raped and sodomized and hung up from the ceiling like a slaughtered lamb. I think she’d sing a different tune.”
Holy Christ.
Kovac felt sick.
“Of course, it doesn’t matter now,” Stan Dempsey said.“ Karl Dahl is out, running around loose. Escaped. I don’t know how that could happen, but it did. And I have to do something about that. Someone has to take responsibility. That’ll be me. I’ll do that. The guilty have to pay.
“The guilty have to pay…”
The screen turned to snow.
Stan Dempsey was gone.
16
CAREY WAS SURPRISED when she woke Saturday morning, because she didn’t believe she had slept all night. She had hovered in the strange twilight between consciousness and unconsciousness, denied the rest of sleep, still subjected to the nightmares. She had felt as if she were underwater on a moonlit night, being held under by a hidden force. Dark images of violence had drifted before her, and she had fought to free herself from them, breaking the surface into consciousness, gasping for air, only to be pulled back under moments later.
David had not come to bed. When he had walked her upstairs, he’d told her he would stay in the guest room so she could have the bed to herself and not be disturbed by him moving around. Carey thought he had probably been as relieved as she not to be sharing the bed. As much as she would have liked someone to comfort her, that someone was not her husband. David wasn’t good at taking the role of defender-protector. She was supposed to be strong and self-reliant so he didn’t have to be.
Slowly, carefully, painfully, Carey eased herself up to sit for a moment with her feet over the side of the bed. A little dizziness buzzed around her brain, but not as bad as she had thought it would be. The next step was to stand, and she managed that. Both knees were sore from landing on the concrete when her assailant had knocked her down. She walked like a ninety-year-old woman, shuffling her way into her bathroom.
The face that greeted her in the mirror was a horror. Black eye, bruised swollen knot on her forehead, stitches crawling over her lip like a centipede. Most adults would be startled to see her. The idea of her daughter seeing her this way for the first time upset Carey more than seeing herself had.
Lucy was only five. She didn’t need to be told anything more than that someone had knocked Mommy down. If she had been a little older, Carey would have worried about what the kids at school might say to her, having overheard their parents’ comments. But at five, children were still mostly interested in innocent things that existed in their immediate orbit.
An overwhelming sense of protectiveness rushed through her, and Carey wanted to take Lucy in her arms and hold her tight and not let anything bad come into her life. The things Carey had seen over the years, as a prosecutor, as a judge… The horrible things she knew one human could do to another for no reason at all… She wanted to shield her daughter from all of it.
She thought of the two foster children found hanging in the basement of the Haas home and wondered if their mother had ever had the same desire.
Moving in slow motion, Carey undressed, dropping the torn slacks and ruined silk blouse on the floor to be discarded later. She took a warm shower, wincing as the water droplets touched the torn skin of her knuckles and her knees. She supposed she should have called Anka to help her, but she was too private a person. David should have been there. Even if he thought she didn’t want him there, he should have been there to offer help and sympathy and comfort.
She wondered what Kovac had made of the scene last night. He was a good cop, and a good cop was a quick study of people and the dynamics between them. He had taken an instant dislike to David; that much had been clear. He had all but accused her husband of having been with another woman when he should have been with her. The fact that that was probably true had been more than Carey wanted to deal with. And she knew Kovac hadn’t missed that either.
She pulled on an old pair of baggy gray sweatpants and a favorite black cashmere cardigan sweater that had been washed and worn so many times it felt like a child’s security blanket wrapped around her.
A quick peek out the front window told her the media had not given up interest in her. Vans from all the local TV stations were parked across the street, their dish antennae standing at attention.
The radio car Kovac had promised sat at the curb in front of the house like a very large guard dog. This wasn’t the first time in her career Carey had needed police protection. Her life had been threatened more than once when she had been prosecuting gang murders. Going head-to-head with gang criminals and their sleazy attorneys was not about winning friends.
Sitting on the bench was no different. A criminal trial always ended with one side unhappy, angry, bitter. The judge was considered a friend only by the winning team.