“He’s cheating on you,” Kovac said.
Carey continued to stare out the window.
“I don’t get it. You’re a strong, independent woman. Why would you put up with that?”
She still didn’t look at him. “You have no direct evidence David is cheating on me… do you?”
“Don’t try to play me, Judge. I’m not stupid, and neither are you.”
Carey was silent for what seemed like a long time. Finally she said in a very soft voice, “Maybe I’m not as strong as you think.”
It was Kovac’s turn to be silent. She could feel him watching her and wondered what he was thinking. That she was in denial? That she was pathetic for staying with a husband who had so little respect for her? She was past denial. On the other count, she pled the Fifth.
“Karl Dahl is still at large?” she asked.
“Yeah. That’s nothing you have to worry about as far as him coming after you,” Kovac said. “He’s got no reason to hurt you. You being his new best friend and all.”
Carey ignored the jab. “Have you been able to enhance the video from the parking ramp?”
“Not yet.”
“Just why are you here, Detective?” she asked, arching a brow. “Not that I don’t enjoy your pleasant company.”
Kovac let go a long sigh and looked at his coffee for a moment. “Stan Dempsey-the lead detective-”
“I know who Stan Dempsey is. What about him?”
“I went to his house this morning. You know, he’s never been right since those murders. I wanted to talk to him about yesterday. He’s got as good a motive as anybody to call you a fucking cunt and try to beat the shit out of you.”
“And?”
“And he wasn’t there,” Kovac said. “He had trashed the place. Shot up the furniture, tipped over tables, smashed stuff. Basically went ape shit, by the look of it. He left a videotape of himself talking about the Haas case, talking about his frustration, his anger. He went on about you, about your rulings. About how he needs to take matters into his own hands and make sure the guilty pay.”
“The guilty,” Carey said. “As in Karl Dahl.”
“And you.”
“Did he threaten me?”
“Not in so many words, but I have reason to believe he could be a danger to you, and possibly to your daughter.”
Carey sat up straight, her pulse quickening. “My daughter? What did he say about my daughter?”
“He’s aware you have a small daughter, and he thinks because of that you should be more sympathetic to the victims, for what they must have gone through,” Kovac said, but he didn’t quite meet her eyes.
Carey slapped a hand down hard on the table. “Don’t treat me like a child, Detective! I’m not some naive little soccer mom. What did he say about my daughter?”
He looked her in the eye then. “He wondered how differently you’d feel toward Karl Dahl if your daughter had been raped and sodomized and hung up from the ceiling like a slaughtered lamb.”
A chill went through Carey like an icicle stabbing her through the back. Tears filled her eyes. The images from the Haas murder scene photos flashed in her head.
“Oh, my God,” she whispered.
The fear that had shaken her earlier came back. Lucy was gone. David was gone. Anka was gone. She had no idea where they were or what might be happening to them. Lucy was who she lived for, who she would die for. The thought of her being hurt, being tortured…
She got up from the table and rushed across the room for the telephone. Dizzy, sick, shaking, she leaned against the counter and punched David’s cell number into the handset.
The phone on the other end rang… and rang… and rang.
“Goddammit, David! Answer the fucking phone!”
Kovac stood up but didn’t seem to know what to do.
Carey cut the call off and dialed again, in case she’d transposed a number the first time. But still David’s phone rang unanswered. The voice mail kicked on and informed her that the customer’s mailbox was full. He wasn’t there for her, just as he hadn’t been the night before, when she’d been in the hospital, and he’d been fucking some whore at the Marquette Hotel.
“Dammit!” she shouted, and hurled the handset against the wall.
She was crying now. Huge, gulping sobs. Fury and helplessness and weakness washed through her in waves, all of it crashing into her-the attack, the pressure of the case, the sense of being in it all alone, and now the knowledge that her child was vulnerable to harm because of her. She put her hands over her face and bent forward as if she had been kicked in the stomach.
“Hey,” Kovac said quietly, touching her arm. “You need to calm down. Nothing’s happened. We’ve got an APB out for Dempsey’s car.”
“How do you know he hasn’t been here already?” Carey demanded.
“The uniforms outside would have seen him.”
“Not if he parked up the street or around the corner. He could have been sitting there, waiting. He could have seen David’s car leave the garage. He could have followed them,” she went on. “Why didn’t you call me the instant you found out Dempsey was missing?”
“So you could have been hysterical half an hour sooner? What good would that have done?” Kovac asked. “I immediately notified the units on this block.
“There’s nothing you could have done that we hadn’t done already,” Kovac said calmly. “I didn’t want to dump this on you over the phone.”
Carey’s anger dropped out from under her. She didn’t have the strength to sustain it. The worry and the fear were drowning out all else.
“I want my daughter,” she whispered. “I need to find my daughter. I need to find David. Why can’t he be here just once when I need him?”
Her voice cracked and she coughed, trying to hold back a sob.
Kovac’s arm wrapped around her shoulders. “Come on,” he whispered. “Let’s sit you down. We’ll find your daughter.”
“I can’t believe any of this is happening,” Carey said in a choked voice. For just an instant she leaned against him, needing to feel the solid support of someone stronger than she was. He smelled of sandalwood soap. The faint scent of cigarette smoke clung to his coat.
“I’m sorry,” she whispered, embarrassed to meet his eyes as she stepped away from him. “I’m sorry.”
“Don’t worry about it,” Kovac said as he herded her back toward the table. “So, you’re human after all. Your secret’s safe with me.”
17
KARL FIGURED THERE likely were no homeless people in the part of town where he was headed. It was a sunny, warm fall day, warm enough that he could discard the ragman’s coat, which he did in a Dumpster behind a closed printing shop. He kept the matted dreadlocks and knit cap, though his head was itching something fierce and he couldn’t stand the feeling. He had no doubt that the ragman’s clothes were full of lice.
He wanted a hot shower, and to shave himself. He imagined he could feel the hairs pushing their way up through the skin on his chest and groin. The idea made his skin crawl.
Checking out his reflection in the printing shop’s barred back window, Karl was pleased enough. The ragman’s pants were baggy on him, on account of Karl’s not being a large man. If he had been a woman, he would have been considered petite. There really was no equal word for a man that he knew of.
He put his hands in the pants pockets and slouched into a sort of lazy S profile. That was a good look, lazy, not in any hurry to get anywhere. No one would think he was running from the law if he didn’t move faster than a shuffle.
Digging through the ragman’s cart, Karl found several pairs of sunglasses, some scratched and broken, some not. He tried them on until he had a good fit, covering the bloodred of his eyes, which would call attention and people would remember.