“It wouldn’t horrify me,” Sarah says dryly, “if she slept with you.”
I stand up. I guess it wouldn’t. Sarah probably thinks Rainey and I have slept together before when she has spent the night with a friend. It doesn’t seem the right time to admit otherwise.
In ten minutes I am standing at Rainey’s door. When I see her face, I’m glad I have a daughter who is a better person than her father. Whether Rainey spends the night or not, I will be there for her Wednesday.
22
The county’s largest courtroom has been set aside for the trial, and it is packed until Judge Tamower announces that in her court prospective jury members in capital murder cases are interviewed in chambers by the judge and lawyers to determine bias. As Judge Tamower, her hands as expressive and lively as a symphony conductor’s, apologizes for the limited parking around the courthouse, I notice that she has had her hair done for the trial. Her usual mass of blond curls, a slightly lighter color today, sits higher than ever on her intelligent head. All is vanity, and why not? We all want to look good for the TV cameras that are parked outside the door. When the elevator doors popped open this morning, the first face I saw was that of Kim Keogh, who, unless I wholly imagined it, winked as if to say that if my fly is unzipped, the cameras will not lie.
I think of Kim, and the picture of Rainey, lying in my bed asleep this morning when I went in to get my clothes, forms an overlay in my mind through which I am still filtering all other thoughts. Yet why should I have been surprised that she would accept my offer to spend the night? The fear etched in her voice when she first called and then gratitude imprinted on her face when she came to the door needed no explanation. Like a eunuch who is uncertain what his job entails, I offered to sleep fully clothed in my bed with her, but perhaps out of deference to Sarah, she asked me to sleep on the couch. No matter. Her face asleep on my pillow when I came in to get my clothes made up for all the sex I’ve never had and may never have with her.
I glance back at Morris, who is seated in the first row behind the defense table. I wish I were defending him instead of his brother. Dressed in the same suit he wore yesterday, which is now rumpled, Morris would at least be some help.
Beside me, Andy, natty as ever in a gray suit and dark tie, seems determined to do some jail time. But after wrestling with it since five o’clock this morning, I have decided his attitude that he is responsible for Pam’s death may play well with the jury, given what I intend to do. He will be furious with me, but I’m not campaigning for his vote.
I catch the eye of my Mississippi expert witness and nod, my heart beginning to sink. If there was ever a witness whose testimony looked bought, Kent Goza has to be right around the top of the list. If the jury can get past his looks, maybe he will do us some good, because the guy is intelligent. Over the telephone Goza sounds authoritative, but in person his words slide out the side of his mouth as if he is trying to give you a deal on some choice Florida swampland. On Dr. Goza a perfectly respectable brown polyester suit looks like the by-product of a chemical used to make plastic explosives.
We should have demanded that the guy send a video of himself, but after five long-distance conversations with him, it never occurred to me that he would come off looking like a door-to-door salesman of child pornography. When a doubt did cross my mind, I dismissed it. How weird could an educated white professional from neighboring Mississippi be?
Well, now I know the answer. Still, this greasy-haired, wormy anorexic from the Magnolia State is convincing about the efficacy of shock in stopping self-abusive behavior in retarded children. Maybe, as Clan suggested yesterday after he had seen him in the men’s room, I should ask the jury to put bags over their heads when he testifies.
It is Olivia who is attracting all the attention. As she waits at the back of the courtroom with her real estate lawyer, heads seem to swivel 180 degrees as the crowd strains to get a look at her. Now cut off from my view at the defense counsel table, I have had a good look at her. It is not as if Olivia is trying to hide from the attention. Wearing a red dress whose color might be more appropriate for Valentine’s Day, she seems amazingly at ease. For all I understand her, she is smiling because she thinks this case may be great for business. By focusing on what is in the human heart and mind, the criminal law seeks to measure what it can never truly know: the intent of the accused at a particular moment in time. We pay a king’s ransom daily to highly trained specialists to understand precisely our motivations in this country. The problem is that “intent,” “heart,” and “mind” are philosophical constructs that for thousands of years have plagued far wiser humans than are gathered in this courtroom today. Science may evolve to the point where future historians will giggle hysterically while they examine judicial artifacts of this period. Given the limitations of our criminal justice system, if Olivia were my client, I would advise her to keep her mouth shut the rest of her life, no matter how innocent she claimed to be. Innocent, of course, she is not. Less than twenty-four hours ago she was lying to my face that she and Andy had not seen each other in weeks. My message to her last night via Karen that if she truly cares about Andy (I do not trust her to tell the truth) she will invoke the Fifth Amendment and not testify seems doomed to be ignored.
However, as a subpoenaed witness, Olivia will not formally be making that decision until she is called to the witness box.
There is no way she and Andy can keep their stories straight, and it will be Andy the jury will punish.
Judge Tamower’s chambers (actually Judge RafFerty’s) are, by way of contrast to the courtroom, rather cramped. Potential jurors, like job applicants, come in one by one and sit at the head of a small conference table. Jill and Kerr Bowman face Andy and me. Judge Tamower, motherly (she has five-year-old twin boys) and businesslike at the same time, presides from the other side of a desk perpendicular to the table, clucking directions at her clerk, a bailiff, and the court reporter who round out our group. Andy and I have reached a compromise of sorts. He agrees with me, as he must to be logically consistent, that any potential juror exhibiting bias, racial or otherwise, should be struck by the judge for “cause,” as the law calls it, or by us using one of our peremptory challenges if we suspect bias but cannot persuade the judge of it. But he is adamant that I also question potential black jurors along with the judge and the prosecutor to determine a bias against whites or in favor of blacks simply based on race. This kind of scrupulousness, in my opinion, is unheard of, and unnecessary in an adversary system. That is the business of the prosecution and the court, not mine.
“My client. Your Honor,” I explain drolly to the judge be fore the first jury panel member is brought before us, “takes, as no client of mine ever has before, the ideal of an impartial jury, as you shall see, very seriously.”
Matters that are essentially trial tactics and strategy are decisions to be made by the attorney, not the client, and while ultimately a client has the theoretical right to fire his lawyer, no judge will permit a defendant to hold the court’s docket hostage to a decision by the accused to fire his attorney in the middle of a trial. Still, I see no harm in humoring Andy’s obsessions at this point. Perhaps he will score some points with Judge Tamower, a liberal, who may be persuaded to see Andy for the unique piece of work he is. At any rate, Andy will be furious with me before this trial is over, if all goes according to plan.
When I ask a young black accountant about Andy’s age whom I would love to have on the jury if he would be any more likely to be sympathetic to Andy because of his race, I get an expected negative reply. Who wants to admit to any bias at all? We’re all one big, happy family. Sure. Though Mr. Bert Williams doesn’t know it, I want him very much.