To her father’s credit, he’d not pressed her. But perhaps, she thought, this too is what he wove into the elaborate tapestry that he and all of those other fathers before him had created.
Smoke leaked from the chimney of the small hut, and she saw movement inside. Jin Li Tam broke her cover and walked the muddy path up to the porch, knocking lightly on the door.
The River Woman met her with a smile. “Lady Tam,” she said, sounding delighted to see her. “Please come in. I’ve just put on some tea.”
Jin kicked off her boots on the porch, then concealed them behind a chair. “Thank you,” she said. Once inside, she saw that the small cottage and its connected shop was even more full than the usual
sacks and jars, overflowing from the counters onto the table and stacked in some instances to half her
height.
“War is tragic but good for business,” the River Woman said. “Magicks for hooves, magicks for men,
magicks for blades and interrogation. Even the physicians have orders in, anticipating their own work ahead.” The woman clucked. “Men and their violenond s fce,” she said. She poured tea into two ceramic cups and placed one in front of Jin Li Tam. “But enough of death,” the River Woman said as she sat
down across from her. “Let’s talk of life.”
Jin Li Tam nodded and sipped her tea. It had a strong lemon and honey flavor to it, going down smooth and hot. “I’ve used the last the powders,” she said. “I will need more.”
The River Woman smiled. “I can’t give you any more,” she said.
Jin Li Tam blinked and set down the cup. She felt a moment of panic, and it folded in on itself, reproducing more anxiety as she realized how afraid it made her that she might not be able get more of the powders and continue her attempts with Rudolfo. As much as she hated the deception-and had even convinced herself a dozen times that she would tell him-she’d gotten quite adept at slipping the powders into his drinks in those hours before they were to be together. She knew that telling him about this deception meant leaving footprints that he could follow back to other deceptions, eventually seeing her father’s work-and her own work in support of her father-in his life.
She could not bear the way he would look at her once he realized that House Li Tam had murdered his brother, his parents and his closest friend in order to move his life in a direction one man thought it should go in.
All of this flashed across her mind, and she felt something squeezing her heart. “I don’t understand,” Jin
Li Tam finally said. “You have the recipe. I can arrange whatever ingredients you may need delivered.” The River Woman shook her head, still smiling. “It would not be prudent, Lady Tam.”
Jin Li Tam felt anger rustling awake within her. She could hear her own voice getting cold as she pushed back the chair from the table. “I need those powders,” she said. “If you can’t make them for me, I’m sure Caldus Bay’s woman can oblige me.”
The River Woman’s smile continued, broadening as she clucked. “Lady Tam,” she said, “please sit down.”
Uncertain, Jin paused, then sat. Suddenly, she didn’t feel she could meet the River Woman’s eyes. She looked around the room instead.
She felt the old, rough hand slide over her own and give it a squeeze. “I can’t give you any more,” the
River Woman said, “because they might harm your baby.” Jin’s eyes snapped up. “My what?”
The River Woman nodded. “It’s all over you now. The tone of your skin. The brightneso. T"1es in your eyes. It’s in the very way that you walk.” She stood and walked over to a cabinet, drawing a gold ring with bits of pink and blue ribbon tied to it.
Jin Li Tam felt her heart flutter and expand. “You mean-?”
The River Woman nodded again, picking up a bucket of river water. “You’re with child. Recently, too, I’d say.” She winked.
Jin Li Tam did not know what to say. Instead, she sat still and watched as the woman clenched the ring and its strings in her closed fist, speaking to them in a mumbled tongue she could not place. The River Woman poured the water into a wooden cup, then dropped in the ring, still mumbling.
“Now,” she said, “we see what your water tells the river.”
Jin went into a back room, feeling suddenly awkward and exposed. She felt fear and elation arguing within her over whether she should run or dance. Afterward, when she brought the cup back out, the River Woman took it and set it on the table.
“Now finish your tea, dear,” the River Woman said. “It will take awhile.”
Jin Li Tam looked at the cup and the ring at the bottom of it. The threads were tucked neatly beneath the gold circle, their tips waving slightly in the blended waters. “What if it’s wrong?”
The River Woman shook her head. “Forty years and I’ve yet to not know a woman with child when I saw her walk into this hut-even as soon as the morning after if you get my meaning.” She grinned and sipped her tea.
They finished their tea in silence and sat, watching the cup. Finally, the River Woman clapped her hands. “Delightful,” she said. The blue thread had become disentangled from the ring and drifted to the top.
Jin Li Tam didn’t need to ask what it meant. She fell back into the chair, letting her breath out. She felt tears in the corners of her eyes, and her stomach suddenly felt uncertain. “A boy,” she said in quiet voice.
The River Woman nodded. “A strong one, by the looks of it. What will you name him?”
She didn’t even think about it. The name leaped to mind immediately even though she’d not thought about it before this very moment. “Jakob,” she said. “If Rudolfo concurs.”
The River Woman’s smile filled the room with light. “A strong name for a strong boy.”
Jin Li Tam couldn’t take on #her eyes off the cup now and its blue thread floating in the yellowed river water. “He will need to be,” she said. “He is inheriting a tremendous task.”
The River Woman nodded. “He will be strong because he has strong parents.”
One of the tears broke loose, and Jin Li Tam felt it trace its course down her cheek. “Thank you,” she said.
The River Woman leaned in, her voice low. “Lady Tam,” she said, “it occurs to me that you are more concerned about how this child came to be than you need be. Lord Rudolfo will be delighted and he will not question this.” She paused. “I consider this to be a private matter between you and me.”
Jin Li Tam nodded. “Thank you,” she said again.