"No, baby," she said.
He released her hand and watched two calico kittens out the window. The kittens raced after each other in a flower bed, their fur a patchwork of color among the elephant ears.
"Why'd you bag out on me?" he said, his eyes still concentrated out the window.
"Bag out on you?"
"In the alley. When the perp told you to boogie, you hoofed it big-time."
"I called 911. I got help."
"You didn't scream. That's what women always do when they're at risk. You didn't do that, Cherry."
"You think I was in on it?"
"You knew you were safe as long as you didn't scream. It's funny how fast people can add up the score when they're scared."
She stood motionless for a long moment, her mind back in the alley now, inside the vortex of rain. She saw herself running through the rain puddles that were rain-bowed with engine oil, her windpipe constricted, her breasts bouncing shamelessly in her blouse, and she knew what he said was true, and that an even greater, uglier truth was about to surface in her mind, that she was glad it had happened to him and not her.
The house was hot, full of morning sun trapped between the glass and the freshly painted yellowed walls.
The electric trains coursing down the tracks, emerging from tunnels, clicking across the switches, seemed to amplify in her head. She made herself look directly into Axel's face. The jaws and chin line and brow looked like they had been disassembled and then rejoined and sealed together like the sunken and uneven pieces of an earthen pot.
He touched the point of a canine tooth and looked at the spittle on the ball of his finger, just the way he once did right before he hurt a man in a bar. She saw the network of red lines on his face transferred to hers and she wanted to weep.
"I'll leave, Axel. I mean, if that's what you want," she said, and folded her arms suddenly across her chest, gripping her elbows as though she were cold.
He closed and opened his hand and watched the veins pump with blood in his forearm. Then he picked an apple out of a bowl of fruit and began peeling off the skin with a paring knife, watching it curl like a red and white wood shaving over his thumbnail.
"I'm gonna have a lot of money. I think I'm going to South America and start up a business. You can come," he said.
"Sure, baby," she said, and she realized she was trembling inside.
"So you go home and think about it. Get in touch with your inner self. Then come back tomorrow and let me know… You want to use the bathroom before you go? You look like maybe you're gonna have an accident."
Clete had sublet his apartment from a couple who wanted it back, evidently after the manager had called them in Florida and told them Clete sometimes parked the Cadillac in front with bail skips handcuffed to a I D-ring in the backseat while he showered and changed I clothes or fixed lunch in the apartment. One of the skips I yelled out the window for fifteen minutes, announcing to I the whole neighborhood that he had to use the bathroom. I
On Saturday afternoon Bootsie went to visit her sister I in Lafayette and Alafair and I helped Clete move to a tan stucco cottage in a 1930s motor court down Bayou Teche. The motor court was hemmed in by live-oak and banana and palm trees, and toward evening working-class people cooked on barbecue grills outside the cottages. The sunlight off the bayou glowed through the tunnel of trees like the amber radiance of whiskey | held up against firelight.
After we finished unloading Clete's things from my truck, Clete and I tore up the packing cartons and stuffed them in a trash barrel while Alafair put away his kitchen utensils inside.
"I'm gonna get us some po' boys," he said.
"We'd better go," I said.
"Y'all got to eat. Relax, big mon. Cletus is in charge," he said, then got in his Cadillac and bounced out the drive onto East Main before I could argue.
Alafair walked out of the cottage and looked in both directions. She wore blue-jeans shorts that were rolled high up on her thighs, and a Clorox-stained lavender T-shirt that seemed to hang off the tips of her breasts. A man playing a guitar in front of the cottage next door let his gaze wander over the backs of her legs. I stared at him and he looked away.
"Where's Clete?" she asked.
"He went for some food."
She made a pout with her mouth and blew her breath out her nose. "I have a date, Dave."
"With whom?"
"It's somebody I go to school with. He doesn't have two heads. He's very safe. In fact, he's gay. How's that?"
"I wouldn't have it any other way, Alf."
"My name's Alafair. If you don't want to call me that, why didn't you give me another name?"
"Take the truck. I can get a ride with Clete," I said.
She raised her chin and tapped her foot and put her hands on her hips and looked at the barbecue smoke drifting in the trees. "It's not that big a deal," she said.
I shook my head and walked out to the street and waited for Clete. He turned into the motor court, cut his engine, then walked back to the entrance and looked up East Main.
"What is it?" I asked.
"I'd swear somebody was watching me with binoculars from the Winn-Dixie parking lot," he said.
"Who?"
"You got me. I circled around to get a look and he'd taken off."
"Have you messed with Ritter or this guy Jennings again?" I said.
"I figure Jennings already got his. I'll catch up with Ritter down the road."
We walked back to the cottage, but he kept glancing over his shoulder.
"Alafair, take the truck on home, would you?" I said.
"Just stop telling me what to do, please," she said.
Clete raised his eyebrows and glanced upward at the mockingbirds in the trees as though he'd suddenly developed an interest in ornithology.
"Y'all want to eat on that table by the water?" he said, and lifted a sack of po' boys and a six-pack of Dr Pepper out of the Cadillac, an unlit Lucky Strike hanging from his mouth. He waited until Alafair was out of earshot, put the cigarette behind his ear, and said, "Tell me, Streak, if I quit the juice and start going to meetings, can I enjoy the kind of serenity you do?"
While we ate at a table among a cluster of pine trees, a tall, sinewy man in a small red Japanese station wagon drove farther south of town, crossed a drawbridge, then followed the road back up the Teche to a grassy slope directly opposite the motor court.
He pulled his car down the slope and parked by a canebrake and walked down to the water's edge with a fishing rod and a bait bucket and a folding canvas chair that he flopped open and sat upon.
An elderly black man who had caught no fish was walking up the slope to the road. He glanced into the tall man's face, then looked away quickly, hiding the shock he hoped had not registered in his own face.
The tall man seemed disconcerted, vaguely irritated or angry that someone had looked at him. He gazed at his bobber floating among the lily pads, his back to the black man, and said, as though speaking to the bayou, "You have any luck?"
"Not a bit. Water too high," the black man said.
The tall man nodded and said nothing more, and the black man gained the road and walked toward the distant outline of the house where he lived.
It was dusk now. Across the bayou, Clete Purcel lighted a chemically treated candle that repelled mosquitoes. The fisherman sitting on the canvas stool watched through a pair of opera glasses from the edge of the canebrake as our faces glowed like pieces of yellow parchment in the candlelight.
He went back to his station wagon and opened the front and back doors on the drivers side, creating a kind of blind that shielded him from view. He removed a rifle wrapped in a blanket from the floor and carried it down to the bayou and lay it in the grass at his feet.
It was all about breathing.and heartbeat, locking down on the target, remembering the weapon is your friend, an extension of angles and lines whose intersection your mind created. That's what his father had said.