The big guy opened the driver’s door and climbed behind the wheel, the slender one got in on the rider’s side, and the Toronado started up with a powerful engine throb and rolled by me. I had plastered myself against the door within my recess, enveloping myself in darkness. Or anyway I hoped I had. That big guy could take my switchblade away and hand it to the slender guy, who would pick his teeth with it while the big guy beat me to fucking death with an arm he tore off me.
I wasn’t unhappy to see them go.
Then I heard something that sounded like a key chain rattling, which is exactly what it was. André was locking up Coalition HQ’s rear door after his wee-hours meeting with business associates. He was in a black sharp-collared jumpsuit with red trim and no jacket, but his sleeves were long, so he should be okay in the chill.
Tucked under an arm — right out in the open — was a paper bag, its top folded over, just about the right size for a couple loaves of bread. Of course that wasn’t bread he was carrying away.
He was heading out of the alley when I called out, “André! Wait up.”
He swiveled and I was right there, a few yards from him, the switchblade hidden in my fist, blade still sleeping. If he ran or tried anything, it would wake up.
“Hey, it’s me. Jack. From work. We haven’t had a chance to rap yet.” Sarcastic but lightly so.
“White boy,” he said, voice like sandpaper, eyes diamond hard and rhinestone glittery, “what you wanna do is, walk away now. You wanna jus’ forget what you think you see. Those men? They nasty-ass men. You be very goddamn dead without tryin’.”
“The Reverend himself couldn’t have made a better speech, André. Stay cool. This is no hijacking. I’m not after whatever’s in that paper bag. Coke? Horse? Just don’t care.”
Nostrils flared in the pockmarked, sunken-cheeked puss. “Then why the fuck you standin’ there starin’ at me with that stupid face in the middle of the night?”
“Doesn’t matter what time of day it is, André, you got the same face. Like your face is always there, telling people like me that you’re still using.”
His eyes narrowed, losing none of their hardness. He was sorting through his options. I had no idea whether he had a weapon or not, but chances were he did.
“All I want to know is,” I said, “are you the top of the food chain? Are you cracking the whip or just another mule?”
Why did I want to know? I guessed there must be some part of me that wanted Reverend Lloyd not to be dirty. Some part of me that wanted to walk away from a job that didn’t suit my requirements. I wasn’t soft. Just fussy.
“Why, you think your white ass gettin’ a cut? Ain’t no way.”
“Did I say I wanted a cut of your end? Just tell me. Do you answer to somebody, or is this campus distribution scheme your own brainchild?”
He must not have had a weapon after all, because he flung the paper bag at me and its hard-packed contents hit me in the chest, startling me. That freed his hands, gave him the half-second he needed to rush me, putting a spiky shoulder into my belly and he took me down, hard, on my back.
Now I was looking up at him and damned if he didn’t have a knife, not a switchblade but a fucking combat knife, held in his fist in time-honored stabbing position.
I popped the blade and slashed across his throat, like a stock boy using a box-cutter, and his eyes opened wide, combat knife clattering to the alley floor, and the gash in his throat sprayed my face red, like a horrible spigot had been turned on all the way, and the warm coppery stuff was in my hair and all over my shirt and fucking everywhere, even in my eyes. At least it didn’t burn.
I shoved him off of me and he lay on his side with vacant eyes, the blood oozing from the gash but not really flowing anymore because his heart wasn’t pumping. I was a mess. A bloody mess. How the fuck had Jack the Ripper managed it, anyway?
My shirt and shoes I took off immediately, wrapping the latter in the former, so I wouldn’t leave bloody footprints. Then with all the care I could muster, I left the alley, bare-chested, in stocking feet, making sure as best I could that no cars were coming and nobody was on the sidewalk or in a window. I was shivering and some of it was the chill air. The loaves of dope I dumped down a sewer, the switchblade too, once I’d rubbed any fingerprints off.
Then I moved quickly, though not running, back to the apartment, the alley way. Up the back stairs and getting out of all of my clothes, underwear too, off of me and into the garbage bag with the clothing from the earlier fun and games. Then I took my third or was it fourth shower of the day, and leaned against the shower wall with both hands, my head under the spray and watched the blood go Psycho-ing down the drain.
Afterward, smudgy red was on the towel here and there, and I was bent over bare-ass adding it to the garbage bag of clothing-turned-evidence when Boyd came in. In his undies, finding me stark naked stuffing a bloody towel into the bag. His eyes opened as wide as their puffy pouches would allow.
“I’ll have to reimburse you for the switchblade,” I said.
Thirteen
The water in the YMCA pool was exactly the way I liked it, comfortable once you’d been in for a while, and not so immediately warm that you felt you’d fallen into a great big bath. Just enough snap to the temperature to let you think, and I could stand some of that. Thinking, I mean, although swimming would fill the blank just as well.
As the Broker had suggested, I’d gone to the YMCA on Locust Street in downtown St. Louis, where a room had been booked and paid for, to be seen and to have a look at the cubicle where I’d supposedly been staying. The setup was that you always asked for your key at the desk and handed it in when you left. So between the various clerks, mostly part-timers, kids and the underemployed, it would be assumed I’d already been here.
At the pool, I had an “open swim” time to myself, just me and that echoey lap-lap-lap ambiance that I knew so well and the strangely soothing scent of chlorine in that world of reflecting water that helped me reflect.
Right now I was swimming freestyle with a stroke smooth enough to be envied by a high school champ, like the one I’d once been. At the same time, my mind was finding nothing smooth about how I’d been handling things lately. If you’re somebody who yells at the TV when the hero does something stupid, I can only remind you that this was not TV and I am not a hero.
A hero wouldn’t have impulsively broken ranks at that KKK meeting and caused fiery chaos to erupt. A hero wouldn’t have blundered into the aftermath of a drug deal and slit some bastard’s throat and gotten drenched in warm sticky red. I would have to do better.
Of course, doing better meant leaving St. Looie right now, and if the Broker advised that, I would not argue. What I would learn from this lively debacle was not to let myself be talked into coming out of the shadows where my gun and I belonged to get involved up-close-and-personal in the target’s life and his sphere of influence.
In the pre-dawn hours — after I was showered with blood and then showered blood off me — I’d told Boyd what had happened, more or less, in the alley behind Coalition HQ. The “less” part was that I left out that I’d confronted André, saying instead that he’d caught me eavesdropping.
“Well now,” Boyd said, “we have to scrap the job.”
We were in our underwear at the kitchen table again.