Luce was no longer in the field of smoking craters and meteoric angels.
She was standing in a landscape of pure light. Any terror in her voice did not belong here, could not have existed in this place, which she knew and did not know.
She had a sense of where she was, but it couldn’t possibly be real.
Streaming from her soul was a strong, rich chord of music so beautiful that it turned everything around her white. The crater was gone. The Earth was gone. Her body was—
She didn’t know. She couldn’t see it. She couldn’t see anything but this fantastic silver-tinged white glow. The brightness unfolded like a package until Luce could make out a vast white meadow spread out before her. Splendid groves of white trees lined either side of the field.
In the distance was a rippling silver ledge. Luce sensed it was important. Then she saw that there were seven more of them, forming a grand arch in the air around something so bright Luce couldn’t stand to look at it.
She focused on the ledge, the third one from the left.
She could not wrest her gaze from it. Why?
Because . . . Her memory reeled back. . . . Because—
This ledge belonged to her.
Long before, she used to sit here, next to . . . who? It seemed to matter.
Her vision swirled and faded and the silver ledge dis-solved. The remaining whiteness focused, separating into shapes, into—
Faces. Bodies. Wings. A backdrop of blue sky.
This was not a memory. She was back in the present, her real and final life. Around her stood her teachers Francesca and Steven; her allies the Outcasts; her friends Roland, Arriane, Annabelle, and Cam. And her love, Daniel. She stared at each one of them and she found them so beautiful. They were watching her with dumb joy on their faces. They were also crying.
The gift of self-knowledge, Dee had told her. You must remember how to dream what you already know.
All this had been within her the whole time, in every instant of her every life. Yet only now did Luce feel awake beyond her capacity to imagine what it meant to be awake. A light wind blew across her skin and she could feel the distant sea carried on it from the Mediter-ranean, telling her she was still in Troy. Her vision, too, was clearer than it had ever been before. She saw brilliant dots of pigment making up the wings of a passing golden butterfly. She breathed in the cold air, filling her lungs, smelling the zinc in the loamy soil that would make it fertile in the spring.
“I was there,” she whispered. “I was in—” Heaven.
But she couldn’t say it. She knew too much to deny it—and yet not enough to speak the words. Daniel. He would help her.
Go on, his eyes were pleading.
Where did she begin? She touched the locket with the picture taken when she and Daniel had lived in Milan.
“When I visited my past life in Helston,” she began,
“I learned that our love ran deeper than who we were in any single lifetime—”
“Yes,” Daniel said. “Our love transcends everything.”
“And . . . when I visited Tibet, I learned that a single touch or kiss was not the trigger to my curse.”
“Not touch.” Roland’s voice. He was smiling, standing next to Daniel with his hands clasped behind his back. “Not touch but self-awareness. A level you weren’t ready for—until now.”
“Yes.” Luce touched her forehead. There was more, so much more. “Versailles.” She began to speak more quickly. “I was condemned to marry a man I didn’t love.
And your kiss released me, and my death was glorious because we would always find each other again. Forever.”
“Together forever, whatever the weather,” Arriane chimed in, swiping damp eyes on Roland’s shirtsleeve.
By now Luce’s throat felt so tight it was difficult to speak. But it was no longer sore. “I didn’t realize until London that your curse was so much worse than mine,” she said to Daniel. “What you had to go through, losing me—”
“It never mattered,” Annabelle murmured, her wings buzzing so much that her feet were inches off the ground.
“He would always wait for you.”
“Chichén Itzá.” Luce closed her eyes. “I learned that an angel’s glory could be deadly to mortals.”
“Yes,” Steven said. “But you’re still here.”
“Keep going, Luce.” Francesca’s voice was more encouraging than it had ever been at Shoreline.
“Ancient China.” She paused. This one’s significance was different from the others. “You showed me that our love was more important than any arbitrary war.” No one spoke. Daniel gave the faintest nod.
And that was when Luce understood, not just who she was—but what it all added up to. There was another lifetime from her voyage through the Announcers that Luce felt she had to mention. She took a breath.
Don’t think of Bill, she told herself. You are not afraid.
“When I was locked in the tomb in Egypt, I knew once and for all that I would always choose your love.” That was when the angels dropped to one knee, gazing up at her expectantly—all of them except Daniel.
His eyes glowed the most potent shade of violet she had ever seen. He reached for her, but before his hands met hers:
“Auugh!” Luce cried out as a sharp pain sliced through her back. Her body convulsed with a foreign, piercing sensation. Her eyes teared. Her ears rang. She thought she might be sick from the pain. But slowly, it localized, from an acute agony all over her back, into two small sections at the tops of her shoulder blades.
Was she bleeding? She reached back, over her shoulder. The wound felt tender and raw, and also as if something were being drawn out from within her. It didn’t hurt, but it was bewildering. Panicked, she whirled her head around but she could see nothing, could only hear the sound of skin sliding and being stretched, the thrrrrrp that sounded like new muscles were being generated.
Then came a sudden feeling of heaviness, as if weights had been strapped around her shoulders.
And then—in her peripheral vision, vast billowing whiteness on either side of her as a collective gasp rose from the angels’ lips.
“Oh, Lucinda,” Daniel whispered, his hand covering his mouth.
It was this easy: She spread her wings.
They were luminous, buoyant, impossibly light, made of the finest, most reflective empyrean matter. From tip to tip, her wingspan was maybe thirty feet, but they felt vast, endless. She felt no more pain. When her fingers curled around the base of them behind her shoulders, they were several inches thick and plush. They were silver, yet not silver, like the surface of a mirror. They were inconceivable; they were inevitable.
They were her wings.
They contained every ounce of strength and empow-erment she had amassed over the millennia she had lived.
And at the slightest whim of a thought, her wings began to beat.
Her first thought: I can do anything now.
Wordlessly, she and Daniel reached for one another’s hands. Their wing tips arched forward in a kind of kiss, like the angels’ wings on the Qayom Malak. They were crying and laughing, and soon, they were kissing.
“So?” he asked.
She was stunned and amazed—and happier than she’d ever been before. It couldn’t possibly be real, she thought—unless she spoke the truth aloud, with Daniel and the rest of the fallen angels there to witness.
“I’m Lucinda,” she said. “I’m your angel.”
SEVENTEEN
THE INVENTION OF LOVE
Flying was like swimming, and Luce was good at both.
Her feet lifted off the ground. It took no thought or preparation. Her wings beat with sudden intuition. Wind hummed against the fibers of her wings, carrying her in the gauzy pink sky. Aloft, she felt the weight of her body, especially in her feet, but overpowering that was a new, unimaginable buoyancy. She slid over low tiers of clouds, causing the slightest disruption, like a breeze passing through a chime.