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‘Is he trying to pull my leg?’ the commander growled. ‘Does he think he can pull my leg?’

The stationmaster bowed his head, as if he had somehow committed a crime.

There was a silence.

‘Fine, then,’ the commander said finally. ‘Go back to your house!’

As Mensur watched him go, he swallowed hard.

The commander stayed there in front of the building all night long, pacing back and forth in front of Mensur like a bird of prey, stopping every so often to shake his head and touch the gun on his hip. And Mensur just sat there watching him, wide-eyed.

At sunrise the commander opened up the tarpaulin at the back of one of the trucks parked next to the flagpole, and ordered his men to put Mensur inside it. And so they untied that huge man and hurled him into the back of that truck. After winding four ropes around his wrists and ankles, they tied him to the side hooks in a way that would keep him standing. Mensur remained silent while they did all this, and he took no interest in the soldiers who were tying him up. Instead he braced his huge shoulders, and fixed his eyes on the commander. They were huge, these eyes. And luminous, and bewildered. Meanwhile, the commander just stood there, a few paces away from the truck. Every so often, he would shake his head. And each time he did so, he changed a bit more, until he had left behind the fair-skinned man who had found the border so distressing, and who had never once raised his voice, let alone a finger. Suddenly he was a different man, bursting with anger.

By now the soldiers had finished knotting the ropes. One by one they jumped off the back of the truck.

‘You two,’ said the commander, pointing at Resul and Ziya. ‘Get back there with the smuggler! Don’t take your eyes off him for a single second!’

Resul and Ziya did as they were told; climbing straight into the back of the truck, they sat down on either side of Mensur, holding their rifles crossways.

Then the commander jumped into the front of the truck, and soon they were speeding off towards Ceylanpınar, leaving clouds of dust in their wake. And there was Mensur, standing upright in the middle of the back of the truck, breathing heavily through flared nostrils as his huge body swayed from side to side. Each time he righted himself, he would, without willing it, stare straight into his guards’ eyes. And each time he did this, Resul and Ziya would quickly look away, as nervously as if they’d been caught red-handed. So nervously, they didn’t know where to look. Seeing the state they were in, Mensur made them more nervous still by looking down at his feet with the faintest of smiles. Then he turned to the right to look at Syria, and for a long time he gazed at its fields and its hills and the one-storey mud-brick houses in its distant villages. He was still looking at Syria as the truck left the road running alongside the barbed wire and climbed up the little hill to Mezartepe. When he saw the truck approaching, the cook adjusted his rifle. He went to the side of the building and stood at attention.

‘Bring everyone out,’ said the commander, as he stepped down from the truck.

The cook ran off to the dormitory to wake up the sleeping men. Bewildered, they pulled on their clothes and came out to the front of the building.

‘Look,’ said the commander. ‘I caught this smuggler alive last night!’

Their eyes still fogged with sleep, the soldiers looked into the back of the truck. And as they did so, the commander looked at how they looked. And then, with a great deal of swaggering, he told them how they had seen something moving in the grass that night, while out on patrol, and how they had swept it with the searchlight, and bam, there was Mensur, blinking like a rabbit, and though he had made every effort to escape, they had pounced on him and, after a mighty struggle, taken him captive. The soldiers were lined up and standing at attention. They listened, wide-eyed, to the commander’s every word. Mensur listened, too, even though he knew no Turkish, and every once in a while he would allow himself a gentle smile, as if he had understood what the commander was saying, and found it greatly exaggerated. On the commander’s order, the soldiers stopped standing at attention and walked around the sides of the truck, to get a closer look at Mensur. The commander, meanwhile, kept his distance, going into the shade at the side of the stone wall, and lighting up a cigarette, and looking out at the view through his own billowing smoke.

After Mensur had been put on display there like a circus animal for a good half hour, they moved on to Seyrantepe, and then Ege, and then Boztepe, Telhamut, and Yıldıran. When this last show ended, Ziya assumed they would be heading back, but that didn’t happen. Instead they headed west to enter the next company’s territory, and to visit each of its guardhouses. And soon they had followed the road along the barbed-wire fence to the other edge of this territory, and in the early evening they arrived in front of the stone building that with its high walls and crenellations looked so much like a little desert fort. Capflyer came zipping out, faster than a flea. After shaking hands with the commander, he went to give Mensur a long, hard look. Then he gathered together all the soldiers in the company headquarters, so that they could all walk around the truck whispering, and viewing Mensur from different angles. And of course the commander told his story again, in some detail. This was how they’d closed in on him. This was how he’d twisted his arm. This was how he’d grabbed him by the nape of his neck. The soldiers were still walking around the truck looking at Mensur as they listened. And the more Capflyer heard, the more he warmed to the story, and every so often he’d gaze up at the sky open-mouthed and slap his legs and let out a peal of laughter.

But Mensur had not said one thing while they paraded him around like this. He’d just stared back at them, with those large, shining and bewildered eyes. And every time the commander told how he’d taken him captive, Mensur would smile faintly, just as he had back at Mezartepe. But here at the neighbouring company’s headquarters he’d stopped smiling. He’d had no food or water all day and that had sapped his strength. His head was bent forward, and he was having trouble breathing. From time to time, he made a strange little mewing sound, even. All day long, his great body had been swaying from one side of that truck to the other, and the ropes around his wrists had chafed so that now there were bloody strips of skin dangling from his arms. These strips of skin were as worn as shreds of leather rising up from an eternity in the cool depths of the River Tigris. Just as that river snakes out to fill the Harran Plain, so these shreds of skin snaked into their hearts, because somehow they knew: that plain, and with it, the world, was beyond their reach. And that was why Ziya couldn’t bear to look at them. He just shivered, and looked elsewhere. Mensur wasn’t looking at him or Resul any more either. Resting his forehead on his wrists, he looked down at the dust blowing across the truck floor.

When they at last left the neighbouring company’s headquarters to return to Telhamut, Mensur was still watching the dust blow across that truck floor.

Ziya climbed over the ropes to speak to Resul. In a soft voice he said, ‘Do you know what? The devil says. .’

‘Shut up,’ said Resul. ‘Don’t you go telling me what the devil said. We’re just following his orders, so we don’t fail our military service!’

Ziya stared into Resul’s eyes.

‘For God’s sake,’ asked Resul. ‘How many months do you have behind you already? Eighteen. Am I right?’

‘You’re right,’ said Ziya. ‘I have eighteen months behind me. I’m out in two months, as you know.’